In less than 2 months I will be 20, since 2 years I discovered the blackpill and realized the brutal reality of being short ugly sub5 useless teenager with no future also the reality that most foids are whores and evil, I collapsed and got into deep depression that destroyed my life and personality, I became cruel with my parents specially my dad, he was dying in the hospital and whenever anyone told me to visit my father and take care of him, I refused and said that I hated him because he was the cause of my suffering and I only saw him as a corpse on the day he died.
In this period, I notice that my desire for foids and marriage is noticeably less than my desire at 18, when I see couples even without marriage, I no longer be sad like I did at 18 and the start of 19.
Yes, I have sex drive and I wanna have sex and lose the KHHV card but I just gave up and I am trying to cope and adapting to the lonely life that I will live, my only wish is not to live too long and be like lonely old man, I just want to die on my feet.
Most foids now are like cheap sex objects im my eyes.
In this period, I notice that my desire for foids and marriage is noticeably less than my desire at 18, when I see couples even without marriage, I no longer be sad like I did at 18 and the start of 19.
Yes, I have sex drive and I wanna have sex and lose the KHHV card but I just gave up and I am trying to cope and adapting to the lonely life that I will live, my only wish is not to live too long and be like lonely old man, I just want to die on my feet.
Most foids now are like cheap sex objects im my eyes.
