I'm just waiting for the androids
I have figured out I have to go to a prostitute within the next 30 days, it is not something I enjoy to be honest. I have a lot of anxieties about it, in general undressing, being naked infront of the very enemy, getting it up, talking to her and discussing the transaction, I have done it a couple times and I didnt enjoy it but I have to do it because it is like pissing and shitting I have to deal with my needs otherwise I will degrade and slowly but surelly things will hit some threshold and only spiral down. I will try not to procrastinate and just get the deed done again. And yes if preperations are necessary like getting vaccinated or going to a different location (country) I have to do it
I went to a prostitute, well what can I say, it is still cope. Still lonely appartment, still mogged left and right, still shit treatment, still a weak beta loser, still depressed, still frustration when seeing couples, still insecure. Maybe it helps a little bit, it feels good to feel the ass of a woman and kissing her tits and slowly fucking her the best you can with you soft porn induced ED penis, in the end I just couldnt cum and had to do it myself with porn (in her presence). But I am grateful that I got what I expected and the prostitute was fairly nice to me
I am sure you can slowly learn to become better in fucking, it is a process and you have to learn it untill you can enjoy it, I hope you can learn to get hard when you see older women over 40 or in their 30s who dont look great at all, I hope if you nofap it can get better, I hope it will get better if your attachment to the money becomes weaker and you wealthmaxx, I hope you can enjoy it more if you are in stable circumstances and except of your inceldom you have little stress from work or school and even manage to become somewhat successful. I ate some disgusting vegetable i.e. it was not pleasant but neccesary today but I hope that the experience today had at least some subtle effects which will make the upcoming days a bit easier. But no I am far from feeling like a winner. It is 80/20 the room for improvement has a ceiling, 80 percent of satisfication level or general well being are locked for ever for you due to the
.But if you perfect the art of cope you can get 20 percent, it is your responsibility - better eating, better fucking, better enviromental circumstances that are nor immediatley tied to your looks
I am sure you can slowly learn to become better in fucking, it is a process and you have to learn it untill you can enjoy it, I hope you can learn to get hard when you see older women over 40 or in their 30s who dont look great at all, I hope if you nofap it can get better, I hope it will get better if your attachment to the money becomes weaker and you wealthmaxx, I hope you can enjoy it more if you are in stable circumstances and except of your inceldom you have little stress from work or school and even manage to become somewhat successful. I ate some disgusting vegetable i.e. it was not pleasant but neccesary today but I hope that the experience today had at least some subtle effects which will make the upcoming days a bit easier. But no I am far from feeling like a winner. It is 80/20 the room for improvement has a ceiling, 80 percent of satisfication level or general well being are locked for ever for you due to the
.But if you perfect the art of cope you can get 20 percent, it is your responsibility - better eating, better fucking, better enviromental circumstances that are nor immediatley tied to your looks
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gonna move my shitty blog back to the sewers where it belongs lol (necroposting allowed and very lax enforcement of rules)
will dump my shit there tomorrow ddsrs
will dump my shit there tomorrow ddsrs
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