
SwiftQuill
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- Jan 14, 2025
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I had an argument with someone, and they pulled the "oh please you're a cis white male, don't act like your life is so hard".
I just can't. I'm a fucking virgin at 27. I'm burnt out from work. I'm working full time and taking a Master's part time. And as many guys on here I'm on the spectrum.
I don't want to talk about my life story but I haven't had it easy. Every small thing I got in my life was through sheer struggle. No one ever "handed me anything on a silver platter".
I'm so fucking touch starved. And my autistic traits have become heightened over the years. I grow tired faster than usual. I grow irritated more than usual. I grow more bothered than usual by loud noises and changes in my routine.
This isn't a post about inceldom. It's not about politics either. It's about feeling ignored, abandoned, and gaslighted.
People actively go out of their way to ruin my copium. Movies? Woke garbage. Anime and videogames? Increasingly less violent, less sexual, more censored. YouTube? Ruined by Left vs Right bullshit culture wars.
I fucking can't. I've been hearing for many years from many people that I'm privileged. A guy from a lower income family and an alcoholic father, autistic, without friends or gf, "privileged"?
And when I DARE vent about my problems, online or offline, anywhere, people minimize it.
"Hey don't be so negative."
"At least you're not a woman/black/gay, your life would be worse."
"You need to take responsibility for your problems. The world doesn't revolve around you."
Responsibility?
I've seen, no joke, foid coworkers, at my previous office, receive more kindness and compassion from COWORKERS, essentially strangers, than I have received by EVERYONE in the entirety of my life.
Is it that fucking difficult to show 0.1% empathy?
Is it that difficult to NOT dismiss my venting as "whining"?
Is it that difficult for people to NOT go out of their way and ruin my copiums, YouTube, TV, videogames?
Fuck.
I am so depressed I even have a headache. It hurts. It hurts that I am forced to act strong and keep going to work, keep masking, keep acting stoical in front of normies.
It hurts that foids almost universally think of me as a predator.
It hurts that I can't even enjoy copium sometimes. Because the fiction of a cute female character being nice to you is too surreal, too unbelievable, it breaks suspension of disbelief.
It hurts all this touch starvation.
Fuck
I just can't. I'm a fucking virgin at 27. I'm burnt out from work. I'm working full time and taking a Master's part time. And as many guys on here I'm on the spectrum.
I don't want to talk about my life story but I haven't had it easy. Every small thing I got in my life was through sheer struggle. No one ever "handed me anything on a silver platter".
I'm so fucking touch starved. And my autistic traits have become heightened over the years. I grow tired faster than usual. I grow irritated more than usual. I grow more bothered than usual by loud noises and changes in my routine.
This isn't a post about inceldom. It's not about politics either. It's about feeling ignored, abandoned, and gaslighted.
People actively go out of their way to ruin my copium. Movies? Woke garbage. Anime and videogames? Increasingly less violent, less sexual, more censored. YouTube? Ruined by Left vs Right bullshit culture wars.
I fucking can't. I've been hearing for many years from many people that I'm privileged. A guy from a lower income family and an alcoholic father, autistic, without friends or gf, "privileged"?
And when I DARE vent about my problems, online or offline, anywhere, people minimize it.
"Hey don't be so negative."
"At least you're not a woman/black/gay, your life would be worse."
"You need to take responsibility for your problems. The world doesn't revolve around you."
Responsibility?
I've seen, no joke, foid coworkers, at my previous office, receive more kindness and compassion from COWORKERS, essentially strangers, than I have received by EVERYONE in the entirety of my life.
Is it that fucking difficult to show 0.1% empathy?
Is it that difficult to NOT dismiss my venting as "whining"?
Is it that difficult for people to NOT go out of their way and ruin my copiums, YouTube, TV, videogames?
Fuck.
I am so depressed I even have a headache. It hurts. It hurts that I am forced to act strong and keep going to work, keep masking, keep acting stoical in front of normies.
It hurts that foids almost universally think of me as a predator.
It hurts that I can't even enjoy copium sometimes. Because the fiction of a cute female character being nice to you is too surreal, too unbelievable, it breaks suspension of disbelief.
It hurts all this touch starvation.
Fuck
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