Growing up i've never had a true role model who I've looked up to. I had a troubled childhood growing up and let's just say I was generally autistic due to continuous bad experiences during years of development as a kid
I've watched all of those popular youtube blackpillers channels like DBDR, Rehab Room, compilations of Hamudi and other stuff like that. Rehab Room and DBDR gives generally good advice and helped me grow my personality a little bit
So I've stumbled upon this old post during the Reign of Tates era (2023) : https://incels.is/threads/positive-male-role-models-for-inkwells-courtesy-of-r-incelexit.517883/ ... and I've just read Harassment Architecture and recently discovered Mike Ma and at first, I was kinda aligned with his self-insert character in the first few pages so I automatically became interested at him, finding archived posts to larp him at its fullest and to fuse it within me spiritually. Funnily enough I also once admired those lifestyles, just commuting to where ever, having that trad-lifestyle where you work back breaking labour just to get raped by aristocrats, participating in war and then die a meaningless life and be reincarnated into a small village, soon to be conquered and then get raped by a homosexual down-syndrome retard or something. I rethought about it, and said to myself why do I romanticize everything so much? Even though I don't have the looks, height or money for some thing, but let's be honest, I've always wanted to live in those 80s 90s heavily romanticized movies
I'm just struggling with self-identity for quite a while and needed a healthy goal to strive forward to, even though I am deficit in alot of perspective in my life I just wanted nice copes
Then it just spiraled down into twitter rightwing shitposts and violent tendencies. Just like American Psycho but instead of upper upperclassmen and Bateman being a meme, it's just anti-modernism and environmentalist, as well as glorifying old Greek cultures and spear and swords war with comically large marble statues, it's all just a meme. Unabomber American Psycho
Truthfully I am just 18 years of age and haven't experienced much stuff, and oldcels would say that it is normal to become lost at my age. But I deeply deeply long for a role model instead of just LDAR and be like a soulless corpse. And lacking a role model has made me LDAR and procrastinate alot. Just be Ubermensch bro! And yes I am Low IQ
I've watched all of those popular youtube blackpillers channels like DBDR, Rehab Room, compilations of Hamudi and other stuff like that. Rehab Room and DBDR gives generally good advice and helped me grow my personality a little bit
So I've stumbled upon this old post during the Reign of Tates era (2023) : https://incels.is/threads/positive-male-role-models-for-inkwells-courtesy-of-r-incelexit.517883/ ... and I've just read Harassment Architecture and recently discovered Mike Ma and at first, I was kinda aligned with his self-insert character in the first few pages so I automatically became interested at him, finding archived posts to larp him at its fullest and to fuse it within me spiritually. Funnily enough I also once admired those lifestyles, just commuting to where ever, having that trad-lifestyle where you work back breaking labour just to get raped by aristocrats, participating in war and then die a meaningless life and be reincarnated into a small village, soon to be conquered and then get raped by a homosexual down-syndrome retard or something. I rethought about it, and said to myself why do I romanticize everything so much? Even though I don't have the looks, height or money for some thing, but let's be honest, I've always wanted to live in those 80s 90s heavily romanticized movies
I'm just struggling with self-identity for quite a while and needed a healthy goal to strive forward to, even though I am deficit in alot of perspective in my life I just wanted nice copes
Then it just spiraled down into twitter rightwing shitposts and violent tendencies. Just like American Psycho but instead of upper upperclassmen and Bateman being a meme, it's just anti-modernism and environmentalist, as well as glorifying old Greek cultures and spear and swords war with comically large marble statues, it's all just a meme. Unabomber American Psycho
Truthfully I am just 18 years of age and haven't experienced much stuff, and oldcels would say that it is normal to become lost at my age. But I deeply deeply long for a role model instead of just LDAR and be like a soulless corpse. And lacking a role model has made me LDAR and procrastinate alot. Just be Ubermensch bro! And yes I am Low IQ
