DirtyCurryCell
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I've been suicidal for quite some time. I blame my inceldom on my parents. Mostly on my mother who kept me from being blackpilled early on and stopped me from looksmaxxing and socializing.etc She kept me from going down education stream I wanted to go down early on made me do it her way. She did nothing as I got bullied from the age of 11 to 16. And she then enrolled me into a religous school that I didn't want to go to. She destroyed my chances with my oneitis. And when I started losing hair, she just made me put "ayurvedic" "oils" for TWO YEARS! Because she was afraid of PRPs.
Everything I was supposed to do at my age, I did them all FOUR YEARS later.
When I was young, she would always show my cousins love and attention when they came over and I would be treated as a second class citizen. BY MY OWN MOTHER! IN MY OWN HOUSE! She would arrange for him to come and stay over, because I was growing up and she wanted her fairy tale life of being a mother. She would make me let him use the computer all day and play games. My school vacations were spent 3 weeks waiting for that scum bag to leave and only one week playing the games that I like. A few months ago I called her out on this and she said "But I thught you loved your cousins."
Recently I've decided that I am going to kill myself soon. I'm gonna do it by 27 if I can finish my bucket list. If not, definetely by 30.
I have a collection of action figures, Manga, Anime, Novels and Video Games. These are my copes along with gymcelling.
I told her not to give any of this stuff to my cousins when I die, because that would be an insult to my memory, and she started crying.
I can't even commit suicide without my my mother guilting me into a life of suffering.
Everything I was supposed to do at my age, I did them all FOUR YEARS later.
When I was young, she would always show my cousins love and attention when they came over and I would be treated as a second class citizen. BY MY OWN MOTHER! IN MY OWN HOUSE! She would arrange for him to come and stay over, because I was growing up and she wanted her fairy tale life of being a mother. She would make me let him use the computer all day and play games. My school vacations were spent 3 weeks waiting for that scum bag to leave and only one week playing the games that I like. A few months ago I called her out on this and she said "But I thught you loved your cousins."
Recently I've decided that I am going to kill myself soon. I'm gonna do it by 27 if I can finish my bucket list. If not, definetely by 30.
I have a collection of action figures, Manga, Anime, Novels and Video Games. These are my copes along with gymcelling.
I told her not to give any of this stuff to my cousins when I die, because that would be an insult to my memory, and she started crying.
I can't even commit suicide without my my mother guilting me into a life of suffering.