It's Over Watched so much porn + depression + PSSD + age + anxiety + autism = this made me asexual???

[Ambatukam Alone]

Shiet, I hope I am now actually virtually done with all this. Real talk, I've wanted to just not be attracted to foids for a long time. I mean if I look at porn and get like 5% activated, das gotta be it mane. Or be it? I am unfortunately a romantic person, but if I really get to the point of 0% sexual attraction, I guess I'm finna be thinking it be truly over end shiet. I have a suspicion it's only temporary, but I wanna make it stick more. Just be depressed and aging, leave all this shit to the youngsters. Sex and relationships are for teens, not befitting a hyper-rapidly aging non-normie autist. I'm so tie-red. I will still grieve my lost, wasted, and twisted "youth" daily, I'm afraid. For there is truly nothing in my future that I'm excited about; in fact, I can't remember the last time I felt excited. Any bout of hope or motivation has been followed by defeat and pain. What good I've done, I have done without pleasure; what bad I've done, I have done in despair (more or less).

 

[Vector2800]

Asexuality is not real. You are just depressed.

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

Asexuality is not real.

 

[Ambatukam Alone]

Asexuality is not real. You are just depressed.

Same difference

 

[sub5ricemale]

don't watch porn, read novels on ao3.

My dick gets so hard when femcelmaxxing.

(don't ban me for my pfp faggots)

 

[gerardx]

You're just at the point where you burned your brain totally and you can't find a way to feel you alive again. I'm not sure how to help you cause i'm living the same situation, locked on my room with porn 24/7 and weed for the past year.

I got tired of porn and weed and i just wanna feel loved lol, i think this is just a lack of motivation, that's maybe the reason why life feels empty, no love and no reasons to be loved

 

[Dead End]

I was once at a point where I never felt horny in the slightest and I was completely miserable during this period. It's not worth it. If you reach this point, your brain and/or endocrine system are likely severely imbalanced and you will feel like shit.

 

[Emba]

There's a saying in

The church of the subgenius

( https://www.subgenius.com/ )

To get over addictions, you must over indulge it, so that it releases you...

(Or something like that)

So yes, you might have done it

 

[Ryo_Hazuki]

I'm so tie-red.

Nice saint Hamudi reference.


View: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KVLz5ZsJEG0

I am unfortunately a romantic person

This is why I'm still unhappy in life and why I'm still here despite being on drugs that nuke my libido to zero. Well, that and being a low IQ, ugly, subhuman is shit in ways that don't even involve romance/sex/relationships.

 

[Ambatukam Alone]

My dick gets so hard when femcelmaxxing.

You're just at the point where you burned your brain totally and you can't find a way to feel you alive again. I'm not sure how to help you cause i'm living the same situation, locked on my room with porn 24/7 and weed for the past year.

Well, if this is a "brain problem" (brains interact with psychology and the social environment and shit, btw) stemming from porn I could nevergoonmaxx, which I did a few weeks of, led to frustration and rage, maybe better results if went on for longer. Well, if this is it I'm getting "fixed" automatically since I won't force myself to goon, I just look at the "sexual" stimuli and get 5% hard or whatever and like "well, ok, guess it's over". Either she has flaws that turn me off, or she doesn't have flaws which is just creepy, maybe the biggest thing is the depression and not "hyping" the thing, and maybe self-insertion is gone due to the depression. Won't find out, but I wonder if I'd also not get erect if I was in an actual relationship. It may also be influenced by some minor virus infection and CNS fatigue from daily strength training with heavy weights (for me).

I got tired of porn and weed and i just wanna feel loved lol, i think this is just a lack of motivation, that's maybe the reason why life feels empty, no love and no reasons to be loved

Yes, I have come up with life goals, sub-goals, contingency plans and damage control, and have plans to try to get there; but the emotional motivation is enough to just barely do a tiny bit of "work" per day on what's supposed to be my "dreams". I'm hoping that I can get to a stage where I've 100% internalized that it's truly over, at the very least temporarily, and that that'll then lead to actually being able to focus on other stuff/getting motivated for other stuff more. But the conclusion seems like it's something not at all easily accepted.

Nice saint Hamudi reference.

I've been throwing it out a few times, glad someone caught it.

being on drugs that nuke my libido to zero

Antidepressants?

 

[Ambatukam Alone]

you will feel like shit

No kidding...

There's a saying in

The church of the subgenius

( https://www.subgenius.com/ )

To get over addictions, you must over indulge it, so that it releases you...

(Or something like that)

So yes, you might have done it

Thanks. Doesn't sound like the way forward with stuff like hard drugs, heh. Yeah, let's see, I'm a little skeptical. What I think is going to happen is that I'll be down to a lower frequency and that hopefully I'll become less and less interested over time in and off-screen as well.