okay I relapsed again three times in a row again it sucks so much, I want to finaly quit and lower my inhibition and smelling at foids and sitting close to them in the public transport:
Quitting cold turkey is equal to relapsing and when you do relapse you are going to binge, the reason: the psychological repercussions of quitting cold turkey are great. The backlashes
are going to be so against you )=
[who am I fooling I am a soy cock loser cunt bitch
but anyway the blackpill is not too enjoyable and I had my overdoes today already and now I am desperately trying to forget it again I am gigapathetic but who cares, let it be entertainment for the true blackpiller how me a curry is trying so hard but still gets nowhere. Let me be a fucking pussy, whats going to happen at worst? SO why not coping and deluding oneself even though I will get nothing in the end? Why do I have to stay so negative and stuck? Remember what I said before? Curries have no backbone at all and I mean that in a good way. I am going to delude myself again and keep to myself again I had too much blackpill the last couple days IT IS UNHEALTHY and it is my fault I was a fucking lazy coomer. Yes it is true but IT IS UNHEALTHY-listen I never have an opinion for longer than 2 days I always change my mind and I never can be consistent at anything well except maybe for being a cunt... so dont ban me please altough I say so much bullshit - I try to say it only here in this thread - I need this fucking place . Well nobody ever needed me but comon man I am an incel alright why do I have to force myself to say things that I dont want to say always what is wrong with being inconsistent. Cant you see how much of a pathetic pussy I am - I really try not to but I keep coming back at this infantile state - I really want to become super blackpilled, based and admired but it is simply not possible because I was not meant to be great at anything. Listen it is okay what I say right? It does not break any rules, I only cope and it is sad and embarassing but that has been all my life, I have been really blackpilled for 3 fucking years, for 3 fucking years I was fucking allone but then I made one (male) friend. He was my fucking roommate and if it were not for him I would be fucking dead and you cannot be more based and blackpilled than that right? I know many here dont even have friends and they are really blackpilled and this place here belongs to them but please dont ban me this thread is my thread to life, if I lose that things will only get worse. I wont get my degree, I will have to live with my parents again, I wont get a job, I will probably kill myself or someone else - I have been there, I was literally living in another town (Munich) before changing universities and I was all alone not even had a friend and I was so fucking angry that I wanted to stab somebody, looked people in the eyes with disgust and pure hatred, watched porn and anime all day long, had breakfast at burger king, went to the cinema later, went to a brothel later and then went to a fucking sushi restaurant, indebted my parents with 10000 euros, and just 100 percent degeneratemaxxxing, it is not a nice place, it is sad and dark and shortlived. I mean you need some occasional blackpills but only to stay realistic and use the facts to move fucking forward. Blackpill gives hard limits, tells you what is good and bad and you should focus on that. Thats why people are fuming when someone ascends, he essentially throws the blackpill away and lets a degenerate whore rob him, making him his little slave in exchange of some whiff of pussy, all the facts about foid nature get thrown out of the window just because they allow themselves to be infatuated - there is only one based way of ascension and this is to get as much money as possible and marrying a third world toilet who is too dumb to speak the local language and 100 percents depends on you-everyone else is a simp/betabuxx or fakecel - you cannot get together with a western girl srsly because if you do you are a reason why the blackpill gets darker - divorce rates, adultery and exploitation thats the path it will go down, you will become a victim and maybe call in for some cuck-therapy
so anyways let me get back about my sermon on nofap because it helps me to write out things like that gives me a sense of accomplishment]
You will be overwhelmed because if you quit cold turkey you essentialy put your brain in a freeze state, your brain is accustomed to this high level of dopamine and suddenly you stop. Some guys including myself when I tried that have gotten suicidal. Yes your brain will turn on itself and against you and it will make you think I am worthless, there is nothing here for me to do, what is this life? And you might even think to commit suicide, thats one right? The second part of the repercussions is that you might feel so jittery, so anxious, so out of controle because you are, you are accustomed to putting that semen out, putting that energy out, day in and day out. Your system is not used to hold that semen, that is the same thing that happens to people who are not used to saving money, people are used to working and getting a paycheck but not saving the money. When you start saving money, the psychological repercussions might be great, you might just have one day and binge and spend all your money you saved, because you stopped saving it cold turkey and in great ammounts. The wide advice, in fact it has scientific backing, you start in small increments and get your system used to it. You are now rewiring your brain, you are now reproframming your subconscious mind which is your autonomous system. Slowly but surely you are rewiring your whole system, you are teaching your body to hold more energy than it is accustomed to. And thats whyI am talking about baby steps. I got hurt so bad trying it cold turkey. Your autonomous system will fight back if you try cold turkey, you are not used to hold this power inside of you, you have to teach your body to hold it in increments. So what I have to do is to start in small increments, hold it and incrementally. Now there is also out there adcice that is egoistical advice that says : NO fight yourself to hold it.Dont let it out. Dont relapse! Willpower is not enoguh. The law of lao tsu, the best way to win a war is to not getting engaged in the war. Dont get to the point where you have to fight with your willpower because you will lose. Willpower is a function of your conscious mind and controles 5 percent of your actions,your brain. The autonomous system responsible for semen, sex etc is responsible for 95 percent. The autonomous system is much more powerful. It will overpower you, it will overwhelm you, thats why you cannot do it by willpower. If you want to use any willpower you have to strategize ahead of time. Plan forward and never engage into the battle because you will lose that battle, you will be foolished to engage against your autonomous system. Thats the whole crucible of self development change your habits set up structure to make your good actions autonomous where you just choose them on autopilot unconsciously, laying some foundation, changing your habits where your body is able to keep that energy and hold that semen
(I am a fucking aspie and so fucking quirky-I realize how embarassing I am but I still do it OCD ... I guess) without engaging to willpower because you will fail like the 200 other times you did, your willl power is limited and decreases over to the day, thats why most men fap between 8pm or 3 am. So wgat your going to do is to tach your body to hold the energy incrementaly? How are you going to do that? Buy my course and get a 50 percent discount now! So lets say you fapped every single day, well the fist step, all we want to do is to skip one day without fapping and ejaculation. Because if you are used to do it every day then the one day you skip it means progress, it means success for you. After you have kept 1 day you are going for 2 day, and then you go for 3 days, and then you go for 4 days. Do you get my idea? Incrementally. Now you might be asking, are you saying. Now after I hold it one day, do I go back and relapse? Yes thats what I am saying. Not only you will succeed in maintainig your semen, eventually it be much quicker,you will be met with less resistsance and you will have less backlash from the autonomous system than the guy who is wuitting cold turkey. The guy who is quitting cold turkey, is gonna be overwhelmed,anxious,agressive. Hes gonna be in trouble and when he does relapse, he is going to relapse massively, he is going to binge. It is the same thing with diets, it is the same principle. You teach your body incrementally. Cold Turkey, what is going to happen if you are getting overwhelmend, you will binge, you will eat 5 pints of fucking ice cream. You are weak in willpower and it will overpower you. Bingingwill take you out of this whole progressive work one seeks to do. You know your work, you are serious about your work, you know man I really can keep this thing for three days. I have been faping and ejaculating every day, if I can skip one day its success, the two days, then 4 days, then a week, then 8 days, then 9 days, you understand. SO by the time you reach 6 months with this practice, your system will beaccustomed to hold that energy and there wont be a figh inside of you andtempted to watch porn and masturbate. Just as a baby has to fall and crawl untill it learns to walk.Eventually like me it can run but as a baby I have to crawl first, this is the same process. [It is fucking awesome how repetitive a video can be and I even cut out alot] You have to teach your system to hold this new power, to be accustomed to this new thing you are doing, you already going against nature by seeking to hold this semen. SO by going cold turkey it will turn your system upside down. Perhaps you have already going cold turkey and realize it is not working but this incremental success will work for you.