- Sep 11, 2021
- 18d 15h 24m
So sorry for postmaxxing lately. A lot of people said I was “based” in my previous thread. Whatever ig. But there are bigger issues at hand rn. I am possibly being expelled from my school because the staff think I’m a crazy person who is going to shoot it up. Just a series of bad events I’m very...
So I got expelled. I don’t even feel anything. I thought I would be devastated but I don’t really care. This world doesn’t want to help me they just want to push me away. Being home all day is so bad for my mental health. I hate school but being out of the house makes me feel something. Now that I’ve been home for weeks my mind is going crazy. I do nothing but sit on my computer all day playing video games. Sometimes I just stare at my computer Home Screen because idk what to do. I actually wanna go back to school. I have a private tutor that I go to everyday for an hour until they find a new private school for me, though it’ll take months. This will most likely affect my future but idc I plan to just get a retail job and split rent with my parents until they die and take all their inheritance because we are an upper middle class family. I have only one friend I talk to but I feel so lonely. Other than him this forum is my only form of communication with other people. Idk where to go for help. I want to end it all but it’s so hard and I’m so scared of this world. Sorry for rant I have no therapist to talk to anymore. I also apologize for grammar shit I’m just too sad to even proof read.