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Edmund_Kemper
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I typed this thread back like 8.5 months ago. I had hope it would happen but i kinda knew deep down it wouldn't. i went to community college for 4 years and dealt with severe OCD the whole time, i put the OCD past me after that but dealt with a gap year under quarantine. now i transferred to uni. i live in an apartment now and this year was horrible.
first of all, i struggled like hell making friends. i joined a transfer discord server but people there typed every 5 seconds and i didn't have time to use it all the fuckin time. if you didn't use it addictively, you didn't manage to become friends with people on there. pretty soon, all the transfer students there formed their peer groups from there and it was too little too late. god damn it. i went to a transfer student party. the admin, a grad student who graduated early and had just turned 21 who was never transfer student, threw the party in her apartment near the campus. i met my only friend i made at uni. he was a metalhead like me. he possibly has autism like me based on what i noticed about him, but he's really high-functioning and has good social skills and thus can blend in decently with NTs. he also has a stacylite girlfriend he met in HS cohabits with (HS is the easiest time to find a GF). he's also a 6/10 and 6'1.
I met a couple dudes there, but one of them i tried to reach out to to hang out with and it didn't work out, got left on sent a little later by him on discord. i met this 6'6 dreadlocked tyrone there who liked music, but a little later left on delivered. i met this skinny guy with a strong jawline but 5/10 appearance, but he was an impatient prick and we and a couple other humans went ice skating together and he got impatient with me because i was acting mentally nervous about some shit in my mind. he also got mad at me thinking i was pushy about hanging out.
i then tried joining clubs. i joined a couple clubs but many you didn't see the same people each time so i couldn't meet people. i joined flag football but the guys there didn't give us all the dates so i couldn't go anymore after going twice. i joined rugby club and it was actually cool. i met this dude there and i went with him to a tailgate for a football game and met his best friend and a couple other dudes he knew, but he got a shoulder injury during rugby and couldn't go to rugby anymore and quit. i lost contact with him and we'd only see each other passing by on campus or in the gym once in a while. we had a lot in common it sucks we couldn't see each other anymore.
i met this dude in my statistics class, we chatted a lot and texted each other about the HW. he wasn't able to hang out often due to social anxiety, and he got flakey with even his own friends but he also sometimes had plans on the weekend sometimes. we hung out once at a place to study together. but the semester ended and we never saw each other again.
rugby was admittedly cool. a chang (the best looking asian guy i've seen) and some black haired white chad were captains. the chang dude looked like richard ramirez and i remember we had pizza at a pizza place. we also had a house rager party at his house and he had a sorority there. i didn't talk to any of them out of shyness but one of the dudes hooked up with her and they made out repeatedly. i hung out with a guy from rugby club at the party and we got numbers but reaching out to him, he replied once but then a bit later ghosted me, left on delivered. he kinda ignored me the rest of rugby. that chang dude had a backyard house party with the boy and girl rugby clubs a couple weeks later. that was some fun shit. i remember some blond hair blue eye stacylite and i started talking there and had a conversation. a bit later she talked with her friends most of the time. we all had pizza, s'mores and beer. i remember i said something (i can't remember what it is) and some guys thought it was funny and then that blond chick asked what i said and they told her and she started laughing hard at what i said. i remember another time at the event i did something kinda funny and she smiled at her friend and pointed out how she thought i was so cool. she spent most of her time talking to her friends so i couldn't just walk up and talk too much, but that's the closest opportunity i had to asking someone out.
spring semester i had roommates but they were seniors about to graduate and they basically ignored me. they were always in their rooms. it sucked. now they're going to be gone. i joined a professional co-ed honors frat. i tried joining clubs but they were all zoom this time and the look fair was all online so i had to send messages which most clubs didn't reply. in my frat, (not a social frat so i ain't no chad), there was a currycel, a chadpreet, a tall guy with a normie face, some random normie who doesn't drink or party, some tall chad with a stacy GF, a bunch of chicks, and some norwooding low-tier normie who combs over a lot (just like me). there were some other fuckers there too. one of the chicks there threw an apartment party a couple weeks ago and i went and got wasted, she invited all of us. the whole frat also had dinner together many times and shit. we still don't know each other that well but fuck it. anyways, i got ZERO dates. no opportunities. i didn't meet many girls at college. i didn't get to know people in the frat yet, so i didn't make friends, just acquintances. i only made occasional brief acquaintances this whole year. only made one close friend and two borderline casual friends i see from time to time (one is a gingercel and the other is a chubby latino dude who tried to rush frats but failed).
well. better luck next year. (doubt it'll get better).
first of all, i struggled like hell making friends. i joined a transfer discord server but people there typed every 5 seconds and i didn't have time to use it all the fuckin time. if you didn't use it addictively, you didn't manage to become friends with people on there. pretty soon, all the transfer students there formed their peer groups from there and it was too little too late. god damn it. i went to a transfer student party. the admin, a grad student who graduated early and had just turned 21 who was never transfer student, threw the party in her apartment near the campus. i met my only friend i made at uni. he was a metalhead like me. he possibly has autism like me based on what i noticed about him, but he's really high-functioning and has good social skills and thus can blend in decently with NTs. he also has a stacylite girlfriend he met in HS cohabits with (HS is the easiest time to find a GF). he's also a 6/10 and 6'1.
I met a couple dudes there, but one of them i tried to reach out to to hang out with and it didn't work out, got left on sent a little later by him on discord. i met this 6'6 dreadlocked tyrone there who liked music, but a little later left on delivered. i met this skinny guy with a strong jawline but 5/10 appearance, but he was an impatient prick and we and a couple other humans went ice skating together and he got impatient with me because i was acting mentally nervous about some shit in my mind. he also got mad at me thinking i was pushy about hanging out.
i then tried joining clubs. i joined a couple clubs but many you didn't see the same people each time so i couldn't meet people. i joined flag football but the guys there didn't give us all the dates so i couldn't go anymore after going twice. i joined rugby club and it was actually cool. i met this dude there and i went with him to a tailgate for a football game and met his best friend and a couple other dudes he knew, but he got a shoulder injury during rugby and couldn't go to rugby anymore and quit. i lost contact with him and we'd only see each other passing by on campus or in the gym once in a while. we had a lot in common it sucks we couldn't see each other anymore.
i met this dude in my statistics class, we chatted a lot and texted each other about the HW. he wasn't able to hang out often due to social anxiety, and he got flakey with even his own friends but he also sometimes had plans on the weekend sometimes. we hung out once at a place to study together. but the semester ended and we never saw each other again.
rugby was admittedly cool. a chang (the best looking asian guy i've seen) and some black haired white chad were captains. the chang dude looked like richard ramirez and i remember we had pizza at a pizza place. we also had a house rager party at his house and he had a sorority there. i didn't talk to any of them out of shyness but one of the dudes hooked up with her and they made out repeatedly. i hung out with a guy from rugby club at the party and we got numbers but reaching out to him, he replied once but then a bit later ghosted me, left on delivered. he kinda ignored me the rest of rugby. that chang dude had a backyard house party with the boy and girl rugby clubs a couple weeks later. that was some fun shit. i remember some blond hair blue eye stacylite and i started talking there and had a conversation. a bit later she talked with her friends most of the time. we all had pizza, s'mores and beer. i remember i said something (i can't remember what it is) and some guys thought it was funny and then that blond chick asked what i said and they told her and she started laughing hard at what i said. i remember another time at the event i did something kinda funny and she smiled at her friend and pointed out how she thought i was so cool. she spent most of her time talking to her friends so i couldn't just walk up and talk too much, but that's the closest opportunity i had to asking someone out.
spring semester i had roommates but they were seniors about to graduate and they basically ignored me. they were always in their rooms. it sucked. now they're going to be gone. i joined a professional co-ed honors frat. i tried joining clubs but they were all zoom this time and the look fair was all online so i had to send messages which most clubs didn't reply. in my frat, (not a social frat so i ain't no chad), there was a currycel, a chadpreet, a tall guy with a normie face, some random normie who doesn't drink or party, some tall chad with a stacy GF, a bunch of chicks, and some norwooding low-tier normie who combs over a lot (just like me). there were some other fuckers there too. one of the chicks there threw an apartment party a couple weeks ago and i went and got wasted, she invited all of us. the whole frat also had dinner together many times and shit. we still don't know each other that well but fuck it. anyways, i got ZERO dates. no opportunities. i didn't meet many girls at college. i didn't get to know people in the frat yet, so i didn't make friends, just acquintances. i only made occasional brief acquaintances this whole year. only made one close friend and two borderline casual friends i see from time to time (one is a gingercel and the other is a chubby latino dude who tried to rush frats but failed).
well. better luck next year. (doubt it'll get better).
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