When I get moments of peace I realise how insane I really am

[Magicmirror]

My mind is a constant stream of NEGATIVE thoughts. Negative ones from the past, fear of future events and creating fake ones as well that aren't real. I could be thinking about that one time I got jumped in highschool or think about whether I'll get harrassed by some thugmaxxed jamal tommorow to creating scenarios in my mind about how everyone hates me

Then I get a moment of peace and quiet where my brain just shuts down and I think of nothing except the present and the task at hand. It's moments like these when I realise how normal people think and how fucked my mind is. If I were to describe my thought processes, it would be a constant stream of files overflowing from a printer, never stopping

My mind will never be quiet. Everything I do is to try to manage it. Warm baths, Music, Video games, Hentai . They are all distractions so I can find momentary peace.

I think it's heriditary.

 

[Deleted member 28708]

Listening a calm music and staring at wallpapers put me in that mode, sucks you struggle to do it.

 

[Nikalas]

It's a little something called "depression" don't know if you have heard of it before it's kinda esoteric

 

[Govid_Dorious]

My mind is a constant stream of NEGATIVE thoughts. Negative ones from the past, fear of future events and creating fake ones as well that aren't real. I could be thinking about that one time I got jumped in highschool or think about whether I'll get harrassed by some thugmaxxed jamal tommorow to creating scenarios in my mind about how everyone hates me

Then I get a moment of peace and quiet where my brain just shuts down and I think of nothing except the present and the task at hand. It's moments like these when I realise how normal people think and how fucked my mind is. If I were to describe my thought processes, it would be a constant stream of files overflowing from a printer, never stopping

My mind will never be quiet. Everything I do is to try to manage it. Warm baths, Music, Video games, Hentai . They are all distractions so I can find momentary peace.

I think it's heriditary.