If i had the money i would hire one, A lot of weird shit happen to me, I dont want to sound like a schizo but i think im being part of some kind of sick reality show or more precisely being gigabullied by a lot of people of my past are who constantly trying to ruin everything i try to do, Heres an example , Last year i tried to get a job in monterrey ( Northern state of cartel-land ) , I tried to get a job in a company called EULEN with the help of my less asshole female cousin but they fucking ghosted me, When i returned to my shitty state i saw a car parked near my house and had the logo of the EULEN company, I freaked out , Then after some days i received the news that my cousin and her husband were fired without a fucking reason and now they dont talk to me , The few people who tried to help me to fix my shit life always end up having problems one way or another , This shit cant be a coincidence and im done with it , I feel like some shady group of assholes want me to go ER , Kill myself or drive me insane , Haha but all they managed to get to this point is me developing deviant sadistic tastes like guro and some other sick shit , IDK should i try to hire a private investigator through deep web or something? I feel like i must do something...at least out of boredom.
What are your thoughts on private detectives? Is it worth the time and money? Also i think doctors always refuse to fix my health issues cuz they somehow know they will get in trouble if they help me...Sick shit...sick reality...sick humans.
Note : It cant be a coincidence i saw that car with the logo of the company because monterrey and veracruz are at the opposite sides of mexico , And if it was....i feel truly cursed and that this fucking universe and the demiurge and causality love torturing me and my only reason to exist is to live as lolcow and my suffering being harvested for sick reasons.
Your house might have gaseous pff gassing like carbon monoxide. Very schitzo. Keep your mind still for as long as possible. If it literally starts talking to you in the second person perspective like "you need to watch out for..." instead of "I need to watch out for..." then you might be like me and have paranoia personality and schitzo like self chatter.
I just practice ignoring the fuck out of it. I had a similar tendency to ascribe my choices to bad luck. So I just accepted it, "my choice will lead to bad luck" and just kept an eye out for when things go wrong and just fix it.
So reach out to your cousin and instead of asking for help flip it and just tops out the idea to see if you can lend out help. "Sorry to hear the company didn't work out. But if you are over here on this side of Mexico for any job interviews I'll spare you the couch if you just need to spend the night."
My mental conspiracy self talk was more ethereal like causing my mom to pop a tire on the way to pick me up because I had a "feeling" she was going to be late. Probably just a coincidence of thought.
Just stop believing in psychic and other non-normal narratives and practice thinking that most everything in the world is falling apart. Most everything is a string of bad luck and opportunities (good luck) sometimes. Other times opportunities are scarce especially like cartel land or just being low tier male. So the bad luck is strung much longer.
Hope your mental health gets better but don't believe everything your mind thinks or feels to be true. You can ignore a lot of thoughts and be patient and think logically through some of the "bad luck" before you accept the narrative your mind first thinks up.
When something bad happens don't dwell on it. You'll start making coincidences into connections. Start doing other things unrelated like reading, gardening, lifting weights, running. Let your short term memory clear so you don't make those low iq mental connections. Don't dwell, the connections are fake. My family has the same tendency because the have "god has a plan" and "everything has a reason" mentality but they are so off on their conclusions. My mom is hyper paranoid of her social circle (foids are hyper conniving and hate each other) when she doesn't have hobbies to distract her. I used that as a model for fixing my own mind. Literally ignore and find a mentally occupying hobby so that even if it is true you end up walking past the annoyances of life and move on. Tiny inconveniences at best. Ignore the ant hills, don't make them mountains.
I suck at gardening but I start going to my plants to troubleshoot when negative things happen in my life. My brother "un stresses" with exercise, planning meals and workout setup. This occupies my short term and active memory. Focus helps clear the clutter. It's like meditation but less useless
Don't waste money on a detective. Just work on some mental clear out habits.
Last random thought. Foids are crazy because they dwell. They don't have hobbies and any tiny drama becomes huge. They also don't like to use their brains for troubleshooting or planning unless they have some life goals. Don't be like a foid. Build up a manly brain. Learn to ignore that bullshit inconveniences that life throws and move forward past it.
This shit cant be a coincidence
Please know that it can be a coincidence. Don't let your mind make it any bigger. Just write it down if you don't want to forget permanently, but start moving your mind elsewhere. Take it off your mind so it doesn't make connections between unrelated events.
Write it like a fictional story.
2 ways to write a fiction novel you have the premise of cause and effect.
Unraveling the past is "this happened because of a coincidence"
But adventure stories are more like "this happened and then this happened" just a string of coincidences.
Your mind is following fiction story telling. Humans are built for it. That's why movies, books, plays make a prominent role in society. We all think like this. We are conspiratorial in our dna. But it doesn't mean there are conspiracies. Very likely not. Imagine the energy to expend to create a movie. The conspiracy around you would need the same level or more of energy. So break the habit of believing conspiracies.