She's married with a man who threatened to kill me in front of her because of some petty bullshit, and it's not even my dad, we all live in the same house and I need to avoid both of them, because when I see him I get angry and want to kill him. This situation left me with a lot of problems, I used to be very calm, but now I'm on the edge at all times, sometimes I'm angry with my brother for no reason, which makes me sad because while a bit of a cuck, he's a good person, and don't deserve when I treat him like this.
I feel really bad about this, because my mom does not give a single shit about how I feel in the situation, and never stopped to think about how this is affecting me, I started to stay in my room 24/7 and became an angry little shit after this, yet, she can't put 1+1 or maybe she can, but she doesn't care. Once I asked her to have a talk about this situation, the first thing she said was "be careful with what you will say, don't be selfish with your demands", and some time before when I asked her why she didn't kick him out yet, she said "well, I like him". Her husband is a failed normalfag, he's the stereotype of the wannabe gang member, tattoos, drug user, angry and bad attitude, and a fucking loser, because he is from a high middle class background and managed to fail at life.
So, while my mother herself doesn't bully me, she activelly supports people who did, and don't give a single fuck. And no, I'm not a fucking NEET who leechs at her and her husband, the only thing he pays for in this house is the food he eats (which is a lot because he's fat), and my mom has a half decent career as a business administrator, and she helps me with a very small amount to pay for my college, which I'm grateful for, but still feel mad at her. I had a job at McDonald's before but quit after a year because I needed to get back to college and it was affeting both physical health and mental health (I was getting fatter and more depressed). Unfortunately I can't get out because I can't pay rent and college at the same time, but I was clear with my mother about this, I want to move out, didn't said the reason at the time but I believe she's well aware, and she didn't object it in any way.
IncelTears and normies say I shouldn't be hateful towards women and society, but why? The house is a microcosmos of what society is, and my house is a disgustingly toxic enviroment. Yes, I know not every women and men aren't like that, because people like my brother exists, and I met a few decent people where I worked, but I'm always worried if people will betray me, because I feel betrayed by my mother. I graduate in six months and hopefully I will get a good job, but probably not gonna happen because jobs in my country are hard to find these days.
If someone read it, please make me aware of it, I really need someone to acknowledge my problems, because no one gives a shit IRL.
