Never took anti-depressants tbh.
Shouldn't they make it harder?
This but I recommend experiencing those pills firsthand still.
You don't want to feel like you are missing out some magic cure all the NPCs are talking about. Try it first.
If it makes you apathetic you will struggle to feel suicidal too though.
Btw I am not against the concept of roping and I know you have your reasons but I would recommend waiting until you are 18 first.
Few people have enough maturity and life experience to objectively tell that their life is not worth living in their teens.
Dumb teenage Chads and Stacies who otherwise have top 0.1% lives get emotional over crap and rope too. Wait a bit more till your prospects are clear. Better and I know this is comes off as a retarded boomer advice but focus on school. Falling for the apathy/doomer mindset trap(and I say trap because if you succumb to it, it becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy even if you had prospects otherwise) in your formative years can bite you back in the ass.
