The thing that gets to me the most about being subhuman (this is a weird one)

[trrrrrsarescary]

The thing that especially gets me all fucked up about being ugly is that it doesn't matter if the people looking at me are black, white, asian, old, young, fat, thin, tall, short etcetera, they are all united together by their brains physiological reaction to my face, they all share that same instinctive repulsion and innate dislike and distrust towards ugly autistic people like myself on sight, so for this reason and this way of seeing it, I cannot be racist, I just cant mentally categorize ethnicities in my head because it doesn't matter how ethnically different they may be, they all share the same reaction upon perceiving my appearance come into their field of vision, they all share the same neural pathways that cause abject disgust towards ugliness, I've been stared at and gotten shitty treatment and discrimination from all ethnicities and all types of people, it doesn't matter, so I guess I hate people all equally? Corny I know

Just today I was walking through the park and this older man stared at me and then so did his I assume teenage daughter, and then I thought "these two people have completely different bodies and life experiences and genders, they physically couldn't be more different at a glance, but they are still both united in their brains reaction to my appearance" I get if there was a brain scan done of their brains at the exact moment they saw my face, both of their brains would light up in the same areas, because all human beings on earth share the same brain structure regardless of ethnicity or whatever so we are all united regarding our reaction to seeing my face

 

[Pancakecel]

It's an interesting thought, that the reactions we get from others completely transcend race, gender, age etc.

That's why I hate them all.