Venting What are we doing?

[Gremlincel]

Why the hell are any of us still alive? Maybe it is just me, but it seems a lot of you are as miserable as I am. I know they say, 'rope or cope', but, daily existence should not be something that one merely copes with, what the fuck is the point of living then? If life is so awful, and all we can do, is cope, until death?
The past year or two, since I started being blackpilled, and became hopeless, has been nothing but a long blur of pain and hopelessness. I can't feel positive emotions.
There probably hasn't be even one hour in that long stretch of time, where I didn't think about killing myself, I am obsessed with the idea, it is my minds natural response to just about anything at this point.

I am so detached from what it is like to be a normal, functioning person, I don't feel human anymore, I feel like a fucking ghost, wandering this disgusting place, for no reason. I don't care about or relate to anyone, I can't enjoy anyone's company, no matter how isolated and lonely I get. And god, I'm so tired of being alone.
Sometimes it just hits me. No one is ever going to love me, and there is nothing I can do about that.
Every year, every month, day, hour, minute.. its all going to be spent, with no one but the voices in my head, silence, in dark rooms, forever.
How do any of you live, knowing that?

I can't wait like this, in limbo, any longer. I have to start taking action, before someone forces me into a mental hospital.
I have three options, and I am going to decide on one soon, I have to, I will, I can't take rotting any longer.
I can start trying to improve myself, and my life, as hard as I can, harder than ever before, and hope things start getting better.
I can make some preparations, then walk to the train tracks near my house, and lay my neck on the rails.
Or, I can start planning, and work until I have the tools and resources to carry out the plan perfectly, then take a trip to the Emergency Room. (haha jk FBI no worry )

What are your plans? What are your options? How on earth are you surviving this suffering? Where does your strength come from?

 

[KillingJoke]

No purpose left but becoming more blackpilled, I noticed I still sometimes have hopeful tendencies and have to kill them. Cope is all it is I waiting for when my cope is only the rope. Plus I am literally so poor I can't even afford to fucking kill myself, so much for my right to control my own destiny lol. I don't have any strength left other than doing whatever the fuck I want whenever and just being a complete dick to everyone. Either cope or rope don't expect some future that's just hopeful dumbshit.

 

[Soul_Synarchy]

Same. I don't particularly know of any real solution besides hoping society finally collapses and watching it occur gleefully. I wouldn't call that cope.

 

[Newbie17]

Just lol at you! Take a shower and do not pity yourself.

No real plans tbh. Just living somehow day by day, trying to cope as much as possible because, honestly, I am not seriously thinking about roping. My strength comes from my loving parents and a friend or two.

 

[Newbie17]

Same. I don't particularly know of any real solution besides hoping society finally collapses and watching it occur gleefully. I wouldn't call that cope.

Welcome by the way. You seem like the only "May 6, 2018" so far. Enjoy your stay.

 

[ziggyziggy]

What are your plans? What are your options? How on earth are you surviving this suffering? Where does your strength come from?

I build model ships and airplanes, I go to therapy, I enjoy my work and I don't watch porn or indulge in anything that makes me suffer.

What the eyes don't see, the heart won't feel.

 

[Soul_Synarchy]

Welcome by the way. You seem like the only "May 6, 2018" so far. Enjoy your stay.

Thanks. It's an honour to be here with so many like minded folk.

 

[acnescarcel]

I'm surviving with drugs and the thought ill hopefully kill myself soon. I'm just waiting to be 100 percent hopeless. for some reason i think it can get better. if i try those things and it doesn't ill kill myself with pleasure.

 

[inunotaisho]

About a year back I began considering suicide. Just minding my business at work and usually some add showing a hot girl would trigger a thought pattern in my head and I would just think about suicide for hours. I sleep with a noisy fan on cause if its completely quiet I usually start sweating as I think about depressive stuff.
Have already made up my mind how I'm going to go. Been studying some suicide videos and hanging/strangling seems the right way for me. Robin Williams got it done with a belt around his neck.

I tried self improvement the year before I went to university. I spent a year improving all about myself, I went to the gym religiously. By the time I went to study I had for the first time in my life what was closely resembling abs. Two years later those abs were gone. Another year went on. Got a degree, but also alcohol addiction and 24/7 depression.

Now I just play games, masturbate, work and drink. I wear the same clothes for 2 weeks, stubble on my chin and all. As unkempt as unkempt can be and I dont give a fuck. I was never a sexual option. So I'm done. Maybe some new animes and games is all I look to. Other than that I intend to drink and eat myself to an early grave.

 

[Deleted member 2112]

I am literally so poor I can't even afford to fucking kill myself

lol

 

[Mainländer]

Same. I don't particularly know of any real solution besides hoping society finally collapses and watching it occur gleefully. I wouldn't call that cope.

This is an excellent reason to stay alive for anyone here. Imagine you rope and THE NEXT DAY WWIII brokes up or the fiat currency system collapses for good.

 

[Kointo1]

You are asking questions you know the answer to. There is no purpose or point in continuing to live a life that you have to cope with. Its just not worth it.

 

[LoneWalker]

I’ve been thinking on this a lot lately and I’m ready to rope, but I don’t want to stick my family with the funeral costs (which they will insist on despite only 2 people attending). Do you think if I set up a cam show of sorts and charged people to choose how I killed myself and watch me do it, I’d make any money from it?

 

[Gremlincel]

You are asking questions you know the answer to. There is no purpose or point in continuing to live a life that you have to cope with. Its just not worth it.

I just don't want to accept that, man. Its terrifying.. the thought all of us here, are totally doomed. Maybe I already know, deep down..
I want to believe some of us became happy, and escaped misery, even if they are still incel. If it is even possible to be happy, as an incel.
The idea that, all my suffering, will never have a silver lining, that it all was leading to death, and I may as well have died years back? Its, horrible.
But, that's what all evidence points to.
Fuck this entire worthless planet. Fuck it! If I have to die, and there is no other options, I ain't going quietly, there is no reason to.

 

[Kointo1]

Fuck this entire worthless planet. Fuck it! If I have to die, and there is no other options, I ain't going quietly, there is no reason to.

You being serious about this statement or not? I can't be sure because of your join date.

 

[Deleted member 6214]

I can start trying to improve myself, and my life, as hard as I can, harder than ever before, and hope things start getting better.

I think this is the best thing you can do. Yes, a woman may never love you. But you only get one chance on this Earth, just try and live it for yourself, as normie as that sounds. It depends on how old you are too, if you're 30+ then there isn't much you can do. If you are in your 20's you can still try and make some money, then use it to travel to beautiful places and fuck high quality, beautiful hookers. It will be worth it when a girl with a dream body sits on your dick, it will feel amazing. This is one of the thoughts that keeps me going and motivated to continue with life.

 

[idkwattodowithlife]

I'll be keeping my eyes on this thread.

 

[thePhantom]

I "attempted" suicide twice, but discovered that I'm a coward and couldn't take the final step. Strangely, I have felt a bit better since: now I know that the only way for me is forward and to try to ascend in every way I can.

 

[Gremlincel]

You being serious about this statement or not? I can't be sure because of your join date.

I am.
(Unless, you are a cop or something, in which case, 'I am not'.)

 

[GunvoltX]

I used to be a pretty big sad sack until maybe a couple of years ago. Now I feel pretty happy with my life. It's not perfect by any means, but I things have slowly gotten better for me. It took me a long time to realize that I don't need a girl to be happy. As long as I have people who love and care about me, I'll be alright. I'm okay with not being perfect. I know know that you don't have to perfect in order to like yourself. I made a vow to myself that I will improve as a person and get stronger. I'm currently trying to get in better shape and become more attractive. However, I'm not doing it to get girls to like me. I'm doing it for me. I've always been the chubby kid in school that other kids would make fun of, but that only motivates me more. I still have a long way to go, but once I get there it's gonna feel pretty damn good.

Things can and will get better for you, but you have to put in the effort. Your life won't improve on its own. You have to make it happen. Having sex or getting a girlfriend won't make your life any better if you're already miserable. Focus on finding happiness on your own first.

I hope this helps you guys.

 

[th62eathhts2]

What are your plans? What are your options? How on earth are you surviving this suffering? Where does your strength come from?

My plan is to suicide when my parents stop allowing me to leech. My options are either rotting or getting a job and saving for surgery. I pass the time with video games. There is no strength, I am a leaf on a river.