Even If I were to become wealthy enough to have face surgery that I wasn't ugly anymore it wouldn't matter because I am so broken as person that no woman would want to tolerate me to actually have a long lasting relationship with me, Yes I would be able to get laid but that is not what I desire. I desire love, I want to love and want to be loved but my mental illnesses would constantly get in the way of that. There just doesn't seem to be a woman out there that would be a match for my soul because it is so different to the souls of normalfags, I have different beliefs and attitudes which bleed it the way I make conversation with others. It's so off putting to most normalfags that they being to hate me for it, something that I only understand right now. It's like I was every being mean to them I was just too weird of person for them.
I could fake a "likable" Personality for these normies to like me but what's the point of doing that in love, I want real love not a fake love that is built solely upon transactions like me having money or meeting her sexual desires. I want somebody that I will go places with, ride rollercoasters, go down water slides with, play games with and have all sorts of adventures with. I want the real thing, just having sex would not satisfy me as it doesn't satisfy many incels who end up seeing prostitutes. It just doesn't seem like it's ever going to happen even if I stick to this longshot plan of mine were I get rich and make myself beautiful.
I can't change who I am, There is no suddenly becoming NT and there is no changing my personality quirks and I don't want to become a normalfaggot. I don't want fake passion for things that I am not passionate about but I do want to stop being plagued by my mind which often works against me against my own will. My only hope in life seems to be the future in which android companions will be built so that a "woman" like me can finally love me.
I could fake a "likable" Personality for these normies to like me but what's the point of doing that in love, I want real love not a fake love that is built solely upon transactions like me having money or meeting her sexual desires. I want somebody that I will go places with, ride rollercoasters, go down water slides with, play games with and have all sorts of adventures with. I want the real thing, just having sex would not satisfy me as it doesn't satisfy many incels who end up seeing prostitutes. It just doesn't seem like it's ever going to happen even if I stick to this longshot plan of mine were I get rich and make myself beautiful.
I can't change who I am, There is no suddenly becoming NT and there is no changing my personality quirks and I don't want to become a normalfaggot. I don't want fake passion for things that I am not passionate about but I do want to stop being plagued by my mind which often works against me against my own will. My only hope in life seems to be the future in which android companions will be built so that a "woman" like me can finally love me.
