Instead of doing revision I wasted my day playing video games, and reading this forum. I’m on holiday, but at the start my revision for exams after Easter was going great and then spiralled into nothing. I always get depressed over the holidays, because I realise in the middle of studying that a very good looking male or the average female will never have to study for 8 hours a day to get to where they want to be. They have a social life, their parents, parents connections, and money.
All I have is a piece of paper and a pen. I try to make it work, I do enjoy studying, but I have always feared working very hard for something, only for it to be snatched away from you and given to someone way less deserving. That is my biggest fear. That is why I never gave 100 percent in anything because I feared that even that would never be enough, and I’m a stickler for time as well, so wasted time really makes me annoyed.
I have always been one of those people who found it hard to study, but one I got into it, there was no stopping me. Seems hard workers get what on by society, I always see those who aren’t as “woke” (lol) as me or as virtuous as me keep on winning, while people like myself, who were born with relatively high IQs but don’t have a lick of math skills or sports talent, and had to work with what they had and work ten times harder than anyone else because of this.
I’m starting to doubt the “high IQ” thing as well, since seeing my parents function in their day to day lives and their lack of intelligence makes me doubt that I have an IQ of 135, and that just like the concept of hard work, I’ve been lied to about that as well.
Again, sorry for the long post, anyone else feel that society makes us cope with the fact that they don’t see as useful? You also get depressed and realise that sometimes life isn’t worth slaving for?
All I have is a piece of paper and a pen. I try to make it work, I do enjoy studying, but I have always feared working very hard for something, only for it to be snatched away from you and given to someone way less deserving. That is my biggest fear. That is why I never gave 100 percent in anything because I feared that even that would never be enough, and I’m a stickler for time as well, so wasted time really makes me annoyed.
I have always been one of those people who found it hard to study, but one I got into it, there was no stopping me. Seems hard workers get what on by society, I always see those who aren’t as “woke” (lol) as me or as virtuous as me keep on winning, while people like myself, who were born with relatively high IQs but don’t have a lick of math skills or sports talent, and had to work with what they had and work ten times harder than anyone else because of this.
I’m starting to doubt the “high IQ” thing as well, since seeing my parents function in their day to day lives and their lack of intelligence makes me doubt that I have an IQ of 135, and that just like the concept of hard work, I’ve been lied to about that as well.
Again, sorry for the long post, anyone else feel that society makes us cope with the fact that they don’t see as useful? You also get depressed and realise that sometimes life isn’t worth slaving for?
