My mother took so many pills she could barely stand up or fucking think. My father wasn't an addict though, he just had severe anger issues (that I inherited too).
They paid no attention to the fact that I was bullied so hard I was on the verge of a panic attack every day I had to go to school, and I constantly fantasized about and almost ended up taking a knife to school and stabbing everybody.
They pretended like it was normal for me to have no friends, homocidal and suicidal thoughts, hallucinations, mutism, and to suddenly burst into fits of rage so severe I would start growling like an animal and break everything.
Of course they beat and yelled at me for all those things, but they never actually thought I might have had serious mental problems, they brushed all of it aside and just berated me for being odd.
Other than when they would beat and yelled at me I pretty much didn't exist to them. Like I said, they were negligent and didn't care about my existence as anything other than a punching bag.
Im so sorry brocel
sorry for the late reply,i was offline.I don't understand how such shit people can be allowed to reproduce,Fuck your bullies man,
I hope they suffer in this life,I hope they get backstabbed and feel every bit of your pain,the same pain they inflicted upon you
I am very weak,but if I knew you irl,I would still try to kill your bullies,and atleast stand up for you,even if they'd beat me up,but alas these are just words from one tortured soul to another,who'd probably never meet irl
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Why ,why is the world so unfair
??!what did people like you deserve to suffer so much,?why??!I ask this to myself?
Brocel,I hope things have gotten better for you,for your mental health and you have gotten some peace since then.
My parents are very good,but as a child,I was taught to supress my feelings,I couldn't express myself,I never had any friends then,I do have friends,but they only know the part of me which I show to them.I had extreme social anxiety where I too would have sever panic attacks .
FUCK your bullies
I hope their life is full of suffering,torture,may they never have a moment of peace,may they all die slow,painful,lonely deaths. Aameen