So. About that whole "incel" thing.
I have neglected to mention that I had a female friend during my childhood. It boggles my mind, really. Why did her parents agree to interacting with my own? Her parents were the right age to settle and have children, my parents were some insane old people by the time they had me. Utter insanity mixed with virtue signalling on their part, I imagine. But I digress.
Eurídice, my friend, was a nice girl by all accounts. She was doing well in her studies, did a sport in her spare time and all the jazz. I will substantiate the decision I made regarding her in that I was poisoned. Poisoned by the bluepill and being delusional about my station, I had my sights set on other girls. I'm talking I was a genetic peasant and they were the daughters of the local hero kind of mismatch.
So yeah, something about my life, I was never the kid that took studies seriously, I quit most of my extracurriculars and I lazed about my house most of the time. You'd find me there reading a book or playing video games. I was hardly a catch.
That's why it surprised me when in the late 00s Eurídice motioned to me to go to a corner of the place we were in. I don't fucking remember what the occasion was, mate- it was some sort of celebration for families or whatever. So yeah, we were in a secluded, private space and she asked me whether I wanted to be her boyfriend. I declined. "It sounded like too much work" was my rationale.
Two thoughts on this incident:
And I think it was for the better. When I remember Eurídice, I don't see an objectively MTB maybe HTB if you talk about her prime alt girl. My mind's eye still thinks of the dork who I beat at a game and unironically started crying because I was being mean.
So yeah, I'm still a KHHV and it doesn't change that I'm ugly and short. I'm still going to die alone about 50 years from that fateful day I just elaborated on.
I have neglected to mention that I had a female friend during my childhood. It boggles my mind, really. Why did her parents agree to interacting with my own? Her parents were the right age to settle and have children, my parents were some insane old people by the time they had me. Utter insanity mixed with virtue signalling on their part, I imagine. But I digress.
Eurídice, my friend, was a nice girl by all accounts. She was doing well in her studies, did a sport in her spare time and all the jazz. I will substantiate the decision I made regarding her in that I was poisoned. Poisoned by the bluepill and being delusional about my station, I had my sights set on other girls. I'm talking I was a genetic peasant and they were the daughters of the local hero kind of mismatch.
So yeah, something about my life, I was never the kid that took studies seriously, I quit most of my extracurriculars and I lazed about my house most of the time. You'd find me there reading a book or playing video games. I was hardly a catch.
That's why it surprised me when in the late 00s Eurídice motioned to me to go to a corner of the place we were in. I don't fucking remember what the occasion was, mate- it was some sort of celebration for families or whatever. So yeah, we were in a secluded, private space and she asked me whether I wanted to be her boyfriend. I declined. "It sounded like too much work" was my rationale.
Two thoughts on this incident:
- She might have been dared to do this. I was not the most popular boy ever in my school so it could have been a prank.
- We were like 11. So, shit. I still picked my nose for boogers and ate them at that age. Eurídice was clearly developing romantic urges that I hadn't. So it was bound to fail either way.
And I think it was for the better. When I remember Eurídice, I don't see an objectively MTB maybe HTB if you talk about her prime alt girl. My mind's eye still thinks of the dork who I beat at a game and unironically started crying because I was being mean.
So yeah, I'm still a KHHV and it doesn't change that I'm ugly and short. I'm still going to die alone about 50 years from that fateful day I just elaborated on.
