Story how i have been losing my sanity slowly but steady for the past 2 years (thx to the blackpill)

[packardD]

It has really been downhill for me for the past 2 years in terms of mental health, thx to the blackpill of course. when i got into jewuniversity i got struck hard with all the normie couples / chads / stasies etc. (keep in mind i was homeschooled). It was uncomfortable for the first time, but to be completely honest even though i was blackpilled long before all that, for some reason during the first semester it didn't really bother me. But then something changed... I don't remember exactly but there was this ugly-ish 3.5-4/10 guy in my group (he then switched groups) who managed to get into a relationship with some ltb and the affection between them seemed mutual. The thing is he was around 5'7/weak 5'8 but he was very talkative and outgoing as far as i can remember. I knew he wasn't necessarily better looking than me so it drove me mad that he managed to get a gf just because he was hyper NT. That was the first time in years i actually got really mad at my parents for homeschooling me. I started to notice i was virtually the only non nt guy in the entire university. That alone made me realise how much more advantage normies have on me even in this department. Add to that mediocre height and ugly face (i can softmaxx but i am to lazy and don't see the point) and after a couple of months of lurking on looksmax.org and rewatching those OG blackpill videos from the 90's and whatnot, guess what? i started losing my mind. My physical appearenace became my only interest and concern in life. My grades have been downfalling like crazy since then even though i managed to pass the exams and all that but still. And now its late 2024, almost 2025, i have made literally 0 progress in life, actually i have been gradually degrading both physically and mentally. At this point my memory is non-existent, i have severe depression, severe social anxiety, i have to catch up on like a month of work?! My parents are yelling at me but there is nothing i can do. Brutal.

@VintageCarCoper @Grodd @light @wereq

 

[Grodd]

I could never stand being in university i'd fucking become psychotic within a day

 

[Skoga]

I could never stand being in university i'd fucking become psychotic within a day

Same, NEET is the only way to go for me. NPNW

 

[Grodd]

Same, NEET is the only way to go for me. NPNW

Based

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

I could never stand being in university i'd fucking become psychotic within a day

 

[Darth Aries]

I’ve slowly lost my mind just from how much time I spend in my room and on my phone. Seeing old childhood videos of mine, I looked so much happier, healthier, and spoke even more clearly than I do now. It’s as if that girl who ruined my life stripped me of my sanity due to unrequited love.

 

[BPJ]

brutal NTpill strikes again.

 

[Haden_]

I could never stand being in university i'd fucking become psychotic within a day

 

[curryboy420]

I could never stand being in university i'd fucking become psychotic within a day

I'm lucky that I went to university and met another incel asian guy like me in my first lecture and I told him to come smoke joint with me and then we used to just sit in my room together and I used to share my weed with him because he didn't get any loan that year from wrong paperwork. And even though I was a Jew cunt and counted each one of our puffs to keep it properly accounted, he didn't mind. And we did that until one of the normies snitched and the police arrested me in my room and then I got 2 drug possession charges and they tried to call me a drug dealer but dropped that charge when they knew they ain't gonna prove some incel guy who never leaves his room is a dealer to the judge. That was the beginning of my criminality. The I dropped out of uni and now 10 years later I have nobody and nothing and am gonna kill myself real soon . The end.

 

[turbosperg]

NT

If you're not NT it never began from you.

Being homeschooled saved you from a decade of bullying and having a mental collapse.'

Now you gotta push through college and get a good job to be able to afford quality COPES, or else you'll rot in your room and become insane.

 

[Grodd]

I'm lucky that I went to university and met another incel asian guy like me in my first lecture and I told him to come smoke joint with me and then we used to just sit in my room together and I used to share my weed with him because he didn't get any loan that year from wrong paperwork. And even though I was a Jew cunt and counted each one of our puffs to keep it properly accounted, he didn't mind. And we did that until one of the normies snitched and the police arrested me in my room and then I got 2 drug possession charges and they tried to call me a drug dealer but dropped that charge when they knew they ain't gonna prove some incel guy who never leaves his room is a dealer to the judge. That was the beginning of my criminality. The I dropped out of uni and now 10 years later I have nobody and nothing and am gonna kill myself real soon . The end.

Fucking brutal getting arrested for that shit

How are you gonna rope

 

[curryboy420]

Fucking brutal getting arrested for that shit

How are you gonna rope

I saved up enough to have options I can buy a gun on the black market or i can go to a shooting range in a legal country or I can buy a motorbike 500cc and ride into a truck or I can build an explosive helmet and blow my head off or i can do the nitrogen asphyxiation thing or I can get some nembutal from Mexico or I can suicide by cop, or I can go work on a fishing trawler and do risky shit and I'll one day slip into the ocean and nobody will find me again

Lots of options to be honest but it's hard to pick one, analysis paralysis

 

[Grodd]

I saved up enough to have options I can buy a gun on the black market or i can go to a shooting range in a legal country or I can buy a motorbike 500cc and ride into a truck or I can build an explosive helmet and blow my head off or i can do the nitrogen asphyxiation thing or I can get some nembutal from Mexico or I can suicide by cop, or I can go work on a fishing trawler and do risky shit and I'll one day slip into the ocean and nobody will find me again

Lots of options to be honest but it's hard to pick one, analysis paralysis

If you're gonna do it atleast pick one that is painless