Having nothing to do but think is as brutal as it gets.

[never began]

I woke up in the middle of 3 AM and absolutely cannot go to sleep anymore, I'm just browsing my phone and thinking. Remembering. All the fucking anguish. There's nothing to help me cope, I'm just stuck reliving humiliations as i watch the clock go by so I can go to work, which I know will have even more terrible times for me to experience.

 

[The Wolf]

I experience this so many times.

Also I literally don't know what happiness or joy means. I'm in jail. Life sentence.