Why is self-realization so cringey

[D. B. Gooner]

God, every year I think I've finally individuated, and every year I look back at myself from a year ago and cringe hard. Why wasn't I self-aware of my own cringiness a year ago. Some of my old threads here are awful. And at the time I thought I was cooking.

Even though I know I had to go through those worldviews and values to get where I am today, it still feels so embarrassing.

 

[Usopp-sama]

felt same thing today

 

[iqmanletraper]

Luckily, I am a IQlet so I perma feel like shit and corny and dont have to worry of such things in my past cause I don't even have memory of it.

 

[FromOuterVenus]

It's a sign that you're growing up and getting better but yeah it's really sad to have a cringe past

 

[FastBlast]

Some of my old threads are awful. And at the time I thought I was cooking.

Taking this forum seriously is stupid. Ironically you will look back on this and cringe at yourself 2 years from now. Trying to climb up the incel hierarchy and establish yourself on .is is a meaningless endeavor. Take it from a 2023cel with almost 27k posts. You gain nothing from writing high iq high effort posts on this site. Stop wasting your time obsessing over that shit

 

[FromOuterVenus]

Taking this forum seriously is stupid. Ironically you will look back on this and cringe at yourself 2 years from now. Trying to climb up the incel hierarchy and establish yourself on .is is a meaningless endeavor. Take it from a 2023cel with almost 27k posts. You gain nothing from writing high iq high effort posts on this site. Stop wasting your time obsessing over that shit

Congrats on your 27000th post

 

[D. B. Gooner]

Ironically you will look back on this and cringe at yourself 2 years from now. Taking this forum seriously is stupid. Trying to climb up the incel hierarchy and establish yourself on .is is a meaningless endeavor. Take it from a 2023cel with almost 27k posts. You gain nothing from writing high iq high effort posts on this site. Stop wasting your time obsessing over that shit

Nah I both shitpost and write stuff I think is meaningful, depending on my mental state. But the point is, when I wanna write something meaningful, it should actually be meaningful. I was writing some BS back then. I don't mind it being BS, but I do care about the fact that I thought it wasn't BS at the time. How many of the opinions I hold now will embarrass my future self?

 

[FastBlast]

Congrats on your 27000th post

Jfl I didn't even realize I hit 27k with that post. Still thought I had a few dozen more to go

 

[Chud Norris72]

the cringe is hardcoded inside me because I'm a sub5

 

[tired as fuck]

Jfl I didn't even realize I hit 27k with that post. Still thought I had a few dozen more to go

hentai gooner gooned to hentai so much he forgot how to count jfl

 

[PURE ANUS]

cuz we dont act on it

 

[FoidsEnshittifyAll]

until you age and become a monolith... .

 

[St3v3Cel]

I don't relate to this. Whenever I think I have discovered something new I eventually realise that what I thought was new was a thought I'd already had once, or even several times before and several years before at that. That's what constant and unstoppable pondering does to you I guess. If it's not that then I guess I reached my limit long ago.

 

[St3v3Cel]

until you age and become a monolith... .

Indeed.

 

[D. B. Gooner]

I don't relate to this. Whenever I think I have discovered something new I eventually realise that what I thought was new was a thought I'd already had once, or even several times before and several years before at that. That's what constant and unstoppable pondering does to you I guess. If it's not that then I guess I reached my limit long ago.

I think for me it's because despite me constantly ranting about how much I hate people who build their identities out of ideologies and values, trying to conform to a collective, I do the same thing without realizing it. But this need to be original is also an identity thing. I guess cringiness is unavoidable.

 

[D. B. Gooner]

I don't relate to this. Whenever I think I have discovered something new I eventually realise that what I thought was new was a thought I'd already had once, or even several times before and several years before at that. That's what constant and unstoppable pondering does to you I guess. If it's not that then I guess I reached my limit long ago.

Though I do experience the same thing with renewed opinions. I find myself circling back to a lot of thoughts I had as a child but deemed to simple to be correct as I grew. I've learnt that complicated thought tends to be worse.

Searching for esoteric knowledge only makes me respect "esoteric" people less and less. I always underestimate how delusionally confident other people can be because of my own lack of confidence. They will parrot some esoteric shit they've read somewhere else, and sound so convincing that you will believe them to be intelligent. Then you look into that subject yourself and realize they're retarded.

 

[Tropicalcel]

You're maturing just fine

 

[St3v3Cel]

I think for me it's because despite me constantly ranting about how much I hate people who build their identities out of ideologies and values, trying to conform to a collective, I do the same thing without realizing it. But this need to be original is also an identity thing. I guess cringiness is unavoidable.

It is all part of the journey, thinking about things as deeply and intently like you do makes you more exceptional than you think. You may look back on yourself and cringe occasionally, but that shouldn't make it any less worth it. In time maybe you will be able to find something to appreciate about the times you cringe, i.e. "killing the part of you that cringes" like the meme goes. I read and like your threads a lot, but I don't always respond to them. These recent threads you made were highly relatable:

[Messy thread] Specific struggles as a narcissist

Living as an "avoidant"/"narcissist" is hell on earth. The paranoia and insecurities are too much to handle. Here are some of my very specific daily experiences: -Whenever my hair isn't perfect, I have mental breakdowns and avoid going to places with a lot of people, in case someone I know...

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My mothers specific narcissistic behavior

I've already made a similar thread about myself https://incels.is/threads/messy-thread-specific-struggles-as-a-narcissist.871160/ Both me and my mother heavily depend on others validation, but while I'm passive, avoidant, introverted, she is active, agressive, extroverted. She is also very low...

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The reason I didn't respond to those is because in order to respond to them meaningfully I would need to talk about some things I don't want to talk about.

Though I do experience the same thing with renewed opinions. I find myself circling back to a lot of thoughts I had as a child but deemed to simple to be correct as I grew. I've learnt that complicated thought tends to be worse.

Searching for esoteric knowledge only makes me respect "esoteric" people less and less. I always underestimate how delusionally confident other people can be because of my own lack of confidence. They will parrot some esoteric shit they've read somewhere else, and sound so convincing that you will believe them to be intelligent. Then you look into that subject yourself and realize they're retarded.

View: https://youtu.be/gBE6glZNJuU?t=1147

Terry Davis explained this well once (19:07 - 19:43 in the video):

“An idiot admires complexity, a genius admires simplicity, a physicist tries to make it simple, for an idiot anything the more complicated it is the more he will admire it, if you make something so clusterfucked he can't understand it he's gonna think you're a god cause you made it so complicated nobody can understand it. That's how they write journals in Academics, they try to make it so complicated people think you're a genius”

As for esotericism, I think this bloke summaried what a lot of esotericism is really about well at the end of this recent video:

View: https://youtu.be/EZjVeCiHOB0?t=1586

(26:26 - 27:50)

 

[Pikacel]

God, every year I think I've finally individuated, and every year I look back at myself from a year ago and cringe hard. Why wasn't I self-aware of my own cringiness a year ago. Some of my old threads here are awful. And at the time I thought I was cooking.

Even though I know I had to go through those worldviews and values to get where I am today, it still feels so embarrassing.

Self awareness is overrated

Cringing at yourself won’t make you less cringe

 

[Pikacel]

Incel trait to cringe at yourself tbh

 

[nihilum]

Taking this forum seriously is stupid. Ironically you will look back on this and cringe at yourself 2 years from now. Trying to climb up the incel hierarchy and establish yourself on .is is a meaningless endeavor. Take it from a 2023cel with almost 27k posts. You gain nothing from writing high iq high effort posts on this site. Stop wasting your time obsessing over that shit

 

[Freixel]

Taking this forum seriously is stupid. Ironically you will look back on this and cringe at yourself 2 years from now. Trying to climb up the incel hierarchy and establish yourself on .is is a meaningless endeavor. Take it from a 2023cel with almost 27k posts. You gain nothing from writing high iq high effort posts on this site. Stop wasting your time obsessing over that shit

 

[z_ro]

Self awareness is overrated

the cringe is hardcoded inside me because I'm a sub5