It's Over Everything i do feels like a distraction

[Friezacel]

No matter what i do, i feel like everything i do is to distract from my eternal loneliness and inceldom. I smoke weed to numb the pain, i goyslopmax because of the dopamine rush and by the fact that im a manlet i know that i will never even be seen as human being. Even when i actually have some fun, im asking myself subconsciously how long this moment will last, before going back into my depressive standard state

 

[Serpents reign]

No matter what i do, i feel like everything i do is to distract from my eternal loneliness and inceldom. I smoke weed to numb the pain, i goyslopmax because of the dopamine rush and by the fact that im a manlet i know that i will never even be seen as human being. Even when i actually have some fun, im asking myself subconsciously how long this moment will last, before going back into my depressive standard state

That's me on a daily basis I don't even know how I can have fun with anything anymore I just do whatever I feel like working drains me quite a bit and I just go home and immediately come myself and my own little fantasy world laying in bed and playing my games and getting high it's not the best cope but at least I'm not trying to fit in with Society anymore I used to follow pickup artist garbage trying to force myself to socialize with other people only to be mocked and attacked and made fun of and beat the fuck up by these normie-tier fagots I hate this world