Serious Will you end it if things don't get better?

[Alone75]

It's the only way out now, I may as well still be 18, or even younger with my limited life experiences and with all I've pitifully achieved in my life so far. I'm 45 though and things will just get worse, my mum will die soon and I'll be totally alone then.

I feel sad and angry about living like this constantly, being trapped as me with nothing and nobody to ease the empty hollowness I feel.
I keep thinking back to school, what if I'd said and done things differently, would that girl have given me a chance?
Or that time in the club drunk, if I'd been more confident? I wouldn't still be a virgin and I'd have got with her or met someone later and even have kids maybe.

I don't think they were even good opportunities in the past, it shouldn't have been so hard.
But they feel more possible to the big empty void of nothing I have now, being looked through by women completely in real life and rejected online dating!

It all continues to come back to bite me harder the older I get too. I didn't ask for this, to be alone and living with my mum still like a pathetic man-child. I tried harder to change things but got nowhere, at 30 it's like it was "OK your time is up, game over" .

Now I get jokes and abuse at work, stares and nasty rumours from neighbours. All because I'm never seen with anyone and don't have a woman in my life. So I'm perceived as"weird" and deserve to be treated like this.

I'm not going to keep carrying on year after year like I have done, it's pointless. Ending my life prematurely scares me, but its also comforting to know once I do it, any pain will be over and I'll be gone forever and unaware.

 

[Incline]

I suppose in some way I am already ended.

 

[Chin]

If you went back in time to change how you did things you’d still be here. You know why you’re here and it has nothing to do with how you act

 

[Copexodius Maximus]

brootal to read. I would probably rope if my family died.

 

[SadistCel]

Maybe, maybe

 

[TINMAN]

Probably before I turn 30

 

[InMyCellInHell]

I'm just waiting for my mom to pass on before "the countdown" begins to run through my savings, maxing out every credit card I can get and then just ending it. It's a miserable plan but I really have none better right now.

 

[Transcended Trucel]

probably not

 

[AlexAnguish]

Why kill yourself? Isn't it better to fight and die than to die alone and unknown?

 

[Deleted member 28148]

At 30 probably

Why kill yourself? Isn't it better to fight and die than to die alone and unknown?

cope

 

[_wifebeater_]

Just lol at living in 2021

 

[waste matter]

Things will never get better

 

[BITG]

Probably before I turn 30

For me it’s ascend before 25 or death. I call it operation 25.

 

[Wastrel]

For me it’s ascend before 25 or death. I call it operation 25.

in more details please

 

[your personality]

It all continues to come back to bite me harder the older I get too. I didn't ask for this, to be alone and living with my mum still like a pathetic man-child. I tried harder to change things but got nowhere, at 30 it's like it was "OK your time is up, game over" .

Don't let people shame you about living with your mum like supposedly a pathetic man-child. It's none of their business what you do.

Now I get jokes and abuse at work, stares and nasty rumours from neighbours. All because I'm never seen with anyone and don't have a woman in my life. So I'm perceived as"weird" and deserve to be treated like this.

Tell them to fuck off. You are so much older now that you have nothing to lose.

I'm not going to keep carrying on year after year like I have done, it's pointless. Ending my life prematurely scares me, but its also comforting to know once I do it, any pain will be over and I'll be gone forever and unaware.

I'm sorry man. My hope is that whatever pain you're going through it's not going to last long.

 

[Pengwin]

I'm giving myself the time to improve until I turn 30.

 

[Deleted member 27495]

if i had a 12 gauge in my arms right now i would already be dead, all the other methods are scary to me i just want an instant lights out rather than a chance to feel further agony

 

[over4men]

I'm only 20 and already feel like I "died" 2 years ago. I hope I have the balls to rope by 25 if things don't improve because I don't want to become a mindless wageslave when there's nothing for me in life.

 

[Deleted member 22685]

to be alone and living with my mum still like a pathetic man-child

Whilst i agree and sympathize with the rest of this post, i can't do the same for this. The truth of the matter is that you have absolutely no reason to live alone, especially given you have admitted that you aren't finding a gf/wife. I have never understood this about American culture and i will still continue to not understand it, what the hell is the point in moving out of your parents house just because society told you to do so? And why is it looked down on so much?

Just lol at living in 2021

 

[Alone75]

Don't let people shame you about living with your mum like supposedly a pathetic man-child. It's none of their business what you do.

Tell them to fuck off. You are so much older now that you have nothing to lose.

I'm sorry man. My hope is that whatever pain you're going through it's not going to last long.

Whilst i agree and sympathize with the rest of this post, i can't do the same for this. The truth of the matter is that you have absolutely no reason to live alone, especially given you have admitted that you aren't finding a gf/wife. I have never understood this about American culture and i will still continue to not understand it, what the hell is the point in moving out of your parents house just because society told you to do so? And why is it looked down on so much?

Well, it's what what others think of me, but I do feel a loser also. The cheapest weekly rent in a bad area for a one bed flat is over half my weekly wages, so with bills, food ect I couldn't do it alone anyway. My mum needs my help more than ever since my dad died, she probably will join him within the next 10 years. So I'll stick it out until then I guess.

 

[BITG]

in more details please

What else is there to say? If I don’t ascend before 25, I’m roping. Pretty straight forward.

 

[your personality]

Well, it's what what others think of me, but I do feel a loser also. The cheapest weekly rent in a bad area for a one bed flat is over half my weekly wages, so with bills, food ect I couldn't do it alone anyway. My mum needs my help more than ever since my dad died, she probably will join him within the next 10 years. So I'll stick it out until then I guess.

In that case that's still understandable ngl being stuck in the same position in life and knowing you are not progressing career or money wise is extremely depressing.

 

[Deleted member 27161]

Yes

 

[Michinomiya Hirohit]

I'm giving it till 40, I should be able to retire in the next 16 years or at least purchase a decent bit of property and get a few roommates so I only need to work part time at most and then inject all my money into setting up a VR Room, which should progress a lot over the next 10-15 years. I will rope if things don't look to be going in this direction by 40

 

[Kevin Logan]

Things will never get better

 

[Hate_my_life]

I'm only 20 and already feel like I "died" 2 years ago. I hope I have the balls to rope by 25 if things don't improve because I don't want to become a mindless wageslave when there's nothing for me in life.

 

[HumanTrash]

I just reached wizardry this year and it's been real hard to cope, I have been drinking more than ever and been anxious as fuck. The only joy left are videogames pretty much, I have zero energy for 'bettering myself' or anything like that, I just want to rot.

 

[zangano1]

I want to but Im a coward

 

[Babica Yaga]

At this point just NEETmaxx tbfh. If I didn't have a family before 35 I would give up. There is literally no point, either go NEET or rope. People work so that they can sustain their families, have the best life for their kids. It's all pointless if you don't have kids, you'll be just working for the sake of working... So, I don't think I'd rope, but I'd try everything in my power to go NEET, or hopefully be rich by then because of crypto.

 

[Hyperwristcel]

No, I'm way too much of a pussy for that and I know most of you guys are as well so stop acting tough.

 

[AlexanderTheGreat11]

It never gets better

 

[Babica Yaga]

No, I'm way too much of a pussy for that and I know most of you guys are as well so stop acting tough.

Wanting to end it is "tough"? Lmfao how retarded can you be. Just wait till you're 35+ and see everyone with families/kids but you're the only one that's still alone. Enough to make anyone go crazy and rope.

 

[Hyperwristcel]

Wanting to end it is "tough"? Lmfao how retarded can you be. Just wait till you're 35+ and see everyone with families/kids but you're the only one that's still alone. Enough to make anyone go crazy and rope.

No, being able to end it requires courage that most people lack, including you and me.

 

[Babica Yaga]

No, being able to end it requires courage that most people lack, including you and me.

Like I said, for now. Just wait until you're 35.

 

[Hyperwristcel]

Like I said, for now. Just wait until you're 35.

I don't think I'll ever have the courage, but we'll see.

 

[Deleted member 30324]

I will be 34 yo this year and life only gets worse here in Brazil. I have plans of move to Portugal or London until December of 2022 because I fear the leftist will win the presidential election next year and Brazil will go full commie again, but if I can't make money enough to leave Brazil that I have plans of kill myself after have some fun.

 

[Deleted member 32092]

im sorry man try not to give a fuck about the haters in your life i don’t think i could have the courage to end it even though i think about it

 

[dirtykombatcel]

Why kill yourself? Isn't it better to fight and die than to die alone and unknown?

who are you going to fight JFL, its dying alone and unknown no matter what you do.