I grew up in a very traditional Southern-esque part of the US. (not in the South, but very traditional like there). There's at least 4 high school sweethearts in my graduating class that got married to each other. One of the guys is like 5'7" at the most and he's got a beautiful petite blonde, the kind of wife that would never hurt anything in the universe. Of course, he was attractive and wrestled in high school but still.
And then there's me. 6'1, no race debuff, but a 4/10 face, glasses, horrendous teeth and no way to connect with people because autism completely destroyed my ability to be social. Literally, I had no real friends honestly ever. My entire existence was sitting at the nerd table rarely ever talking, sitting on the bus alone, then going home and sitting on the computer or other devices playing single-player shit until it was time to go to bed.
Not even anime or MMOs or whatever, so I don't even get to connect online with fellow losers on the internet, I get to have a completely off the wall interest that about 200 people in the world like.
If I wasn't mentally screwed and had even an average male existence and personality, I'd basically be handed a wife for free. But no, instead I get to be a complete recluse that has finally gotten bitter at the world after rotting at home for years and years on end. There's no saving me. My resentment has gone right through the heart. I'm just fiddling on the internet waiting to die, barely happy enough with my internet copes to not just rope right now.
Even homeless druggies get treated better than male autsitic people, especially ones that can't workmaxx themselves in computer science. I know God isn't real because if God was real he would never allow people like me to zombie on in life with no happiness. Society sucks.
And then there's me. 6'1, no race debuff, but a 4/10 face, glasses, horrendous teeth and no way to connect with people because autism completely destroyed my ability to be social. Literally, I had no real friends honestly ever. My entire existence was sitting at the nerd table rarely ever talking, sitting on the bus alone, then going home and sitting on the computer or other devices playing single-player shit until it was time to go to bed.
Not even anime or MMOs or whatever, so I don't even get to connect online with fellow losers on the internet, I get to have a completely off the wall interest that about 200 people in the world like.
If I wasn't mentally screwed and had even an average male existence and personality, I'd basically be handed a wife for free. But no, instead I get to be a complete recluse that has finally gotten bitter at the world after rotting at home for years and years on end. There's no saving me. My resentment has gone right through the heart. I'm just fiddling on the internet waiting to die, barely happy enough with my internet copes to not just rope right now.
Even homeless druggies get treated better than male autsitic people, especially ones that can't workmaxx themselves in computer science. I know God isn't real because if God was real he would never allow people like me to zombie on in life with no happiness. Society sucks.
