Deleted member 7448
Name is Abdu, live in Laos, born on 24.08.1992.
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Even when I HAVE to do something, I'll do the bare minimum, take the path of least resistance, but do just enough to avoid any consequences that would make me have to work harder in the future.
But it's really bad. I'd be so much happier if I could invest my free time into something that would build up, to learn a skill that would allow me to better my life. And I had so much free time in my life. I've wasted it all. Tens upon tens of thousands of hours and I avoided anything productive at all. Hell, I'm so lazy I don't even play games that require a lot of learning and mental effort.
Idk why I've always been like this. Thought that maybe one day I would change but I'm already in my mid 20s, I'm way beyond changing. Not to mention all the additional mental disorders I've picked up along the way. Unless I wake up one day and my mind feels totally different for some arcane reason then I just won't change.
I would even be content being an incel if I could not be like this. I'd learn stuff, put effort into stuff, get some money and be more comfortable in life. I'd be satisfied with my productivity. Ahh but not only am I way too lazy, ADD and chronically depressed which leads to seeing everything as pointless and meaningless and having no motivation, but at this point it's much too late anyway.
Ohh right and there's a bunch of other stuff that makes this even more difficult, like my anxiety when not just rotting and having my mind turned off and vegetating while consuming easy to consume media like sitcoms or youtube. And other stuff. God damn will someone just put a bullet through my head and end this shit.
But it's really bad. I'd be so much happier if I could invest my free time into something that would build up, to learn a skill that would allow me to better my life. And I had so much free time in my life. I've wasted it all. Tens upon tens of thousands of hours and I avoided anything productive at all. Hell, I'm so lazy I don't even play games that require a lot of learning and mental effort.
Idk why I've always been like this. Thought that maybe one day I would change but I'm already in my mid 20s, I'm way beyond changing. Not to mention all the additional mental disorders I've picked up along the way. Unless I wake up one day and my mind feels totally different for some arcane reason then I just won't change.
I would even be content being an incel if I could not be like this. I'd learn stuff, put effort into stuff, get some money and be more comfortable in life. I'd be satisfied with my productivity. Ahh but not only am I way too lazy, ADD and chronically depressed which leads to seeing everything as pointless and meaningless and having no motivation, but at this point it's much too late anyway.
Ohh right and there's a bunch of other stuff that makes this even more difficult, like my anxiety when not just rotting and having my mind turned off and vegetating while consuming easy to consume media like sitcoms or youtube. And other stuff. God damn will someone just put a bullet through my head and end this shit.
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