Deleted member 7448
Name is Abdu, live in Laos, born on 24.08.1992.
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Not going to go too muc into it right now cause I'm tired, but it's really weird and annoying even to myself how much I fluctuate on everything.
Actually I got a good example. The recent forum survey: there were some questions that I answered and then a while after completing the survey I realized I would've answered differently. Like, just hours before the survey I think I made a post saying how I think I'm autistic or have aspergers or something. In the survey I answered I don't have autism, and I really didn't think at the moment that I have autism, I thought about it and autism isn't really my problem, I have other problems and autism isn't one of them actually. And then a few hours after that I made another comment about how I'm autistic or aspergers, and I fully believed it at the time too, thought about it for a second and yeah I thought that maybe I am autistic after all.
Another example is how I tell myself that his time for sure I won't play game X again and I delete it for good. Next day I realize I crave to play game X again. So I install it, play 5 minutes and realize I really don't like the game and I have no energy or desire to play it, so I delete it "for good this time". Rinse and repeat like 100 times, like I did with League of Legends this summer.
Politically it's the same thing, I can go from genuinely disliking X and then in a few hours I can be all empathetic and feeling sorry for X.
Fuck, idk what this is. Did I rot too much and now have no authentic life experiences so nothing is really cemented, so I go along with the flow and my mood dictates what I think?
Actually I got a good example. The recent forum survey: there were some questions that I answered and then a while after completing the survey I realized I would've answered differently. Like, just hours before the survey I think I made a post saying how I think I'm autistic or have aspergers or something. In the survey I answered I don't have autism, and I really didn't think at the moment that I have autism, I thought about it and autism isn't really my problem, I have other problems and autism isn't one of them actually. And then a few hours after that I made another comment about how I'm autistic or aspergers, and I fully believed it at the time too, thought about it for a second and yeah I thought that maybe I am autistic after all.
Another example is how I tell myself that his time for sure I won't play game X again and I delete it for good. Next day I realize I crave to play game X again. So I install it, play 5 minutes and realize I really don't like the game and I have no energy or desire to play it, so I delete it "for good this time". Rinse and repeat like 100 times, like I did with League of Legends this summer.
Politically it's the same thing, I can go from genuinely disliking X and then in a few hours I can be all empathetic and feeling sorry for X.
Fuck, idk what this is. Did I rot too much and now have no authentic life experiences so nothing is really cemented, so I go along with the flow and my mood dictates what I think?
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