I'm not diagnosed but i have either autism or social anxiety, it's obvious that i don't behave socially like the rest of the people i know and a lot of people have told me that they suspected that i might be autistic. At this point i struggle at even talking with my family. When i was younger (like 7-8) i used to be very loud and sociable, had a lot of friends in elementary and behaved like a normal child. When i moved schools thats when everything went to shit. I had only 1 friend that was also a social outcast with anger issues. I was bullied for my looks daily, they started calling me a zombie which pretty much became my nickname. I used to cry because of that a lot. A couple of years later in 7th grade i tried asking a girl out to which her friends told me to stop because she found me creepy. At this point i already didnt talk to almost anyone and this broke me. For high school i moved to a different city and anxiety was killing me. I remember the first Day, my leg was shaking i could barely walk. First day of class we had to introduce ourselves and i could hear chuckles while i was talking. I didnt make friends with anyone, and i quickly became the class loser. No one ever talked to me, and when someone does i appear confused and retarded. I don't know how to talk to people. I know that im ugly, but i think that im also retarded
