Immediate disclaimers: I'm not trying to denounce nor reject the black pill, and I'm also drunk as fuck so my thoughts may be muddled.
I'm ugly, I'm autistic, and socially, I'm a complete nobody: no friends, no worthwhile accomplishments to my name, lazy as shit, and obviously, an incel.
But, I wonder if, if I was a Chad, or even a normie capable of getting a girlfriend, do I deserve that? Do I deserve the opportunity to fall in love (if that existed, too
(That emoji bar is awful on mobile Firefox app, btw. @serge plz fix thx)) I'm racist and misogynist (though the latter with cause, as we all know ), but I hate women, jews, and blacks. To be fair, I hate Zionist jews who wish to push degeneracy through various means, media and social media not the least among them, and don't really have any issue with other jews, racially, practicing, and/or otherwise, and my beef with black people is with a subset of them that are, uh, ya know, ghetto and uncivilized, to put it bluntly. I don't really have a problem with black people who are just trying to get by like me, or anybody else.
But I use racist language, like "kike," or "nigger," not all the time, and not around all people, obviously, I'm autistic, not stupid, but still. For what it's worth, I also use "spaz," "autist," and "retard" in derogatory manner, like the previous words, though I think I'm allowed that, since I'm autistic myself.
But what got me thinking about this, was a thread post I saw earlier today, about one of our fellows asking for rope fuel to get the courage to do it, and someone, in response, posted a bunch of tiktok videos for suifuel, one of which was an absolute sounds trying to hilariously justify his girlfriend (or wife) cheating on him, essentially in the open. When I was watching that, I was hit with the idea that there are people out there who deserve to die alone: namely, cheaters and polygamists.
And now that I'm at my favorite German bar, drunk off my ass on German beer (btw, highly recommend, the Germans know what they're doing), I got to thinking in some introspection, while playing Pokemon, of course, because my retarded ass doesn't know how to socialize properly, was wondering if I deserve to have even a single opportunity to get, if not love, since it doesn't really exist, female companionship. I'm kind of a fuckin' piece of shit. To reinforce that point, I have no qualms about saying things like "kike" and "nigger".
I still live at home with my father. I'm racist as fuck, and even though I don't have an issue with black people who want to contribute to soyciety and not be degenerate, violent fucktards, I still assume the worst of every black person I come across. I'm also, probably to no surprise to anyone who has seen my, until recently, prior profile description, a white nationalist. Although that's a long story and complicated subject, I can suffice to say, I just believe different peoples can't really mix properly and peacefully, and think everyone should have their own nations and homes to belong to, to avert these issues with diversification, and think the world would be better off if people were separated, but by their own kind, so that everyone has a place to call home, and feel like they belong. Maybe this arises from personal feelings of alienation among my own kind, since I grew up in a predominantly white suburb, but I don't know, and this isn't the place to discuss it.
And I'm not trying to justify my behaviors, nor my beliefs to anyone who may hold an alternative view, but that's why I made this thread in the first place: I can't justify my behavior, other than by my own personal experiences and beliefs. But I've made the realization that my behavior (based or not on my experiences) and my beliefs may not be received particularly well by others, and, regardless of what I believe, may or may not be bad, or evil. As a direct result of that, I am left wondering: does someone like me (nor incels in general, as many of you seem to be genuinely good people, and better people than I, but rather, what I've described above) really deserve to ascend, and have the opportunity, whether short-term or long-term, for female companionship?
And feel free to answer, and treat me, based on both my actions, and my insensitive and offensive verbiage.
I'm ugly, I'm autistic, and socially, I'm a complete nobody: no friends, no worthwhile accomplishments to my name, lazy as shit, and obviously, an incel.
But, I wonder if, if I was a Chad, or even a normie capable of getting a girlfriend, do I deserve that? Do I deserve the opportunity to fall in love (if that existed, too
(That emoji bar is awful on mobile Firefox app, btw. @serge plz fix thx)) I'm racist and misogynist (though the latter with cause, as we all know ), but I hate women, jews, and blacks. To be fair, I hate Zionist jews who wish to push degeneracy through various means, media and social media not the least among them, and don't really have any issue with other jews, racially, practicing, and/or otherwise, and my beef with black people is with a subset of them that are, uh, ya know, ghetto and uncivilized, to put it bluntly. I don't really have a problem with black people who are just trying to get by like me, or anybody else.But I use racist language, like "kike," or "nigger," not all the time, and not around all people, obviously, I'm autistic, not stupid, but still. For what it's worth, I also use "spaz," "autist," and "retard" in derogatory manner, like the previous words, though I think I'm allowed that, since I'm autistic myself.
But what got me thinking about this, was a thread post I saw earlier today, about one of our fellows asking for rope fuel to get the courage to do it, and someone, in response, posted a bunch of tiktok videos for suifuel, one of which was an absolute sounds trying to hilariously justify his girlfriend (or wife) cheating on him, essentially in the open. When I was watching that, I was hit with the idea that there are people out there who deserve to die alone: namely, cheaters and polygamists.
And now that I'm at my favorite German bar, drunk off my ass on German beer (btw, highly recommend, the Germans know what they're doing), I got to thinking in some introspection, while playing Pokemon, of course, because my retarded ass doesn't know how to socialize properly, was wondering if I deserve to have even a single opportunity to get, if not love, since it doesn't really exist, female companionship. I'm kind of a fuckin' piece of shit. To reinforce that point, I have no qualms about saying things like "kike" and "nigger".
I still live at home with my father. I'm racist as fuck, and even though I don't have an issue with black people who want to contribute to soyciety and not be degenerate, violent fucktards, I still assume the worst of every black person I come across. I'm also, probably to no surprise to anyone who has seen my, until recently, prior profile description, a white nationalist. Although that's a long story and complicated subject, I can suffice to say, I just believe different peoples can't really mix properly and peacefully, and think everyone should have their own nations and homes to belong to, to avert these issues with diversification, and think the world would be better off if people were separated, but by their own kind, so that everyone has a place to call home, and feel like they belong. Maybe this arises from personal feelings of alienation among my own kind, since I grew up in a predominantly white suburb, but I don't know, and this isn't the place to discuss it.
And I'm not trying to justify my behaviors, nor my beliefs to anyone who may hold an alternative view, but that's why I made this thread in the first place: I can't justify my behavior, other than by my own personal experiences and beliefs. But I've made the realization that my behavior (based or not on my experiences) and my beliefs may not be received particularly well by others, and, regardless of what I believe, may or may not be bad, or evil. As a direct result of that, I am left wondering: does someone like me (nor incels in general, as many of you seem to be genuinely good people, and better people than I, but rather, what I've described above) really deserve to ascend, and have the opportunity, whether short-term or long-term, for female companionship?
And feel free to answer, and treat me, based on both my actions, and my insensitive and offensive verbiage.
