(Copypasting it from an older thread of mine):
The happiest period of my life was undoubtedly my 1st and 2nd years in high school at 17-19 years old. But this has been a mystery to me for years, since back then, I wasn't particularly popular, didn't ascend, did receive some bullying (though way less than in middle school), hated studying and my school was not as easy as some others I've been to, was already delayed in school, didn't preserve any of the friendships from back then (in fact, looking back, I had no real friends, my real friends all came from other places/periods), etc.
But now I finally get why that was the happiest period of my life regardless of everything.
BECAUSE OF MY LOOKS.
Though I was never good-looking, that period was hands-down my peak in attractiveness. In my early teens years I had too much acne, and since I was a "grunge", I let my hair grow uncontrollably without taking care of it. Those things had a noticeable impact on my looks and also in how much bullying I received.
At 17 I cut and started taking care of my hair. I was still far from being significantly balding. My skin also got better and the scars weren't so noticeable as now.
I had a pic of me at 17 (lost it, God damn it) taken by a friend in my first high school year, that pic is the most good-looking I've ever been, I'd rate me as high as 5,5/10. My medium-sized good-looking hair covered some of my flaws like malformed ears, etc. Not to mention my facial expression of hope, naivety and eagerness to live.
I'd give everything to go back to those times for one week or so. I'd dedicate it 100% to going out and approaching foids. Bonus: I'd be able to approach girls under 14 as well since I was myself underage (well, even as 19, it's still acceptable to kiss 12-13 yos in Brazil).
That's it, even though I didn't ascend or get anything from it, even though those times objectively weren't that good, that's the most happy I've ever felt just because I LOOKED better than usually through my life.
