I'm 27, parents divorced when i was 4 and yep - my father is from fucking Jesus-Christ will come and wipe out everyone tomorrow cult, and grandma is low IQ dumb catholic zealot (mum doesn't want to engage in conflict but cockoo grandma forced her to). Both of them started to brainwash me since i was 4-5? Father threatened me constantly about incoming armaggedon, and that everyone (especially catholics) are minions of satan, and everyone in jails and convicted war crimes are catholics. And then, after coming back home where mum and grandfathers lives - a rewerse brainwashing started, where all these cockoo children of cathedral of my father was lunatics, and literally demons, and when my father took me for 1 day trip, that stupid fat old whore cancelled me for a month, because "i was brainwashed". I WASN'T EVEN TWO DIGITAL AGE YET. Later father engaged me even in some even more sick shit - like meeting with war veterans, who tried to convince me, that catholics forced them to eat human flesh during German occupation, or meeting with similar age colleagues from the same cult (all of them of course are dead now because of suicide).
And then, this old fucker abandoned me, by kicking me out of his house, because he impregnated his freshly new cult-associated wife, so i was threw out due to still being inconvertible.
And then, fucking old hag gramma piece of shit started to say things, like he wasn't as bad, he was cool, why i doesn't speak to him anymore to despise my father in-law. Of course bitch still brainwashed me, and convinced me, that i'm literally worse than Hitler, and that i look and behave like my father (she knew that i wanted motherfucker dead).
And because of this, i was literally not a human, or even animal in schools. Thanks to my lovely family i developed Stalin's-like paranoia, had basic problems with communication, when someone tried to shake my hand for greet i covered my head, or belly. In schools i was constantly bullied, in home fucking clusterfuck, the only safe haven for me was PC and Internet.
My biggest wish was to have normal family. Loving, caring wife and children to teach them, how everything works, and give them feeling, that family isn't against them. To start a family, you need to find a foid. But when you survived ultra-schizo propaganda with fake love affection and other shit and don't know how to love, or flirt, or just talk to a foid, and then you live in current times, where everyone is brainwashed with online manure propaganda and no one cares about shit like family, just earn more money and consume goyim.
I fucking hate this world. Everyday i dream about power grid failures, civil wars, nuclear holocausts. I know this is evil, but my head and mind are constantly in pain, and watching something burning is like guilty pleasure for me.
And then, this old fucker abandoned me, by kicking me out of his house, because he impregnated his freshly new cult-associated wife, so i was threw out due to still being inconvertible.
And then, fucking old hag gramma piece of shit started to say things, like he wasn't as bad, he was cool, why i doesn't speak to him anymore to despise my father in-law. Of course bitch still brainwashed me, and convinced me, that i'm literally worse than Hitler, and that i look and behave like my father (she knew that i wanted motherfucker dead).
And because of this, i was literally not a human, or even animal in schools. Thanks to my lovely family i developed Stalin's-like paranoia, had basic problems with communication, when someone tried to shake my hand for greet i covered my head, or belly. In schools i was constantly bullied, in home fucking clusterfuck, the only safe haven for me was PC and Internet.
My biggest wish was to have normal family. Loving, caring wife and children to teach them, how everything works, and give them feeling, that family isn't against them. To start a family, you need to find a foid. But when you survived ultra-schizo propaganda with fake love affection and other shit and don't know how to love, or flirt, or just talk to a foid, and then you live in current times, where everyone is brainwashed with online manure propaganda and no one cares about shit like family, just earn more money and consume goyim.
I fucking hate this world. Everyday i dream about power grid failures, civil wars, nuclear holocausts. I know this is evil, but my head and mind are constantly in pain, and watching something burning is like guilty pleasure for me.
