Venting Whenever I see pictures of myself when I was 12 I went to kill myself

[deleted fren]

I looked good. I had a good jaw. I had a normal lip area. It appeared like I would grow up to be attractive. Then because of shitty poor living conditions where I couldn't breathe through my nose I developed an underbite and my face became so prolonged, thin, and deformed that I look like a habsburg. I was less depressed when I assumed that I was ugly as a child. But now that I know I could've had potential but it was thrown away due to shitty luck with my upbringing and childhood, I just.... Feel so horrible.

Don't let normies gaslight you into thinking it's personality. Back then I was treated so much better. It's like I was in another dimension. Once I became ugly, at like 14/15, everything changed. I started being treated like shit. Now I'm treated as a subhuman. It's not fair.

 

[Icarus]

Looks are everything

 

[Sir Silentium]

I peaked when I was 12 as well

 

[deleted fren]

I peaked when I was 12 as well

Looks are everything

Yes.

 

[Poopless One]

I didn't even look good at 12

 

[deleted fren]

I didn't even look good at 12

Brutal.

 

[outerdarkness]

I didn't even look good at 12

Me too, already had massive acne by then.

 

[Nihilisticcel]

I was actually uglier when I was 13... I was a legit subhuman at least now I can say I'm LTN (still miserable)

 

[Rapistcel]

I looked good. I had a good jaw. I had a normal lip area. It appeared like I would grow up to be attractive. Then because of shitty poor living conditions where I couldn't breathe through my nose I developed an underbite and my face became so prolonged, thin, and deformed that I look like a habsburg. I was less depressed when I assumed that I was ugly as a child. But now that I know I could've had potential but it was thrown away due to shitty luck with my upbringing and childhood, I just.... Feel so horrible.

Don't let normies gaslight you into thinking it's personality. Back then I was treated so much better. It's like I was in another dimension. Once I became ugly, at like 14/15, everything changed. I started being treated like shit. Now I'm treated as a subhuman. It's not fair.

When I was 12 I was extremely ugly too, my best looking era was at 3-7 years old.

 

[Dr. Autismo]

Can relate, when I found my old Facebook account, which I don't use, the pfp was me when I was 15, holding my baby nephew.

The teenager I was looked so happy and innocent compared to the depressed, lonely man I am now.
I personally believed I should have died when I was 15, because that life I want to live where I'm happy, successful and have friends and a girlfriend will never happen.

 

[VλREN]

Well I always looked like shit

 

[ItsOverMan]

I looked good. I had a good jaw. I had a normal lip area. It appeared like I would grow up to be attractive. Then because of shitty poor living conditions where I couldn't breathe through my nose I developed an underbite and my face became so prolonged, thin, and deformed that I look like a habsburg. I was less depressed when I assumed that I was ugly as a child. But now that I know I could've had potential but it was thrown away due to shitty luck with my upbringing and childhood, I just.... Feel so horrible.

Don't let normies gaslight you into thinking it's personality. Back then I was treated so much better. It's like I was in another dimension. Once I became ugly, at like 14/15, everything changed. I started being treated like shit. Now I'm treated as a subhuman. It's not fair.

I used to think there must be something wrong with my face because people immediately reacted weird to me, or differently to me than to other people (normies). Like they were socially repelled or something.

But now I think my face basically looks "normie" (4/10 probably) and on the surface from a distance I seem like a normie/NT, but as soon as someone talks to me, within 10 seconds they can tell I'm NOT normie/NT and that's when they're socially repelled, disgusted, think I'm weird.