Blackpill Almost dying on octuber gave me one of the most brutal blackpills ever

[NIKOCADO AVOCADO]

Before joining here i catched a severe disease that lasted all of october, at some point during this month it got so bad that a cardiologist told me the risk of heart failure was very real and that if i got a lil worse i would prolly end up in an ICU, i remember waking up at like 1am one time with my resting heartrate at like 160BPM, massive shills, could barely move and was dizzy af, but the most brutal part was not seeing or feeling my body was failing on me, it was my mind.

I though, if i were to die RN, what would i get as the review of life?, me jacking off to anime ladies and getting hyped at indie vidya trailers?, coping with food or by buying expensive knives?, it was brutal, there were no "good" memories, only all coping and escapism.

Nowadays the disease gave me chronic health issues and i have to take pills daily, but i still remember what i felt that day, the life of the incel is not even a true human experience and when you see death get close you truly get it, there NOTHING normal about me, may as well be an alien.

 

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I though, if i were to die RN, what would i get as the review of life?, me jacking off to anime ladies and getting hyped at indie vidya trailers?, coping with food or by buying expensive knives?, it was brutal, there were no "good" memories, only all coping and escapism.

fucking brutal shit. fuck fuck fuck, i almost died too and i had fucking nothing to look back on either

 

[NIKOCADO AVOCADO]

fucking brutal shit. fuck fuck fuck, i almost died too and i had fucking nothing to look back on either

That experience legit traumatized me, i always knew i was a giant loser but when i though death was coming?, it hitted HARD to accept that there was not a single good memory that didn't came from incel coping

 

[Mecoja]

Before joining here i catched a severe disease that lasted all of october, at some point during this month it got so bad that a cardiologist told me the risk of heart failure was very real and that if i got a lil worse i would prolly end up in an ICU, i remember waking up at like 1am one time with my resting heartrate at like 160BPM, massive shills, could barely move and was dizzy af, but the most brutal part was not seeing or feeling my body was failing on me, it was my mind.

I though, if i were to die RN, what would i get as the review of life?, me jacking off to anime ladies and getting hyped at indie vidya trailers?, coping with food or by buying expensive knives?, it was brutal, there were no "good" memories, only all coping and escapism.

Nowadays the disease gave me chronic health issues and i have to take pills daily, but i still remember what i felt that day, the life of the incel is not even a true human experience and when you see death get close you truly get it, there NOTHING normal about me, may as well be an alien.

I got the same experience back when i caught covid, i almost died.

 

[Izayacel]

Well thats brutal

 

[Apex.Koala]

Before joining here i catched a severe disease that lasted all of october, at some point during this month it got so bad that a cardiologist told me the risk of heart failure was very real and that if i got a lil worse i would prolly end up in an ICU, i remember waking up at like 1am one time with my resting heartrate at like 160BPM, massive shills, could barely move and was dizzy af, but the most brutal part was not seeing or feeling my body was failing on me, it was my mind.

I though, if i were to die RN, what would i get as the review of life?, me jacking off to anime ladies and getting hyped at indie vidya trailers?, coping with food or by buying expensive knives?, it was brutal, there were no "good" memories, only all coping and escapism.

Nowadays the disease gave me chronic health issues and i have to take pills daily, but i still remember what i felt that day, the life of the incel is not even a true human experience and when you see death get close you truly get it, there NOTHING normal about me, may as well be an alien.

Death doesn't scare me. Looking back to what my "life" has been all along does.

 

[curryismydemise]

Before joining here i catched a severe disease that lasted all of october, at some point during this month it got so bad that a cardiologist told me the risk of heart failure was very real and that if i got a lil worse i would prolly end up in an ICU, i remember waking up at like 1am one time with my resting heartrate at like 160BPM, massive shills, could barely move and was dizzy af, but the most brutal part was not seeing or feeling my body was failing on me, it was my mind.

I though, if i were to die RN, what would i get as the review of life?, me jacking off to anime ladies and getting hyped at indie vidya trailers?, coping with food or by buying expensive knives?, it was brutal, there were no "good" memories, only all coping and escapism.

Nowadays the disease gave me chronic health issues and i have to take pills daily, but i still remember what i felt that day, the life of the incel is not even a true human experience and when you see death get close you truly get it, there NOTHING normal about me, may as well be an alien.

what disease is it mind me asking?

 

[NIKOCADO AVOCADO]

what disease is it mind me asking?

A viral infection, i never got precise tests because of the shithole country i live in but it evolved into something that would drop me for the entire duration of October, i pulled through but ended with permanent heart and lung damage, as the docs said themselves rn i got the lungs of a 50+ year old. Im a chronic illness cel now.

I also need to take heart meds now forever

 

[Jud Pottah]

Relatable. I experience something similar when fighting insomnia.

 

[curryismydemise]

A viral infection, i never got precise tests because of the shithole country i live in but it evolved into something that would drop me for the entire duration of October, i pulled through but ended with permanent heart and lung damage, as the docs said themselves rn i got the lungs of a 50+ year old. Im a chronic illness cel now.

I also need to take heart meds now forever

brutal. one of the last things i want in life is to die of a pathetic disease like that, it would be so pathetic and embarrassing, id rather die from a execution

 

[NIKOCADO AVOCADO]

brutal. one of the last things i want in life is to die of a pathetic disease like that, it would be so pathetic and embarrassing, id rather die from a execution

Let me tell you the feeling of knowing i could be dying soon without ever being a normal human was FAR more agonizing than knowing my body was failing me.

Since then i went full in on my copes and i've becomed far more crazier and impulsive, seeing death that close changes a nigga.

 

[curryismydemise]

Let me tell you the feeling of knowing i could be dying soon without ever being a normal human was FAR more agonizing than knowing my body was failing me.

Since then i went full in on my copes and i've becomed far more crazier and impulsive, seeing death that close changes a nigga.

yeah i can tell, the absolute failure of your existence all reconciles within your head and it becomes really serious and fucked, but that doesn't mean i dont wanna die still, i just wanna die a proper death at least.

 

[TooSomething]

Before joining here i catched a severe disease that lasted all of october, at some point during this month it got so bad that a cardiologist told me the risk of heart failure was very real and that if i got a lil worse i would prolly end up in an ICU, i remember waking up at like 1am one time with my resting heartrate at like 160BPM, massive shills, could barely move and was dizzy af, but the most brutal part was not seeing or feeling my body was failing on me, it was my mind.

I though, if i were to die RN, what would i get as the review of life?, me jacking off to anime ladies and getting hyped at indie vidya trailers?, coping with food or by buying expensive knives?, it was brutal, there were no "good" memories, only all coping and escapism.

Nowadays the disease gave me chronic health issues and i have to take pills daily, but i still remember what i felt that day, the life of the incel is not even a true human experience and when you see death get close you truly get it, there NOTHING normal about me, may as well be an alien.

May I ask whether tou've gotten the mRNA vaxx?

 

[NIKOCADO AVOCADO]

May I ask whether tou've gotten the mRNA vaxx?

No, those vax didn't even came to this country

 

[TooSomething]

No, those vax didn't even came to this country

I am glad you didn't.
That would have ended you for sure.

I hope you get well, but from reading your story, I don't know whether that is possible.
You would need a new heart and lungs.

 

[NIKOCADO AVOCADO]

I am glad you didn't.
That would have ended you for sure.

I hope you get well, but from reading your story, I don't know whether that is possible.
You would need a new heart and lungs.

We see on 2025 after some more testing, rn im fairly back to normal

 

[turbocuckcel_7000]

Before joining here i catched a severe disease that lasted all of october, at some point during this month it got so bad that a cardiologist told me the risk of heart failure was very real and that if i got a lil worse i would prolly end up in an ICU, i remember waking up at like 1am one time with my resting heartrate at like 160BPM, massive shills, could barely move and was dizzy af, but the most brutal part was not seeing or feeling my body was failing on me, it was my mind.

I though, if i were to die RN, what would i get as the review of life?, me jacking off to anime ladies and getting hyped at indie vidya trailers?, coping with food or by buying expensive knives?, it was brutal, there were no "good" memories, only all coping and escapism.

Nowadays the disease gave me chronic health issues and i have to take pills daily, but i still remember what i felt that day, the life of the incel is not even a true human experience and when you see death get close you truly get it, there NOTHING normal about me, may as well be an alien.

what caused this? was it the vaxx? or the chink lab virus?

i developed the opposite problem 2 yrs ago, very low heartrate and weak circulation, which causes blood pooling in my lower body and a ton of problems and misery, though i'm still able to walk to work.

 

[NIKOCADO AVOCADO]

what caused this? was it the vaxx? or the chink lab virus?

i developed the opposite problem 2 yrs ago, very low heartrate and weak circulation, which causes blood pooling in my lower body and a ton of problems and misery, though i'm still able to walk to work.

I didn't took vaccines apart from a russian dose years ago that didn't do anything to me, so prolly the chink lab virus (russian vax was prolly water jfl)

 

[turbocuckcel_7000]

I didn't took vaccines apart from a russian dose years ago that didn't do anything to me, so prolly the chink lab virus (russian vax was prolly water jfl)

based, i didn't take anything at all, unfortunately the virus can do a lot of damage if you are unlucky

 

[TooSomething]

I didn't took vaccines apart from a russian dose years ago that didn't do anything to me, so prolly the chink lab virus (russian vax was prolly water jfl)

The russian vaxx almost killed my uncle in Moscow. His lungs almost failed shortly after taking the vaxx.

 

[NIKOCADO AVOCADO]

The russian vaxx almost killed my uncle in Moscow. His lungs almost failed shortly after taking the vaxx.

TBF even the cardiologist woman and other docs said the vaccines also did a lot of damage to people here, based docs?

 

[TooSomething]

based, i didn't take anything at all, unfortunately the virus can do a lot of damage if you are unlucky

What if I told you that viruses are a hoax and it is 5G that harmed people with weak links in their system?

Just a thought.

I never had this covid throughout the entire period and I am outside more than I like to be.

 

[TooSomething]

TBF even the cardiologist woman and other docs said the vaccines also did a lot of damage to people here, based docs?

Strange, our docs would deny everything and call anyone crazy who had any kinds of doubts.

 

[NIKOCADO AVOCADO]

Strange, our docs would deny everything and call anyone crazy who had any kinds of doubts.

I suppose i got lucky with my docs, all they want now is that i start light cardio and diet since early january, also never smoke or drink but i never did that before so i guess i got a headstart

 

[turbocuckcel_7000]

What if I told you that viruses are a hoax and it is 5G that harmed people with weak links in their system?

Just a thought.

I never had this covid throughout the entire period and I am outside more than I like to be.

well there is fuck all I can do about that besides set my phone to LTE, which i did

 

[TooSomething]

well there is fuck all I can do about that besides set my phone to LTE, which i did

Turn off wi-fi at home btw.
All thus radiation is not good for the bodily cells.
It causes stress in them and they produces cortisol.
Also, inflamation, afaik. Constant inflamation leads to cancer, afaik.

It is strange how shortly after the vaxx the cancer rates in my country increased A LOT. There are even talks about turbo cancer.

I have associates who work ata pharmacy store who've told me that many of their older customers have died suddenly from so called turbo cancer.


They developed cancer and died from it within two fucking weeks.

 

[Emba]

The masterbation lifereviewpill is a brutal pill bro...

If I get one, I'll say, "you shove my spirit in a animal body then act all shocked that I act like a animal?"

 

[NIKOCADO AVOCADO]

The masterbation lifereviewpill is a brutal pill bro...

If I get one, I'll say, "you shove my spirit in a animal body then act all shocked that I act like a animal?"

Now if my ass dies my life review gonna be simping over crazy BPD kangel and buying saks #based

 

[Emba]

Now if my ass dies my life review gonna be simping over crazy BPD kangel and buying saks #based

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At least with knives and multi tools it makes you more than human.

 

[Ernst22]

if i were to die RN, what would i get as the review of life?, me jacking off to anime ladies and getting hyped at indie vidya trailers?, coping with food or by buying expensive knives?,

based

 

[NIKOCADO AVOCADO]

based

Yeah now i agree

 

[TheCatMan]

No Matter Who You Are, You Do Not Know What Kind Of Man You Are Until The Very End.

 

[BoneHermit666]

Before joining here i catched a severe disease that lasted all of october, at some point during this month it got so bad that a cardiologist told me the risk of heart failure was very real and that if i got a lil worse i would prolly end up in an ICU, i remember waking up at like 1am one time with my resting heartrate at like 160BPM, massive shills, could barely move and was dizzy af, but the most brutal part was not seeing or feeling my body was failing on me, it was my mind.

I though, if i were to die RN, what would i get as the review of life?, me jacking off to anime ladies and getting hyped at indie vidya trailers?, coping with food or by buying expensive knives?, it was brutal, there were no "good" memories, only all coping and escapism.

Nowadays the disease gave me chronic health issues and i have to take pills daily, but i still remember what i felt that day, the life of the incel is not even a true human experience and when you see death get close you truly get it, there NOTHING normal about me, may as well be an alien.

I am alive and have felt like an alien all my life compared to these so called normal human beings. I am soory you have gone through that mate

 

[NIKOCADO AVOCADO]

I am alive and have felt like an alien all my life compared to these so called normal human beings. I am soory you have gone through that mate

Thank you brother, nowadays im more stable heart and lung wise, we see on 2025, mentally im far more erratic LMAO

 

[turbocuckcel_7000]

Turn off wi-fi at home btw.
All thus radiation is not good for the bodily cells.
It causes stress in them and they produces cortisol.
Also, inflamation, afaik. Constant inflamation leads to cancer, afaik.

It is strange how shortly after the vaxx the cancer rates in my country increased A LOT. There are even talks about turbo cancer.

I have associates who work ata pharmacy store who've told me that many of their older customers have died suddenly from so called turbo cancer.


They developed cancer and died from it within two fucking weeks.

i've used direct ethernet link since 2012, there's still like 10 wifi networks around you unless you live in a house with a big lawn

the vaxx does seem to increase cancer odds yeah

 

[TooSomething]

i've used direct ethernet link since 2012, there's still like 10 wifi networks around you unless you live in a house with a big lawn

Use tinfoil to protect yourself from it. LoL
Use it as your wallpaper, basically.

 

[turbocuckcel_7000]

Use tinfoil to protect yourself from it. LoL
Use it as your wallpaper, basically.

faraday cage tbh