Venting [First post] I don't have the energy to keep living

[Seven7]

For 3 years I've dealt with passive suicidal ideation (thinking and fantasizing about suicide and not caring if you'd die but not actually planning to do it) almost on a daily basis, but yesterday I reached a point where I seriously thought about doing it. I'd probably do it by jumping on a train track.

No matter how many times I try to improve and do something with my life, I always fail and obsess over the fact that no amount of effort will compensate my genetic inferiority (mainly my height). I'm not saying it's not possible to be happy as a manlet. But, personally, I can't.

Lastly, I wanted to write a higher effort first post but I'm lazy so I'll copypaste an altered version of the text I wrote last night to join the forum.

Stats:
- Early 20s.
- Spain (if I make any mistake, that's why).
- Currently a NEET.
- KHV (Kissless Handholdless Virgin).
- 5'4 / 163 cm (barefoot). Basically the average zoomer foid height in my country.
- LTN face. I could improve to MTN with looksmaxxing, but at my height it's pointless.
- Subhuman both in terms of physical attractiveness and SMV.

I have lots of free time but I'm depressed so I waste most of it and don't do anything productive, meaningful or even enjoyable with it. The few people I may call friends don't live close to me so my social life and social interactions in general are pretty much non-existent. I actually prefer it this way because the vast majority of social interactions I remember throughout my life have been negative.

I discovered the bluepill / redpill / blackpill, inceldom and the manosphere a couple years ago and spent months researching and lurking in forums, then stopped till recently. In this timeframe there were periods of time in which I tried to do something with my life, improve my habits, study and maybe even ascend some day. But sooner or later I lost motivation and realized I will never be happy or come to terms with living as a 5'4 man.

I wanna join the forum to share my thoughts and maybe even meet people.

 

[xyxx]

see you tomorrow

 

[Emba]

Weak first post.

Spoiler

Or maybe strong post, but weak is just in the title? (So it was funnier to say weak post.)

 

[Genetics_subhuman]

I'm not saying it's not possible to be happy as a manlet.

It’s

 

[PersonalityChad]

Welcome to the forum br0

5'4 / 163 cm

My condolences

 

[Genetics_subhuman]

For 3 years I've dealt with passive suicidal ideation (thinking and fantasizing about suicide and not caring if you'd die but not actually planning to do it) almost on a daily basis, but yesterday I reached a point where I seriously thought about doing it. I'd probably do it by jumping on a train track.

No matter how many times I try to improve and do something with my life, I always fail and obsess over the fact that no amount of effort will compensate my genetic inferiority (mainly my height). I'm not saying it's not possible to be happy as a manlet. But, personally, I can't.

Lastly, I wanted to write a higher effort first post but I'm lazy so I'll copypaste an altered version of the text I wrote last night to join the forum.

Stats:
- Early 20s.
- Spain (if I make any mistake, that's why).
- Currently a NEET.
- KHV (Kissless Handholdless Virgin).
- 5'4 / 163 cm (barefoot). Basically the average zoomer foid height in my country.
- LTN face. I could improve to MTN with looksmaxxing, but at my height it's pointless.
- Subhuman both in terms of physical attractiveness and SMV.

I have lots of free time but I'm depressed so I waste most of it and don't do anything productive, meaningful or even enjoyable with it. The few people I may call friends don't live close to me so my social life and social interactions in general are pretty much non-existent. I actually prefer it this way because the vast majority of social interactions I remember throughout my life have been negative.

I discovered the bluepill / redpill / blackpill, inceldom and the manosphere a couple years ago and spent months researching and lurking in forums, then stopped till recently. In this timeframe there were periods of time in which I tried to do something with my life, improve my habits, study and maybe even ascend some day. But sooner or later I lost motivation and realized I will never be happy or come to terms with living as a 5'4 man.

I wanna join the forum to share my thoughts and maybe even meet people.

It’s over cope or rope, a Niglet in here said that suicide is the same thing as drinking coffee,one day you’ll do it as if it wasn’t anything

 

[Mr Black]

I’m sorry, im 165 cm and from a tallfag country too. I hope you find your peace.

 

[Mr Black]

Also welcome

 

[DoomThreeKoala]

It's over for you.
And remember, once you're here, you can't escape.

 

[Leon98]

Most Zoomers I see are absolute heightmoggers, I get towered over by teenagers and I’m only around average height myself.

 

[Genetics_subhuman]

It's over for you.
And remember, once you're here, you can't escape.

 

[Genetics_subhuman]

Most Zoomers I see are absolute heightmoggers, I get towered over by teenagers and I’m only around average height myself.

The worse thing is getting heighmogged by a foid

 

[Leon98]

The worse thing is getting heighmogged by a foid

 

[CopinKoala]

I'm 168cm and literally see no male young person over 15 shorter than me. They must be feeding these zoomers GHs nowadays. My condolences.

 

[Grodd]

Brutal welcome to the forum

 

[kay']

Welcome mango

 

[zd60]

Welcome bro

 

[kay']

Just say nigger and you'll feel better

 

[DutchCel01]

Weak first post.

Spoiler

Or maybe strong post, but weak is just in the title? (So it was funnier to say weak post.)

 

[The Abyss]

I'm 168cm and literally see no male young person over 15 shorter than me. They must be feeding these zoomers GHs nowadays. My condolences.

The animals & crops are full of growth hormones n shit so yeah. Also many women getting knocked up by tall chads to boot.

 

[EternalStorm]

Welcome amigo

 

[LeFrenchCel]

Welcome

 

[Gronk98]

Some whitepills:
1. Wear shoe lifts to heightfraud
2. Get an online income
3. Move to the Philippines, one of the shortest countries in the world. It is known as "Tutorial Island" for a reason.

Also, I am curious about moving to Spain: how is the dating situation there? I have heard women are extremely promiscuous and not marriage minded. And is the country being overrun by arabs?

Thanks.

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

Welcome brocel.

 

[DreamCoper]

Welcome and sorry for your loss

 

[DreamCoper]

Some whitepills:
1. Wear shoe lifts to heightfraud
2. Get an online income
3. Move to the Philippines, one of the shortest countries in the world. It is known as "Tutorial Island" for a reason.

Also, I am curious about moving to Spain: how is the dating situation there? I have heard women are extremely promiscuous and not marriage minded. And is the country being overrun by arabs?

Thanks.

That is not whitepill, that is redpill.

 

[Yabadadabadoo]

For 3 years I've dealt with passive suicidal ideation (thinking and fantasizing about suicide and not caring if you'd die but not actually planning to do it) almost on a daily basis, but yesterday I reached a point where I seriously thought about doing it. I'd probably do it by jumping on a train track.

No matter how many times I try to improve and do something with my life, I always fail and obsess over the fact that no amount of effort will compensate my genetic inferiority (mainly my height). I'm not saying it's not possible to be happy as a manlet. But, personally, I can't.

Lastly, I wanted to write a higher effort first post but I'm lazy so I'll copypaste an altered version of the text I wrote last night to join the forum.

Stats:
- Early 20s.
- Spain (if I make any mistake, that's why).
- Currently a NEET.
- KHV (Kissless Handholdless Virgin).
- 5'4 / 163 cm (barefoot). Basically the average zoomer foid height in my country.
- LTN face. I could improve to MTN with looksmaxxing, but at my height it's pointless.
- Subhuman both in terms of physical attractiveness and SMV.

I have lots of free time but I'm depressed so I waste most of it and don't do anything productive, meaningful or even enjoyable with it. The few people I may call friends don't live close to me so my social life and social interactions in general are pretty much non-existent. I actually prefer it this way because the vast majority of social interactions I remember throughout my life have been negative.

I discovered the bluepill / redpill / blackpill, inceldom and the manosphere a couple years ago and spent months researching and lurking in forums, then stopped till recently. In this timeframe there were periods of time in which I tried to do something with my life, improve my habits, study and maybe even ascend some day. But sooner or later I lost motivation and realized I will never be happy or come to terms with living as a 5'4 man.

I wanna join the forum to share my thoughts and maybe even meet people.

Mogs me

 

[mariomariuss]

welcome

 

[Yabadadabadoo]

Most Zoomers I see are absolute heightmoggers, I get towered over by teenagers and I’m only around average height myself.

I get towered by gen alpha

 

[MASTERBAYTER6690]

For 3 years I've dealt with passive suicidal ideation (thinking and fantasizing about suicide and not caring if you'd die but not actually planning to do it) almost on a daily basis, but yesterday I reached a point where I seriously thought about doing it. I'd probably do it by jumping on a train track.

No matter how many times I try to improve and do something with my life, I always fail and obsess over the fact that no amount of effort will compensate my genetic inferiority (mainly my height). I'm not saying it's not possible to be happy as a manlet. But, personally, I can't.

Lastly, I wanted to write a higher effort first post but I'm lazy so I'll copypaste an altered version of the text I wrote last night to join the forum.

Stats:
- Early 20s.
- Spain (if I make any mistake, that's why).
- Currently a NEET.
- KHV (Kissless Handholdless Virgin).
- 5'4 / 163 cm (barefoot). Basically the average zoomer foid height in my country.
- LTN face. I could improve to MTN with looksmaxxing, but at my height it's pointless.
- Subhuman both in terms of physical attractiveness and SMV.

I have lots of free time but I'm depressed so I waste most of it and don't do anything productive, meaningful or even enjoyable with it. The few people I may call friends don't live close to me so my social life and social interactions in general are pretty much non-existent. I actually prefer it this way because the vast majority of social interactions I remember throughout my life have been negative.

I discovered the bluepill / redpill / blackpill, inceldom and the manosphere a couple years ago and spent months researching and lurking in forums, then stopped till recently. In this timeframe there were periods of time in which I tried to do something with my life, improve my habits, study and maybe even ascend some day. But sooner or later I lost motivation and realized I will never be happy or come to terms with living as a 5'4 man.

I wanna join the forum to share my thoughts and maybe even meet people.

Same, early 20's, neet, ldar and gooning, one drunken got close to jumping off a bridge but I pussy out

 

[WastedPotential]

Just say nigger and you'll feel better

View: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=onib3bDo6Z0

 

[Leon98]

Broootal

 

[KetamineCel]

being a Spaincel has got to be fucking suifuel, i feel for you, but the greatest thing you can do is stay alive as the ultimate fuck you to our gynocentric society, they built this system to make us kill ourselves

 

[Gronk98]

That is not whitepill, that is redpill.

Whitepill is the stage after blackpill I think. When u accept the hand you've been dealt without despair and try to find real solutions.

 

[Seven7]

Some whitepills:
1. Wear shoe lifts to heightfraud
2. Get an online income
3. Move to the Philippines, one of the shortest countries in the world. It is known as "Tutorial Island" for a reason.

Also, I am curious about moving to Spain: how is the dating situation there? I have heard women are extremely promiscuous and not marriage minded. And is the country being overrun by arabs?

Thanks.

1. If I wore 2.5 inches of footwear, I'd be 5'5.5, assuming an average of 1 inch footwear. At that height it's still over in Spain. I could try +3 inches but that's extremely risky, especially if you're short ironically. But you're right that I should start using them to stand out less bc of my height.
2. That's my plan, yes.
3. The mere thought of having to move to another country just to have a small chance to ascend, purely because of reasons out of my control, kills me inside. But it's an option.

Spain is fucked for dating if you're not attractive, similarly to the US and the rest of the west. Promiscuity is pretty normalized and having a LTR is relatively rare even if you're attractive. Most female zoomers are leftists and brainwashed with feminist ideas, there's a huge gender ideology gap. Furthermore, getting married is extremely risky due to the gender laws here, which is something I don't know if it happens in any other country to the same extent.

As to arabs, yes. 19% of the population are immigrants (11% from outside of Europe), which is pretty high. This is causing the security issues you can probably expect, but most of the population is brainwashed so they don't see it as a problem or aren't even aware of it.

 

[Seven7]

Same, early 20's, neet, ldar and gooning, one drunken got close to jumping off a bridge but I pussy out

About 6 years ago, I went to a bridge in my city just to see if I could kill myself by jumping off it (although I wasn't planning to do it that day), but it isn't tall enough, for better or for worse. If that wasn't the case, I think there's a 30% chance I would have killed myself, which is relatively high.

 

[Seven7]

Thanks for all the welcomes.

 

[antisocialcel]

Brutal

 

[TheCatMan]

Welcome

 

[DreamCoper]

Whitepill is the stage after blackpill I think. When u accept the hand you've been dealt without despair and try to find real solutions.

Nigga thats called cope, whitepill is accepting it, full stop.