Hi brocels. I will do my best to keep this as short as possible.
I left my country (Greece) at 18 and moved to the Netherlands. I am a 5'5, so I was already gigamanlet in my country but in NL I was literally comical (people there are very tall)
At that point, years of bullying and mockery during school (ironically not for my height) made me have very severe social anxiety, to the point I could not leave my room to go the bathroom and would piss in plastic bottles instead. I was on the verge of suicide as I was also severely depressed. (For what it's worth I did have friends I was close with at that point)
Long story short, after having tried everything from meditations to professional psychotherapists with no success, I discovered an online CBT program and dedicated half a decade doing very intense therapy every day.
Keep in mind at that point in time I was still very bluepilled, and assumed the reason I was lonely was because I was unable to hold eye contact, strike up convos with strangers, have NT hobbies, cold approach foids etc. So I insisted for years with the CBT program.
And eventually I overcame social anxiety! I became functional, could work and sustain myself, I went to study psychology so I would be around lots of foids in the hopes to approach and challenge myself and slay etc, I even started dancing salsa and bachata (which is actually a giga NT hobby and if you are at least normie it will skyrocket your bodycount). I have been to over 100 salsa parties and have danced over a 1000 foids, and asked out many of them. And trust me guys that was extremely hard to do, remember I could not leave my room to go pee before.
And after having put this tremendous effort, always thinking that the result would be I d become a slayer, it finally dawned on me: I am a gigamanlet. How could I seriously think I d ever get laid or that NT hobbies and social skills mattered at 5'5. I tried in both countries, and never managed to go on a single date.
Eventually I started doing heroin and meth, and that's what I have been doing since then, and I feel fine. I ADVISE AGAINST this lifestyle, it comes with its own set of serious problems. But for me personally it is the only solution I see to the reality of being a subchad.
Conclusion: few people have done as much self improvement as I have, so no normiefag has the right to try and bluepill me about NT and what not. I am living proof that manlet does not get female attention no matter what. And even if he does, he is prolly just used till the foid cucks him with tall chad.
If you wanna self improve, do it only for yourself not to get foids. Overcoming social anxiety helped me personally in many things, but it is irrelevant in getting foids. From now on I focus on moneymaxxing so I can eventually import a bride from some 3rd world shithole to at least reproduce. I wish I did that from the beginning instead of working on social skills hoping to be loved by some foid.
TLDR; self improvement is cope, if you are manlet you won't get laid no matter what, focus on moneymaxxing to import bride/go to prostitutes
I left my country (Greece) at 18 and moved to the Netherlands. I am a 5'5, so I was already gigamanlet in my country but in NL I was literally comical (people there are very tall)
At that point, years of bullying and mockery during school (ironically not for my height) made me have very severe social anxiety, to the point I could not leave my room to go the bathroom and would piss in plastic bottles instead. I was on the verge of suicide as I was also severely depressed. (For what it's worth I did have friends I was close with at that point)
Long story short, after having tried everything from meditations to professional psychotherapists with no success, I discovered an online CBT program and dedicated half a decade doing very intense therapy every day.
Keep in mind at that point in time I was still very bluepilled, and assumed the reason I was lonely was because I was unable to hold eye contact, strike up convos with strangers, have NT hobbies, cold approach foids etc. So I insisted for years with the CBT program.
And eventually I overcame social anxiety! I became functional, could work and sustain myself, I went to study psychology so I would be around lots of foids in the hopes to approach and challenge myself and slay etc, I even started dancing salsa and bachata (which is actually a giga NT hobby and if you are at least normie it will skyrocket your bodycount). I have been to over 100 salsa parties and have danced over a 1000 foids, and asked out many of them. And trust me guys that was extremely hard to do, remember I could not leave my room to go pee before.
And after having put this tremendous effort, always thinking that the result would be I d become a slayer, it finally dawned on me: I am a gigamanlet. How could I seriously think I d ever get laid or that NT hobbies and social skills mattered at 5'5. I tried in both countries, and never managed to go on a single date.
Eventually I started doing heroin and meth, and that's what I have been doing since then, and I feel fine. I ADVISE AGAINST this lifestyle, it comes with its own set of serious problems. But for me personally it is the only solution I see to the reality of being a subchad.
Conclusion: few people have done as much self improvement as I have, so no normiefag has the right to try and bluepill me about NT and what not. I am living proof that manlet does not get female attention no matter what. And even if he does, he is prolly just used till the foid cucks him with tall chad.
If you wanna self improve, do it only for yourself not to get foids. Overcoming social anxiety helped me personally in many things, but it is irrelevant in getting foids. From now on I focus on moneymaxxing so I can eventually import a bride from some 3rd world shithole to at least reproduce. I wish I did that from the beginning instead of working on social skills hoping to be loved by some foid.
TLDR; self improvement is cope, if you are manlet you won't get laid no matter what, focus on moneymaxxing to import bride/go to prostitutes
