nxdismycope
Its not over - its just never began
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- Aug 13, 2018
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this cruel life made me care only about myself
examples from the last 4 years:
-relative died, family took it super hard but not me
-sister got married last year - didnt care. somehow even managed to avoid hugging her. in the ceremony i just looked at how my family is happy and super excited, while i didnt really care. i really felt dead inside when it happened
-visited my mom after 3 months of not visiting her due to covid. she was super excited and hugged me. she was really happy. but i didnt care. my mom is the only person i love, but still i only visit to not be a bad son. i hate being there and we have nothing to talk about. i dont miss her and idc about seeing her.
meanwhile if my oneitis is nice for a second or im getting good weed or high test score im suer excited
examples from the last 4 years:
-relative died, family took it super hard but not me
-sister got married last year - didnt care. somehow even managed to avoid hugging her. in the ceremony i just looked at how my family is happy and super excited, while i didnt really care. i really felt dead inside when it happened
-visited my mom after 3 months of not visiting her due to covid. she was super excited and hugged me. she was really happy. but i didnt care. my mom is the only person i love, but still i only visit to not be a bad son. i hate being there and we have nothing to talk about. i dont miss her and idc about seeing her.
meanwhile if my oneitis is nice for a second or im getting good weed or high test score im suer excited