SecularNeo-Khazar
Mixedcell
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I always was interested in history, but I now just realized I can't say it out loud.
Being interested in history means reading books all day, one every four-five days at least.
I can't seem find the energy to do anything productive. I just stand up, walk up to my PC, listen to music and look through pinterest all day.
Idk, I feel miserable. I have no drive anymore and I had it for like 1.5 year where I hated myself for being unproductive (before the blackpill) and it pushed me onward. This ire just became cold, timid but it is still there. Its as if I subconsciously create the circumstances that will lead me to killing myself.
Being interested in history means reading books all day, one every four-five days at least.
I can't seem find the energy to do anything productive. I just stand up, walk up to my PC, listen to music and look through pinterest all day.
Idk, I feel miserable. I have no drive anymore and I had it for like 1.5 year where I hated myself for being unproductive (before the blackpill) and it pushed me onward. This ire just became cold, timid but it is still there. Its as if I subconsciously create the circumstances that will lead me to killing myself.