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I personally don't think that it would have made a difference (for me) tbh. For others it's an ambivalent situation, when you are forced to interact with others you are conditioned to see it as something that opposes your own freedom which creates animosity from the start, but at the same time rotting alone can completely erode social skills and mental health - and after a certain time these changes are permanent.
My parents always tried to get me out of obsessions/interests that led to social isolation and tried to get me involved in social groups (like church/school/etc.) and sport (like dart/etc.), but everywhere I got into trouble and/or removed due to lacking performance, for me it was an annoyance. In retrospect it was something that was unnecessary, because the integral components in the sense of a social compass were never existent within me and I simply cannot or ever will come off as remotely normal, I see/saw it as unnecessary waste of time and stress.
It's not like I am uninterested in others or something like that, in fact I have enormous amounts of envy for normal people and want(ed) to emulate them/be accepted by them, but I don't fit in no matter how hard I try and I see nothing more than a normalcy that I will never have when I look at them (e.g. love/companionship, fulfilling lives, the ability to do whatever you like). I will always be someone who depends on disability/special needs programs and has to explain Autism/etc. to others, even as I tried to force myself to interact with others I was treated like an annoyance or people quickly correctly diagnosed me (in my jobs/studies for example). For me socialization wouldn't have made a difference, nature outweighs nurture in my case, but maybe not in others.
My parents always tried to get me out of obsessions/interests that led to social isolation and tried to get me involved in social groups (like church/school/etc.) and sport (like dart/etc.), but everywhere I got into trouble and/or removed due to lacking performance, for me it was an annoyance. In retrospect it was something that was unnecessary, because the integral components in the sense of a social compass were never existent within me and I simply cannot or ever will come off as remotely normal, I see/saw it as unnecessary waste of time and stress.
It's not like I am uninterested in others or something like that, in fact I have enormous amounts of envy for normal people and want(ed) to emulate them/be accepted by them, but I don't fit in no matter how hard I try and I see nothing more than a normalcy that I will never have when I look at them (e.g. love/companionship, fulfilling lives, the ability to do whatever you like). I will always be someone who depends on disability/special needs programs and has to explain Autism/etc. to others, even as I tried to force myself to interact with others I was treated like an annoyance or people quickly correctly diagnosed me (in my jobs/studies for example). For me socialization wouldn't have made a difference, nature outweighs nurture in my case, but maybe not in others.