I have 12 hours left before I rope. I will first try to cum 50 times in a row to see if that can stop my heart. If that dont work I will climb to top of my 10 floor apt building and make myself faint by hyperventilating and blocking blood flow to my brain while standing near the edge of roof. Hopefully I faint and fall head first into concrete and die without feeling anything. Fuck but I am really scared what will happen to my body after I am gone. I live in third world SEA country and here we have a lot of stray dogs roaming the street. I am afraid I will become meal for fucking dogs because maybe no one sees me for long time when they are busy celebrating new years.
Also we have here many ladyboys and faggots. I think that give away my exact location but fuck idc anymore I will be dead soon. What if the guys who come to collect me are homosexuals. I am a skinny pale asian guy and I am scared they will do gay things to my dead body. That is my worst nightmare. I know its dumb to think about these things because I will be dead but still the thoughts have me worried. I wish I could rope and instantly cremate my body into ashes so I am safe from danger. I wanted to jump in a river but everyone tell me drowning is bad way to rope. Fuck why roping have to be so complicated.
Also we have here many ladyboys and faggots. I think that give away my exact location but fuck idc anymore I will be dead soon. What if the guys who come to collect me are homosexuals. I am a skinny pale asian guy and I am scared they will do gay things to my dead body. That is my worst nightmare. I know its dumb to think about these things because I will be dead but still the thoughts have me worried. I wish I could rope and instantly cremate my body into ashes so I am safe from danger. I wanted to jump in a river but everyone tell me drowning is bad way to rope. Fuck why roping have to be so complicated.
