Anyone who states another reason than looks is coping. But here I'll go:
- Always been on the introverted side. When as a child I encountered normies, they usually felt dumb or brutish to me, when they were not actually brutish with me. I turned to books and reading very early as a cope.
- Puberty happened at 13, and with it increasingly desperate and delusional attempts to become one of the cool kids. I had noticed that the cool kids were all either handsome or very low inhib, and genuinely believed I could make it as one of their own.
- I never became one of the cool kids, not for lack of trying, not for lack of consumption of internet guides on how to be an extrovert. We were simply not on the same plane of existence.
- I finally gave up at 16. 3 years of LARPing as a cool kid with no results left me mentally exhausted and broken.
- I dropped out of society and started to read and think a lot about what had happened. I came to the conclusion, helped with readings on evolutionary psychology, that it was in fact my looks all along. I had tried being nice and kind, tried being low inhib, tried being high inhib, tried being nasty and evil, tried listening to cool music, tried listening to uncool music, tried being natural, tried being unnatural, tried talking normally, tried talking like an idiot, but I could never make it. Looks were the Occam's razor. Only looks could explain why I saw some introverts scoring with girls and some extroverts failing, or some evil guys scoring and other evil guys failing, ditto for nice guys.
