Befriend your self. Get intouch with your Inner Child
Not a shred of ambiguity
I went to the gym when I was younger during college but then stopped as I lost the motivation. I just have no motivation to get out of the house let alone force myself to lift weights. I had a membership but it got to a point were I was missing a lot of days as I was forcing myself. I actually bulked up as well as I combined it with protein shakes, 3 times a week but it requires serious commitment, if you miss 1 week or even a day you deflate and have to rebuild those lost gains. I also eat a lot of junk and can't cook for shit, best I can cook is jacket potato or anything in the microwave or air fryer.
That being said, I still do push ups like once or twice a week, 30 each time. I tricep dips and pull ups on my bedroom door. But even that I can't be arsed with as I often miss several weeks. I have a nice slim physique although I'm way too slim. I have some free weights that I sometimes use, if I could somehow have a routine at home that'd allow me to build muscle then that would suit me more. I only ever leave my room if its for work tbh, how about yourself?.
Also you have to remember if NONE OF THEM ARE ASKING FOR YOUR NUMBER OR TO HANG OUT AFTER WORK, EVERYTHING THEY SAY THATS POSITIVE IS NULL AND VOID, ITS LITERALLY ERADICATED BY THE ACTION OF NO MOVE FOR CONTACT OUTSIDE OF WORK.
ONE QUESTION NEEDS TO BE ASKED: If indeed you are "their favourite collegue" or, they "really enjoyed your company", WHY WOULD THEY NOT ASK TO SEE OUTSIDE OF WORK.
This completely unravels what they are saying, as you pit it against their actions of not asking to meet up outside of work, it is kin to saying you ONLY EXIST TO THEM INSIDE OF WORK, what does that even mean thats not reality.
Im not trying to burst your bubble but the rhetoric is face value, if the actions are totally divorced from what they say to you and also when they are leaving never to see you again, its a straight up gaslight.
You also have balls of steele to go into the female dominated teaching sector, it must be like being cucked for the whole time your working, I have tried to go for the blandest and most boring area accounting so i see as few prime women my age or under as possible as the gaslighting, punching down and passive aggression just gets too much and the chances of finding one out of the many that dont is astronomically low. So i thought why not cut them out completely and never see them at work and work in a male dominated industry.
I legit cant leave my bed/room anymore. Im almost 30 now and all these years from inceldom and bullying have destroyed me so im like a zombie now
@Simulacrasimulation ye its that false hope that kills you as they say in life. Like you said, if they were genuine they wouldn't have mostly ignored me for a year. There's a superiority complex around most people, almost as if they're looking down on you. Even the few male staff brag about their girlfriends or wives which is essentially a way of projecting their status as superior.
Most men are alpha and I don't vibe with alpha's at all, I'm literally the polar opposite, highly sensitive and introverted which I guess makes me more understanding so every cloud. Even undesirable women have this superiority complex. A lot of mums in general are very stressed with their kids which makes them even more unapproachable. This is reflected in the workplace as stress is an indicator of a person's character.
You know what else I've noticed, is that those same girls mentioned will behave entirely differently amongst their 'besties'. When it's just them they chat to me but if they're together they practically ghost me. It feels like I have to seek permission just to speak, I get this vibe from a lot of people and I'm sure you can relate to this feeling of inadequacy. I wish I chose a different path in life but I've made my bed and now I have to lie in it. I need to somehow reconfigure the wind of the sails into another direction as I'm in a cucked industry.
Its the mental health impact thats the worst, without depression and loneliness we could at least be at relative peace.
Most men are alpha and I don't vibe with alpha's at all, I'm literally the polar opposite, highly sensitive and introverted which I guess makes me more understanding so every cloud. Even undesirable women have this superiority complex. A lot of mums in general are very stressed with their kids which makes them even more unapproachable. This is reflected in the workplace as stress is an indicator of a person's character.
You know what else I've noticed, is that those same girls mentioned will behave entirely differently amongst their 'besties'. When it's just them they chat to me but if they're together they practically ghost me. It feels like I have to seek permission just to speak, I get this vibe from a lot of people and I'm sure you can relate to this feeling of inadequacy. I wish I chose a different path in life but I've made my bed and now I have to lie in it. I need to somehow reconfigure the wind of the sails into another direction as I'm in a cucked industry.
I'm mid 30's, I've wasted most of my life, the regret I have is insufferable. Sorry to hear that, I've experienced this as well, I was bullied for my big nose and been an outcast in society since the day I was born. I've never fitted in anywhere.
Its the mental health impact thats the worst, without depression and loneliness we could at least be at relative peace.
Just get some delieveroo bike job theory
I workceled for 9 hours so time just flies.
This so much this. I mostly lay in bed on weekends.Everyday is torture but the weekends the FOMO effect is in full force. Everyone is out partying, living life with their friends, meanwhile we rot in our cave as always with only our laptop and playstation for comfort. Music itself is a trigger as it gives us hope for a better tomorrow, it fucks with our emotions.
My anxiety and depression escalates over the weekends, the loneliness is insufferable. In the same breath, I guess it beats sitting in a nightclub drowning our sorrows.
Weekends have often pushed me to breaking point with my fucked up mental health. As much as I hate my job, at least it gives me routine and some purpose, however insignificant. That comes with its own hell as I work in a school, but at the very least I feel like I'm contributing to society despite the ignorance and contempt shown towards me from staff.
When I'm off work I sink even further to the depths of despair as my mind isn't preoccupied, idle mind is the devils workshop as they say. Purpose and mental health go hand in hand, a lack there of is detrimental to our wellbeing. I love videogames and crime documentaries but they only offer so much cope, before the stark reality of loneliness sets in
I think if we had some excitement in our miserable lives it would mitigate the loneliness somewhat, but we have nothing. All I have is work which is not particularly exciting and often nightmare fuel. Normal functioning people have holidays to be excited for, parties, events, fancy meals at restaurants, trips to the cinema.
As a loner we're essentially excluded from these social activities which involves friends. No one does these activities alone, this invariably limits our quality of life because we have nothing but nobody to spend our time with. So we're resigned to rot in our mums basement because there's no alternative, no escape from this despair.
I watch romance anime because it gives me a tiny bit of the feeling of romance. The closest i'll ever get to not being a KHHV. I remember every time a girl has accidentally touched me.
I will blackpill you about weekends in general
There is no weekend for incels
Every day is the same
There is no weekend for incels
Every day is the same
suicide theory, out all day in the prime time hours of socialisation, having to ride next to stacey and chad on the street with heavy eye contact, go into restaurants WHICH ARE FULL OF HIGH TIER NORMIE PLUS PEOPLE LOOKING DOWN ON YOU, BOTH THE EMPLOYEES OF RESTAURANT AND THE DINERS .
You have to go in there with your slave logo on advertising your low status as a deliveroo maxxer and approach high tier normies in the shops, restaurants etc ABSOUTE SUIFUEL AND SOCIAL SUICIDE, PLUS YOUR SUB 5 AS WELL SO NO TIPS FOR INKWELL, BUT PLENTY FOR THE TOP 10% SMV RIDERS LIKE STACEY BRAD AND CHAD
Everyday is like sunday
Normie garbage. I don't even want to do this. I'd rather be at home.
Absolutely Brutal
I actually prefer Sundays as they're more chill but the rest of the weekend is nightmare fuel. There's always those triggers that set off my anxiety, like today my mums friends called me to ask about my mum.
Her friend talks down to me like I'm a fuckin robot, like 'WHERE IS UR MUM, CAN U TELL HER I NEED TO SPEAK TO HER', then I go and get my mum and her friend puts the phone down on me. Some people are so fuckin rude, I'm a human being ffs, your no better than me so why are you treating me otherwhise?.
I'm tired of being looked down upon, at the end of the day we'll all suffer the same fate in life and yet there is so much inequality and mistreatment of those perceived less than, fuck this clown life, for once it'd be nice to be treated like a human is that so much to ask.
Her friend talks down to me like I'm a fuckin robot, like 'WHERE IS UR MUM, CAN U TELL HER I NEED TO SPEAK TO HER', then I go and get my mum and her friend puts the phone down on me. Some people are so fuckin rude, I'm a human being ffs, your no better than me so why are you treating me otherwhise?.
I'm tired of being looked down upon, at the end of the day we'll all suffer the same fate in life and yet there is so much inequality and mistreatment of those perceived less than, fuck this clown life, for once it'd be nice to be treated like a human is that so much to ask
.
One thing you have to consider is normies only respond to overt sign of power eg if you are "high" in your field, if you are a "manager" or earning a high salary.I actually prefer Sundays as they're more chill but the rest of the weekend is nightmare fuel. There's always those triggers that set off my anxiety, like today my mums friends called me to ask about my mum.
Her friend talks down to me like I'm a fuckin robot, like 'WHERE IS UR MUM, CAN U TELL HER I NEED TO SPEAK TO HER', then I go and get my mum and her friend puts the phone down on me. Some people are so fuckin rude, I'm a human being ffs, your no better than me so why are you treating me otherwhise?.
I'm tired of being looked down upon, at the end of the day we'll all suffer the same fate in life and yet there is so much inequality and mistreatment of those perceived less than, fuck this clown life, for once it'd be nice to be treated like a human is that so much to ask
The minute you deviate from this and the further you get away from standard measures of power and position the less and less you are respected and its EXTREMELY LINEAR, EVEN IN YOUR OWN FAMILY.
As a man anything like factory worker, nurse, binman, bus driver, low level jobs, if people know you are in this position THEY AUTOMATICALLY HAVE WRITTEN YOU OFF AND YOUR TREATED LIKE SHIT, SOMETIMES EVEN IF YOUR A NORMIE, YOU CAN ONLY GET AWAY WITH THESE TYPES OF JOBS IF YOU ARE A CHAD LITE OR ABOVE IN LOOKS OR HEIGHT WITHOUT A HUGE SOCIAL PENALTY.
You have to accept this as the standard and play around with this, I have gotten less and less shocked by this over the years, when you know the level they are operating under it becomes borderline ridiculous and retarded and you can completely disregard this behaviour.
Dont you get the Sunday dread feeling of having to back to work on the monday and spend the evening dreading the work on the monday
Last edited:
Weekends are hell because I have to spend them with my family. I much prefer my work colleagues.
@Simulacrasimulation ye I get that dread on sunday's, the pressure of having to go to sleep at a certain time and being up on time the next day. That discipline often alludes me when I'm off work. I don't start work till after 12pm but even that is a struggle for me to get up with my insomnia. As a kid, I remember Sunday's being particularly depressing as I knew I had to be back at school the next day. But Sunday's also represented late night South Park, Celebrity Deathmatch and WWE PPV's. I would sneak downstairs in the early hours to watch these every Sunday.
Now it's just the day before work. I think if we had a social life then we wouldn't feel so resentful about the weekends, but these days only remind us how lonely we are, watching the world go by. Over time these lonely weekends are soul destroying.
It's a shame my own family don't respect me, I work in a school which is something they wouldn't dream of doing yet I'm still ignored, gaslighted and disrespected. The worst job I ever did was a factory followed by a care home, absolute slave labour jobs.
There's an unwritten rule in the workplace which involves people blame shifting. This is especially prevalent in care related roles were the consequences are that much higher. Hospitals, care homes are known for this, serious botches are painted in a positive light. People will cover their arse at whatever cost to save face.
Now it's just the day before work. I think if we had a social life then we wouldn't feel so resentful about the weekends, but these days only remind us how lonely we are, watching the world go by. Over time these lonely weekends are soul destroying.
It's a shame my own family don't respect me, I work in a school which is something they wouldn't dream of doing yet I'm still ignored, gaslighted and disrespected. The worst job I ever did was a factory followed by a care home, absolute slave labour jobs.
There's an unwritten rule in the workplace which involves people blame shifting. This is especially prevalent in care related roles were the consequences are that much higher. Hospitals, care homes are known for this, serious botches are painted in a positive light. People will cover their arse at whatever cost to save face.
I have experience in the care sector, but i worked for a company that RAN A series of care homes for disabled people, IT WAS A JOKE ORGANISATION, WITH EVERY CARE WORKER AN IMMIGRANT ON A VISA ON MINIMUM WAGE. I was on not much more and I have a degree in history and politics and some experience in accounts, they were pinching every penny from these people chopping hours rounding down figures, they tried this on me trying to make me work 32 hours work in 24 hours paid hours, trying to switch my contract.
I was in the accounts department of this organisation and could see EVERYONES WAGES, THE OWNER AND AN ACCOUNTANT WERE ON 120,000 POUNDS A YEAR IN A SMALL COMPANY BARELY TURNING OVER 450,000, ALSO NEPOTISM WAS RIFE WITH ANOTHER SON OF THE ACCOUNTANT EARNING 55,000, THEIR WHOLE INCOME WAS FROM GOVERNMENT FUNDING. AN ABSOLUTE JOKE, EVERY PENNY WAS PINCHED, EXCEPT FOR THE VERY TOP MANAGERS WHO WERE ON MONEY WAY IN EXCESS OF INDUSTRY STANDARD AND IN COMPARISON TO THE TINY COMPANY.
I worked out if the owner and manager on 120,000 pounds was paid the industry standard and im being generous at around 60,000, EVERY SINGLE CARE WORKER COULD GET A PAY RISE OF £1.50 AN HOUR, LIFTING THEM OUT OF ABSOLUTE POVERTY, AS ITS THE PAY PER HOUR THAT KILLS YOU. Some of these care worker were working 65-70 hours a WEEK EVERY WEEK 6-7 DAYS A WEEK.
I noticed a lot of what you said about saving face, and it all being about covering themselves despite the morality, I blew up at them at the end for this and laid it all on the line making them justify their salaries compared to my pathetic wage, saying where is the empathy in a care company if there is such a double standard.
Stating you can only pay yourself these sums BECAUSE YOUR PAYING THE CARERS SO LITTLE THEY ARE FUNDING YOUR SALARIES FROM THE GOVERNMENT, YOU CAN AFFORD TO PAY THEM MORE BUT YOUR GIVING A SELECT FEW PEOPLE HUGE SALARIES OFF THEIR LABOUR.
It was absolutely sickening i just couldnt take it any more.
Last edited:
T
You get to this point.
@Simulacrasimulation The care sector is brutal, those hours are so demanding. I'm glad I got out while I could, I only did 4 agency shifts and that was enough for me to realise it wasn't for me. They left me on a floor full of dementia patients and I had no experience. Negligence is very common in the care sector, this is why you always hear stories in the newspaper about mistreatment, people dying and being left to rot in their bed or even cases of abuse. I left another care provider after 8 days of work, the manager would observe me diligently counting the expenses of 1 of the patients. I did not like this strict culture at all, I couldn't even cook or wash clothes so I quit because the other staff were horrible, watching my every move.
There's a term called 'laddering' which I heard in a hospital drama called Bodies which depicts a consultant who repeatedly fucks up major procedures. This process involves the covering up of mistakes which also applies to any industry; hospitals, the police force etc. Unfavourable statistics are glossed over in monthly reports, there's no accountability. I'm sure you've seen this type of shit, it's apparent in every workforce.
Those figures you mentioned are evident of the corruption that goes on in these industries and it starts from the top. If they're capable of that then they're capable of abuse as that by definition is an abuse of power. It fosters a culture of abuse based on malpractice from the top down, this is why there's so many cases of negligence. There was an infamous case of this at a care home called Winterbourne, eleven care workers were sentenced for neglect and abuse which involved slapping the patients, verbal abuse etc. They often show this in training as an example of serious cases of abuse. The difference with a lot of others is they're better at covering it up, hidden in plain sight.
There's a term called 'laddering' which I heard in a hospital drama called Bodies which depicts a consultant who repeatedly fucks up major procedures. This process involves the covering up of mistakes which also applies to any industry; hospitals, the police force etc. Unfavourable statistics are glossed over in monthly reports, there's no accountability. I'm sure you've seen this type of shit, it's apparent in every workforce.
Those figures you mentioned are evident of the corruption that goes on in these industries and it starts from the top. If they're capable of that then they're capable of abuse as that by definition is an abuse of power. It fosters a culture of abuse based on malpractice from the top down, this is why there's so many cases of negligence. There was an infamous case of this at a care home called Winterbourne, eleven care workers were sentenced for neglect and abuse which involved slapping the patients, verbal abuse etc. They often show this in training as an example of serious cases of abuse. The difference with a lot of others is they're better at covering it up, hidden in plain sight.
Intersting, this has put me off the care industry completely and im not touching it with a barge pole in my accounting career not for any money, I couldnt believe how top heavy the moey was and these people DID HARDLY ANY HOURS JUST 35-40 HOURS A WEEK GETTING 120K,120K, 55K and clock off at 4pm and go home, lol THEY ARE HAVING A LAUGH.
Then these clowns were forcing a crazy pace I HAVE NEVER WORKED AT BEFORE RUSHING AND RUSHING ME TO COMPLETE TASKS I KNEW WERE NOT ABLE TO BE DONE IN THE TIME THEY REQUESTED, , me having to skip lunch breaks more than a few times a week working a few hours over a week ON 12 POUNDS AN HOUR THEY WERE ABSOLUTE JOKERS.
EverydayisEveryday is torture but the weekends the FOMO effect is in full force. Everyone is out partying, living life with their friends, meanwhile we rot in our cave as always with only our laptop and playstation for comfort. Music itself is a trigger as it gives us hope for a better tomorrow, it fucks with our emotions.
My anxiety and depression escalates over the weekends, the loneliness is insufferable. In the same breath, I guess it beats sitting in a nightclub drowning our sorrows.
Weekends have often pushed me to breaking point with my fucked up mental health. As much as I hate my job, at least it gives me routine and some purpose, however insignificant. That comes with its own hell as I work in a school, but at the very least I feel like I'm contributing to society despite the ignorance and contempt shown towards me from staff.
When I'm off work I sink even further to the depths of despair as my mind isn't preoccupied, idle mind is the devils workshop as they say. Purpose and mental health go hand in hand, a lack there of is detrimental to our wellbeing. I love videogames and crime documentaries but they only offer so much cope, before the stark reality of loneliness sets in
Q
Same
Another miserable weekend is upon us, another weekend of despair and loneliness. Staff at work all showboating their amazing lives, facetiming their besties at work, that's honestly the trait of a narcissist to do that in public at work.
I'm tired of being a passenger to everyone's happiness. Work does nothing for me but send me closer to the edge of despair as I don't fit in. It emphasises how much of a loser I am, how much of a social outcast I am by the conventions of society. At home is no different, isolated in my room away from others.
FML, I'll never find peace in this life, my mind is a fuckin prison and I'm a prisoner of war.
I'm tired of being a passenger to everyone's happiness. Work does nothing for me but send me closer to the edge of despair as I don't fit in. It emphasises how much of a loser I am, how much of a social outcast I am by the conventions of society. At home is no different, isolated in my room away from others.
FML, I'll never find peace in this life, my mind is a fuckin prison and I'm a prisoner of war.
I'm off work now for 4 days plus weekends, back next Friday. Whilst everyone will be out living life with their lived ones, I will be rotting in my room as usual. These weekends are hell on earth, coming home from work only to rot in my room even on weekends.
Everyone out with their friends, celebrating life, making the most of the time off work, whilst we just cry ourselves to sleep. People at work bragging about their exciting plans, then they ask me and all I can say is 'I'll be in bed'. Because sleep is the only escape from this miserable and lonely existence ..
Everyone out with their friends, celebrating life, making the most of the time off work, whilst we just cry ourselves to sleep. People at work bragging about their exciting plans, then they ask me and all I can say is 'I'll be in bed'. Because sleep is the only escape from this miserable and lonely existence
..
Saturday is the worst day for many reasons. Everyone thinks its the best day of the week, not for me, not for my anxiety which is always sky high because people are drinking which triggers volatile behaviour. The FOMO effect is in full force on saturday's, literally everyone is enjoying life except for the loser in his mums basement. Everyday is hell but the weekends are elevated. Without friends or love this life is meaningless, the loneliness is insufferable during the weekends.
Similar threads
Users who are viewing this thread
