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Jerek
Cucks are ugly people in denial.
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I feel that all of my life i've been a bipolar person, even if i'm not.
In reality, with age, i've acclimated to some "medium" mood where i just do not care and i try to avoid as much as possible sexual stimuli, especially those that are prohibited to me due to me being not chad.
So if i watch to a picture of an escort i'm fine, because i can always buy her, but if i'm watching a couple of good looking person taking pictures on instagram i suddendly get depressed... and the problem is that this can happen randomly: i was browsing the facebook page of an ugly youtuber i follow, and he published this picture of anoter chad youtuber with a big boobed stacy.
Point is, even in my mid 30's, there's always a trap. I can pretend i'm fine and it can last for a bit, but then *something* happens that slams in my face the harsh reality of the life of chad, being it shit like the one i've described above, or maybe i stumble into some amateur porn with big dicked chad railing a hot stacy or shit like that.
I've been heavily depressed in the past, prone to suicide, i've got even into a rehab house (i'm not a drug addict, but i'm using this term because i don't know the right one being not american), but i've managed to escape and i try to live my life like that... but there is always some way that i fall back into that teen depression where i realize i'm an ugly nerd, now middle aged, and no woman will never desire me in the way i want to.
Sometimes i wish i could live in denial like a cuck: they know the harsh truth but somehow they delude themselves so hard that they probably developed some primal coping mechanism that allows them to ignore they will never be wanted like chad. Sure, i'd have less dignity, but i'd probably live a little better.
I really wish we had a fucking button to press so we can die instantly, i'd push it right now.
In reality, with age, i've acclimated to some "medium" mood where i just do not care and i try to avoid as much as possible sexual stimuli, especially those that are prohibited to me due to me being not chad.
So if i watch to a picture of an escort i'm fine, because i can always buy her, but if i'm watching a couple of good looking person taking pictures on instagram i suddendly get depressed... and the problem is that this can happen randomly: i was browsing the facebook page of an ugly youtuber i follow, and he published this picture of anoter chad youtuber with a big boobed stacy.
Point is, even in my mid 30's, there's always a trap. I can pretend i'm fine and it can last for a bit, but then *something* happens that slams in my face the harsh reality of the life of chad, being it shit like the one i've described above, or maybe i stumble into some amateur porn with big dicked chad railing a hot stacy or shit like that.
I've been heavily depressed in the past, prone to suicide, i've got even into a rehab house (i'm not a drug addict, but i'm using this term because i don't know the right one being not american), but i've managed to escape and i try to live my life like that... but there is always some way that i fall back into that teen depression where i realize i'm an ugly nerd, now middle aged, and no woman will never desire me in the way i want to.
Sometimes i wish i could live in denial like a cuck: they know the harsh truth but somehow they delude themselves so hard that they probably developed some primal coping mechanism that allows them to ignore they will never be wanted like chad. Sure, i'd have less dignity, but i'd probably live a little better.
I really wish we had a fucking button to press so we can die instantly, i'd push it right now.