Experiment What is your most autistic behaviour in society?

[The Wolf]

And why do you behave like this? Is it because of awkwardness, or something else?

I have social anxiety

 

[Retardinator]

there's literal definitions you could look up you know

 

[nice_try]

People who post one word threads should get banned.

 

[NihilisticSoul]

Trying to avoid eye contact with normies when im outside.

 

[Saint Cho]

I usually avoid saying anything in public. Best to keep your mouth shut as an autist.

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

there's literal definitions you could look up you know

I'll find it in a moment.

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

For years, I've felt "inadequate" whenever I see couples or male/female duos walking outside or in stores. Many times, they whisper and denigrate me as I walk past because of my appearance and autistic behavior. I've had men blatantly call me "ugly" and laugh with their girlfriends.

This is only a small portion of my negative experiences with couples.

I'm disabled from autism and have severe social anxiety too. Excluding medical appointments, I don't leave my apartment for months at a time.

If you are able, please go into more detail. It makes many of us feel as though we are among similar sufferers.

Yes, of course. I've had store clerks ask me if I "need any help" because I'm anxious and avoidant to the extent of walking through empty aisles and looking around in a seemingly idle way to avoid people noticing me and criticizing me.

Yes, I often had this problem when I was in my late teens; I would walk to the store and cashiers/store associates would treat me coldly.

A greeter told me I "looked dangerous" as I was slowly walking into the store due to severe anxiety. She had no problem greeting a friend as he walked in. The cashier was extremely annoyed by my presence and quickly waved me along.

I always make sure to use "automatic payment" machines when shopping. They are much more pleasant...

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

No but some people thought I was on weed when I had red eyes from not sleeping

drugs are a decent cope if done correctly. In order for one to thrive, one must suffer first.

So true ! Once at the hospital, I explained my suffering to a psy and he was taken aback by my monothonous voice and diction to the point of asking my mother if I was drugged. She confirmed to him that it was normal.

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

Imagine hanging out with this guy

Please don't devalue our experiences like this. It's a Normie trait.

When I was younger, I would fidget in stores with objects for minutes/hours while waiting for my parents. I'd fidget to the point of nausea.

low inhibs me

high T/libido as an inkwell must be hell lol

 

[decembrist_kirillov]

I usually avoid saying anything in public. Best to keep your mouth shut as an autist.

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

While Shannon Rose B sat outside without a mask, Intellau Celistic struggled to enter a very crowded grocery store during "lockdown" without having an autistic meltdown.

I had to leave the person I was with and hide in an aisle to calm down.

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

For years, I've felt "inadequate" whenever I see couples or male/female duos walking outside or in stores. Many times, they whisper and denigrate me as I walk past because of my appearance and autistic behavior. I've had men blatantly call me "ugly" and laugh with their girlfriends.

This is only a small portion of my negative experiences with couples.

Vyvanse gave me plenty of energy.

Sadly, it also made my anxious worse. I recall hiding in an aisle of a local convenience store to calm down.

I’ve hid in a dirty, disgusting bathroom once (before my agoraphobia was getting really bad) it’s over

Over for Socialanxietycels

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

My cousins would often laugh at me when we would go to stores/malls together. I stood around as they took pictures of each other for Facebook.

Too late

This thread exists

It's all in my head and i will free myself from this toughts thanks to this nice tool:

Use that against the devils who love michealians and Luciferians

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

My maternal half-cousins and half-aunt would chat with my step-grandfather about myself and Mother living elsewhere. (I heard their conversations often)

"She never does any housework" (Objectively false. I have other problems with her, however...)

"They're leeching from us" (I never asked them for food or even clothing. I very rarely spoke to them.)

He would get upset when Mother would ask him to pick up our prescriptions from stores. He'd also get upset when Mother asked to visit grocery stores. This is despite taking my half-relatives to stores/fast food restaurants multiple times weekly. Medical appointments as well(When medical transportation wasn't an option).

My half-aunt's lovely statements:

"[Mother] sits around all day"

"I thought [Mother] said they had no food" (Me and Mother relied on food pantry boxes/SNAP)

"[Intellau] will tell his mother if we bully him" (Maternal half-cousins; they abused my younger half-cousin somewhat since she was reluctant to do so.)

Understood.

When I was in my early teens, my father would constantly denigrate my autistic traits. He would often tell me,

"Why are you so shameful all the time?" (I was anxious and kept my head down in public)

"We're going to grandma's house, hurry up!"(He wanted to make himself seem like an excellent father by showing her his son)

"You're moving so slowly"(He would hit me; I was sluggish from ASD/trauma)

"Your cousins are better than you!" (Again, anxiety and depression)

"I'm saying this to be kind. Don't anger me." (If I was struggling to go inside a store due to anxiety)

I once had Pyelonephritis and was fairly weak from it to the point of needing to stay home when my father wanted to visit a store. My father, instead of asking me if I took my prescribed antibiotics, simply told me, "Hurry up, let's go see grandma". He then asked Grandma to patronize me for my "disobedience".

 

[Copexodius Maximus]

Saying nothing because I have nothing to say

 

[tulasdanslos]

Wise cracking and trying and failing to make other people laugh.

 

[IncelKing]

I have learned the art of “masking” so well that I fit in with others and most people from a distance would assume im a dumb normie just like them.

 

[ElTruecel]

I usually avoid saying anything in public. Best to keep your mouth shut as an autist.

fake autist. You’ll be forced to say something in the workforce and once you start speaking or talking you’ll be ridiculed. Even if you are a quiet incel you’ll be ostracized.

In fact it was one of you fucking Korean gooks who did this fuck Koreans. Stupid fucking westernized gooks think they’re hot shit

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

Yes, many times. In group therapy, I was repeatedly criticized because I couldn't socialize. A White foid with a rich social life was given constant passes daily. They also switched my activities after she omitted her full name from her goal sheet(I was handing them out). This was after frowning at me and keeping her head down to avoid me.

She was switched into the group for older youth despite being three years younger than me.

Given that we are of opposite races, I believe it was also due to an incident involving an "interracial pairing" in the group. The male of that pairing took the (White) female outside and did "things" with her near a river.

D.D was considerate enough to acknowledge my presence, since the other youth either ignored me or spoke over me during my turn to speak.

She also patronized me when I was told to partner with her for a group activity, as I was anxious and unable to make eye contact("Intellau!"). I later heard her mention something about "I rarely make eye contact with people...".

The group leader said this of her(foid):

"Well, now she'll be right back in the hospital" (Aide)

"No, enough of that. She has plenty of friends and support. I think she'll be okay."

I'd like to believe that objective reality was slipping through his blue-pilled facade.

 

[ElTruecel]

I have learned the art of “masking” so well that I fit in with others and most people from a distance would assume im a dumb normie just like them.

How are you not a punching bag ?

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

Wise cracking and trying and failing to make other people laugh.

In fact it was one of you fucking Korean gooks who did this fuck Koreans. Stupid fucking westernized gooks think they’re hot shit

This is Meteor City, Japan.

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

I was disgusted by the junk and needles in the area I traveled through to reach the only food store around...

Im not racist. I hate all racez equally

In 2015, I made a "special agreement" with my psychologist. He asked me to stop wearing hats since it embarrassed Mother. In 2017, Mother used her crocheting skills to give me a yarn-lanyard, as I needed to buy groceries from the only grocery store in our area(Discount):

 

[tulasdanslos]

Btw OP is a retarded glue eater or a fed. Asperger's is NOT autism.
YOU'RE NOT AUTISTIC YOU HAVE ASPERGER'S SYNDROME.
YOU'RE NOT AUTISTIC YOU HAVE ASPERGER'S SYNDROME.
YOU'RE NOT AUTISTIC YOU HAVE ASPERGER'S SYNDROME.

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

Or, when Mother would take them to local restaurants or grocery stores. I was often at home.

I type this with disgust of vile thoughts. Still, I appreciate your audience...

My parents fought when I was a young child daily. So, I often spent time with my half-relatives. I was depressed, sluggish, anxious, and couldn't grasp social cues well. This meant it was easy for me to become saddened and tearful due to ASD/domestic violence trauma.

My half-aunt would denigrate me for being unable to follow them in stores(I was anxious). Any disagreement with her children meant I would be denigrated. They'd laugh at me after I left.

I initially blamed myself, until I reflected and realized that they were simply filth, truthfully.

When I was a young child...I'd fidget with objects in stores, restaurants, et cetera...

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

A change of pace before the musical show begins:


Elizabeth...Alexandria Elizabeth H

Prior to Ruby & Sapphire chapter​

As a young child, Sapphire had a childhood friend named Ruby that she played with. One day, Ruby fought a Salamence that attacked them and won, but was injured in the process. Terrified from the experience, Sapphire broke down crying. Believing that Ruby got injured because of her own weakness, Sapphire vowed to become stronger.

Ruby & Sapphire chapter​

Sapphire, five years before the Ruby & Sapphire chapter



Sapphire's original outfit

Sapphire debuted in Making Mirth with Mightyena. She rescued Ruby from a pair of wild Mightyena at Route 101 and took him to her Secret Base to recover. When Sapphire tried talking to Ruby later, he mistook Sapphire for talking Pokémon due to her leaf cloak. Ruby's Poochyena, Nana, bit Sapphire, angering her into removing the cloak and attacking him with her Torchic, Chic. Overhearing the incident on his Pokégear, Professor Birch revealed to Ruby that Sapphire is actually his daughter. Though the misunderstanding was cleared, Sapphire and Ruby were attacked by a wild Seviper. Ruby refused to fight as to not risk dirtying his Pokémon, forcing Sapphire to defeat the Tail Snake Pokémon by herself. Afterward, the two began arguing over their interests, which ended with Sapphire deciding to make a bet to see who could conquer their respective goal within an 80-day time limit. After Ruby agreed, Sapphire fainted from the injuries she received from protecting Ruby from the Mightyena earlier. Ruby healed Sapphire's wounds and modified a spare set of his clothes for Sapphire to wear.

In Distracting Dustox, Sapphire went back to Littleroot Town and returned the items and Treecko Ruby had accidentally taken from Professor Birch earlier with the exception of his Pokédex. Later that day, Sapphire changed into the clothes Ruby made for her and set out with Chic and Rono to begin her journey to conquer all of Hoenn's Gyms.

Yes, I used to have more "closeness" with my maternal female cousins; they were the only "youth" who did not laugh at my autistic fidgeting behaviors(While I was present, at least). I would sit in a corner and fidget with pencils for hours.

Sadly, they changed during adolescence and eventually started laughing at my severe social anxiety. One tried to trip me down a set of stairs(twice) and threw cake batter at me because I tried to help them with a recipe(As my mother told me to). She also hit my head out of anger.

When I last saw them, over four years ago, they seemed to dislike me.

"We didn't want to see you. Granny told us to help you." - They also kept whining and complaining.

That was the day I wore Mother's poncho. I decided to keep it permanently, and it aided me well in Minneapolis.
(I wore it daily)

The creature lied about me "spilling cake batter"(Her older sister threw it at me) after I tried to help them, as Mother instructed me to do.

I overheard them from upstairs. I was supposed to leave.

My half-cousin was in Rogers Memorial Hospital as a young child. I visited her. When I was in group therapy, they never asked me about my health or anything.

My half-cousin was in Rogers Memorial Hospital as a young child. I visited her. When I was in group therapy, they never asked me about my health or anything.

My "worship" consisted of visiting the person while she was hospitalized for eating disorders, visiting her sibling when he had surgeries, reading a book to her younger sibling, sharing snacks with her.

 

[Saint Cho]

fake autist. You’ll be forced to say something in the workforce and once you start speaking or talking you’ll be ridiculed. Even if you are a quiet incel you’ll be ostracized.

When I worked, it was as a night stocker at a market. I was the only person in the store so quite comfy.

In fact it was one of you fucking Korean gooks who did this fuck Koreans. Stupid fucking westernized gooks think they’re hot shit

Why do you think I think I'm hot shit? I have no friends and my daily social interaction is with other subhumans on incels.is.

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

 

[ElTruecel]

When I worked, it was as a night stocker at a market. I was the only person in the store so quite comfy.

Mogger.

Why do you think I think I'm hot shit? I have no friends and my daily social interaction is with other subhumans on incels.is.

Nah not you specifically I’m just talking about a trend I’ve seen from Koreans

 

[erenyeager]

there's literal definitions you could look up you know

 

[andinocel]

My main autist trait is that Im very direct and blunt. People think im being aggressive or condescending. Sometimes I'll say things so matter-of-factly that normies think I'm being sarcastic (real life example - I've been asked how to turn certain things on, and I've answered "press the on button"). Most Americans tolerate this behavior and at times find it funny, but Hispanics (especially fresh off the boat ones) and Americans from the christcuck South really, really HATE my communication style.

 

[Cletus Longthing]

Not talking much

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

Not talking much

They scrubbed it quite heavily. Well, after...

When I was eighteen-nineteen, I was no longer able to visit stores or walk outside freely without extreme anxiety and dissociation.

It just gets more relieving once you start to accept that it never began for you. I am turning my attention to other things.

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Word, when I graduated undergrad it was a good feeling for a bit. I got bored after a few months though. Only so much media you can consume that is interesting to you.

No matter how many times I see this it's so fucking brutal to think about it holy shit

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

I see...I stopped attending trips with Mother to Milwaukee stores.

She told me, years ago, how ashamed and embarrassed she was to visit the State Fair and have her relatives laugh at her.

I don't let them touch me.

...

why you shakin

do you post random pics of random convos when you speak to a person or is this you gag

 

[ADHD_cel]

Talking to myself or laughing at the jokes I make in my own head when alone, kek

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

No. I didn't mean a light, playful tap. I meant actually hitting your head out of anger due to your "disobedience".

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Talking to myself or laughing at the jokes I make in my own head when alone, kek

I don't rationalize obvious lies based on physical appearance. I just deal with all opponents when needed.

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

I don't rationalize obvious lies based on physical appearance. I just deal with all opponents when needed.

 

[Robb97]

My movements are awkward and stiff. If I try to correct them it looks weird as well.

I have social anxiety, as gay as it sounds. Which makes total sense considering my bad experiences in the past, my shit voice and looks. I can't look people in the eyes when I'm talking. I know how bad my recessed jaws looks like when I talk because I video-recorded it many times.

Seeing the condescending looks in people's eyes raises my cortisol levels, so I generally avoid it.

You really become what you look like. If there is any incongruence between the self-image in your head compared to how other people view you, then usually the self-image adapts to become closer and closer to the person you present to the outside world. I.e. in my case a timid little submissive slave. But I don't want that to happen. In my mind I am someone else, I don't have delusions that I'm the greatest man ever, I just like to not define myself based on my facial bone structure or the way I talk. But if I look people in the eyes over and over again, then I will lose my previous self-image and I will become more and more the submissive slave that they see.

 

[fheon]

I watch speedrun videos Every Day. Its interesting to me and probably autistic to normies

 

[GeckoBus]

And why do you behave like this? Is it because of awkwardness, or something else?

I have social anxiety

never make eye contact, look to side or on floor
walk around in circles and talk to myself, been filmed doing it in public
randomly space out like him high from sensory overload, people think im on drugs, police too

if it gets really bad, senses go overboard
different things can happen
1. i get hyper aggro and start talking like im on coke
2. i disassociate and it feels like im walking through cotton candy
3. i get pain in my skull and black out for 1-2 seconds, followed by numb arm and metallic taste on tongue

if it gets really bad I run away and hide somewhere dark to get my senses back to normal
I also hit my own head to think sometimes, bite my hand etc...

when you talk to me, I do not look at you, not even your body. I cant look at you and listen at the same time, its not possible, especially when im tired. Anytihng you are trying to communicate that is not literally the words you say, I will not pick up on.
I say what I mean and i interpret that others do too.

I cant feel empathy easily, like if you smile at me, i know ur smiling but i cant automatically do i back sometimes. So i have dead face - been caleld a school shooter and rapist before

 

[GeckoBus]

I watch speedrun videos Every Day. Its interesting to me and probably autistic to normies

yeah i do shit like that too

 

[GeckoBus]

i also forget to eat and drink because i dont have hunger or thris relfex
longest i didnt eat was 5-6 days in row and i just felt weak

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

longest i didnt eat was 5-6 days in row and i just felt weak

Stretch next time.

 

[GeckoBus]

Stretch next time.

does that help?
its not intentionally always. I just dont feel it.
Its not a good thing. it fucks me up to forget to drink and shit and eat. Like one time i had so much back pain i couldnt sit down without pain. And since i also have kyphosis it was like fuuuuck did something snap in my vertebrae but then i took a fucking shit and it went away instantly = i had to shit entire day but didnt realize

i dont think i will live very long like this, i probably have unrecognized illnesses im just not noticing

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

does that help?

I suspect my advice wouldn't apply for you.

 

[Med Anime]

i don't really have autistic behaviors but sometimes when i am in public i act weird when seeing girls
but i bet a ton of people do the same, it's not something really important

 

[Diddy]

Other than taking creepshots, I sometimes talk to myself and I have a habit of exhaling through my nose out loud.

 

[InternalJizzz]

I don't usually speak unless spoken too or attempt to be a social butterfly

 

[Cletus Longthing]

...

Wat are u talking about

 

[The Wolf]

Wat are u talking about

He’s very autistic. Posts random stuff that don’t make sense