I used to go to therapy, I would literally cry every session because I was so desperate before getting blackpilled about looks. I was so hard on myself, I didn't know what was wrong with me. The female therapist nuclear-bluepilled me with things like "you don't get girls because you hate them" and "you assume they will reject you before even trying", etc.
That's why I repeat it ad nauseam, go to escorts instead of going to therapists, avoid female therapists like the devil.
I remember the first time I went to an escort and lost my virginity. First time touching tits, first time pulling out my dick in front of a girl, she examining it thoroughly before concluding it was clean enough for a raw BJ, all while laughing a bit out of shyness, it was a 18yo light-skinned 4/10 mulatto hooker, I could tell she was a beginner.
Those moments made me feel so joyful, it was like I had finally started living my life a bit. Fucking a crush or something must feel 20 times better, but prostitutes and looksmaxxing are the two only worthy things you can do with your money in relation to your inceldom.