I don't hate minorities.. just Females
- Mar 30, 2020
I know I am
Rare timesI'm just kind of ranting and don't really know what the outcome of this post will be, but I am just sick and tired of myself, and I hate myself more and more as each week and month progresses, I was labeled this throughout my entire childhood teen years and most of my adult life, I say and do the stupidest things and have the most mind-boggling thought processes, Some people cope to me, That I have ADHD. Every kid in the early 2000s had this disorder. Baby boomer's reproducing was a mistake. But I find myself a total failure in life. I don't complain about it too bad because if it gets to a point where I can't get progresse or enjoy myself anymore then I can just rope. I still have too much to hope for right now to consider that. There is quite a bit to be grateful in this life. However, I will criticize it, And a lot of things don't make sense to me perhaps I am a retard? I was placed in special ed for 4 years in elementary school years, age 7 to 10 and I can't pay attention to anything, my parents didn't care. Lousy fucking drunks. I could have actually been someone or did I lose interest in life and didn't care to progress myself?
I'm an adult. I should be making my own decisions. I don't want to hurt myself because I'm so embarrassed with my own failures. I'm not trying to blame others for my problems I just don't think I can change at this point.
I was called a retard my entire life including by my parents and teachers. It even followed me to early college. I simply didn't make friends with anybody. I wish I was dead. I'm just too stupid to live.Yes, each passing day. The older I get, the more I forget. I don't even remember what happened 10 minutes ago.