SuicideFuel What dreams have you given up on

[Mecoja]

Everything, entire life.

 

[Autistic Uggo]

Pretty much all of them. Autism and ugliness have made it impossible for me to find a wife, become a father, build wealth and become a respected member of society.

 

[Valiant Virgin]

Having a girlfriend.

That pipe dream was consigned to the dustbin of history many years ago.

 

[Karakol96]

I wanted to be an mma fighter and was pretty good but I couldnt handle the normies and was extremely anxious while training so I gave up

 

[aspercel01]

Getting girlfriend before turning 18, JFL

 

[SoycuckGodOfReddit]

idk don't remember

 

[Da_Yunez]

When I was a kid, I thought I was gonna be really cool and successful when I became an adult, but turns out I just got extremely pathetic and miserable. There's little to no hope that my life will ever turn out to be something great.

I've always wanted to be a scientist, either chemistry or computer science. I wanted to become an expert in certain studies and I wanted the knowledge of how our universe works and an understanding of everything that could potentially be conceived on this planet. Not a boring scientist though. I wanted to be a innovative scientist who creates gadgets and machines for fun to show off to my friends, after me and my hypothetical buddies would spend a day having a blast in the lab, we'd go out and get drunk cause we would still be cool. I never deluded myself into thinking I could radically advance the planet, but I didn't care. I just wanted to have fun and create shit.

I still have a hard time coming to terms with the fact that this will never happen. My social and mental health has been on a steady decline ever since I became a teenager. My motivation was killed and it was hard to care about my education or future. My grades never became atrocious, but they didn't suffice. I used to be a straight A student even taking honors and AP level classes but that evolved into getting mostly Bs and even a few Cs. I went to an ok college for a bit but dropped out and now I'm in community college which I'm honestly ashamed to admit. It really feels too late to start living a life I can be proud of. I know my life will never be what I'd hoped for and it's too late to change this. If I don't rope, I'll live on to work some boring dead end job with no family or friends.

I bet many of you can relate and I'd be interested in hearing about your stories.

A normal life, love, not being a autistic fucking loser.