SuicideFuel Update on my suicide plans.

[itstoolate]

I didn't want to make a new thread, but I can't find my last one (about buying a tent etc). Did it get deleted, perhaps due to detailing suicide methods?

Anyway, I'm going to buy my kit and practice the next time my parents go on holiday. Not sure when it is, but they usually take several holidays per year. It's too much hassle and feels wrong doing it when they're in the same house. If I actually did it, I wouldn't do it in the house. I wouldn't want them finding me. I'd go into the woods. But I need to practice and perfect my setup.

It's hard, because the more comfortable you become with suicide, the more it becomes a comfort, and makes life more tolerable. Because it forces you to live in the moment and not give a fuck about anything. So it becomes very easy to live another day, indulge your copes, eat some slop, watch some porn, watch a film, play a computer game etc etc.

Ideally, I'd like to move out and get my own place. But there's so much I'd have to do to make that happen. I'd have to lose 100lbs, increase my monthly income by probably £500, save up probably £10k and get my voice fixes (I have crippling voice disorder). It would take at least a year of concerted effort. And I can't even get out of bed. If I could do that, I could probably stay alive a few more years. Just being alone and free of the anxiety of living with my parents.

So I'm going to try to be accomplishing things whilst also planning my exit, to keep my options open. Which is difficult. It's hard being productive when you've given up, motivation is an issue. But if I get the weight off, at least it will save my parents some money on the coffin.

 

[autisticsoy]

How is your relationship with your parents?

 

[Icarus]

I'm sorry this life has pushed you to this point.

I hope you find peace brother. Truly.

Live every day like it's your last, and indulge in good copes.

 

[BricABrac]

Update to suicide

Still alive.

Curious.

 

[itstoolate]

How is your relationship with your parents?

Aside from the fact I never speak to them, fine. I love them and they've been great and devoted parents.

 

[itstoolate]

I'm sorry this life has pushed you to this point.

I hope you find peace brother. Truly.

Live every day like it's your last, and indulge in good copes.

Thanks mate.

 

[autisticsoy]

Aside from the fact I never speak to them, fine. I love them and they've been great and devoted parents.

couldn't you be willing to wait for them pass away first to avoid hurting them since they were great parents.

 

[Icarus]

Thanks mate.

I'll probably end up roping eventually as well. I'm just trying to take it day by day.

 

[BS06]

Hey it’s hard to discourage someone but if you do have a loving family that will ruin their lives too. That’s one of the reasons why I wouldn’t

 

[poorenglishcel]

Do you feel guilty for living with your parents? I really hope life gets better for you man.

 

[epstein]

Yo, brother you might have not expected Jeffrey Epstein replying on your thread but lemme tell you something.

Fuck all those whores, fuck your weight.
Brother fuck all this bullshit about finding a new flat and everything. Get some proper copes, go fuck some hookers, take the car from your parents drive with it even if you don’t have a license, smoke, drink and be your own Chad, this means don’t let yourself be pressed by society thinking you are a Sub-3.

Focus on your career attend if possible university, university is actually one of the fiew ways out of Inceldom, study something that will bring you a ton of money.
If you can’t look some other ways you can generate income, look for new jobs maybe some slave shit where you get a ton of money like an oil rig or a mine.
Invest some money into stocks try everything you can.

Judging by the fact your parents go on holidays often, you be able to begmaxx and get some money. You say you wanna commit suicide this means you dont care about your parents much so if begmaxxing doesn’t work just straight up scam them. If you have some savings, buy a flight ticket fly to Thailand, fuck some asian whores, smoke a blunt and think about roping again. Maybe this shit will teach you that theres more to life than some random foids and retarded britcels. Go on a spiritual adventure.

Don’t let this fucking man made society defeat you. Just surf the Kali Yuga man.




Let the goyim deal in the real world.

 

[TooSomething]

couldn't you be willing to wait for them pass away first to avoid hurting them since they were great parents.

Imagine actually having great parents and still be willing to hurt them like this.

 

[itstoolate]

couldn't you be willing to wait for them pass away first to avoid hurting them since they were great parents.

Maybe. It's hard to live through each day. I wish I'd killed myself a decade ago and taken out life insurance, to leave my parents a million quid or so. It's too late now, they're old and will be dead soon themselves.

 

[itstoolate]

I'll probably end up roping eventually as well. I'm just trying to take it day by day.

How old are you?

 

[itstoolate]

Imagine actually having great parents and still be willing to hurt them like this.

You don't understand being genuinely suicidal if you think like this. Nobody wants to kill themselves, they just can't bear the pain and suffering anymore. I've spent every second of every day for the last 13 years thinking about killing myself, or fantasising about the past, crying most days, in constant suffering. Despite being on anti-depressants.

 

[autisticsoy]

Maybe. It's hard to live through each day. I wish I'd killed myself a decade ago and taken out life insurance, to leave my parents a million quid or so. It's too late now, they're old and will be dead soon themselves.

How soon like a years or a decade?

 

[Icarus]

How old are you?

24

Gonna be 25 in April this year

 

[itstoolate]

Yo, brother you might have not expected Jeffrey Epstein replying on your thread but lemme tell you something.

Fuck all those whores, fuck your weight.
Brother fuck all this bullshit about finding a new flat and everything. Get some proper copes, go fuck some hookers, take the car from your parents drive with it even if you don’t have a license, smoke, drink and be your own Chad, this means don’t let yourself be pressed by society thinking you are a Sub-3.

Focus on your career attend if possible university, university is actually one of the fiew ways out of Inceldom, study something that will bring you a ton of money.
If you can’t look some other ways you can generate income, look for new jobs maybe some slave shit where you get a ton of money like an oil rig or a mine.
Invest some money into stocks try everything you can.

Judging by the fact your parents go on holidays often, you be able to begmaxx and get some money. You say you wanna commit suicide this means you dont care about your parents much so if begmaxxing doesn’t work just straight up scam them. If you have some savings, buy a flight ticket fly to Thailand, fuck some asian whores, smoke a blunt and think about roping again. Maybe this shit will teach you that theres more to life than some random foids and retarded britcels. Go on a spiritual adventure.

Don’t let this fucking man made society defeat you. Just surf the Kali Yuga man.




Let the goyim deal in the real world.

Thanks for the sentiment, Jeff. I'm just too old and broken to adopt a don't-give-a-fuck attitude. I've literally spent the last 20 years systematically destroying myself in every way possible. You need some ego and confidence to do that. I have none. Plus I'd have to accomplish so much to even be able to do any one thing you mention, my body is so disgusting I can't even show it to whores, I have a small, dysfunctional dick and a likely unfixable voice disorder which prevents me even speaking to, and being understood, by other humans.

If it was 20 years ago, or even 10 years ago, I would be able to do something with my life, but it's too late.

My parents are poor, they just save up to take cheap holidays. Some of them aren't even international. They're just retired and dying soon so are trying to make the most of their lives. Which I've largely ruined.

 

[itstoolate]

How soon like a years or a decade?

Idk. I'm definitely buying my kit the next time my parents go on holiday, and doing a test run. Which will probably be in a few months. Then I'll take it from there.

 

[itstoolate]

24

Gonna be 25 in April this year

You're still young. My Birthday is in April also. I'd try to make the most of your youth and life, because it gets so much worse, and you will regret it so much when you're older if you don't. If nothing else, moneymaxx, so you have options in your 30s.

 

[DeformedDysgenicCel]

Brutal bro. I hope you can find some copes to keep you going.

 

[Icarus]

You're still young. My Birthday is in April also. I'd try to make the most of your youth and life, because it gets so much worse, and you will regret it so much when you're older if you don't. If nothing else, moneymaxx, so you have options in your 30s.

I'm just hoping I die before then

Gonna try and work on improving my hobbies.

 

[itstoolate]

Brutal bro. I hope you can find some copes to keep you going.

Thanks

 

[epstein]

Thanks for the sentiment, Jeff. I'm just too old and broken to adopt a don't-give-a-fuck attitude. I've literally spent the last 20 years systematically destroying myself in every way possible. You need some ego and confidence to do that. I have none. Plus I'd have to accomplish so much to even be able to do any one thing you mention, my body is so disgusting I can't even show it to whores, I have a small, dysfunctional dick and a likely unfixable voice disorder which prevents me even speaking to, and being understood, by other humans.

If it was 20 years ago, or even 10 years ago, I would be able to do something with my life, but it's too late.

My parents are poor, they just save up to take cheap holidays. Some of them aren't even international. They're just retired and dying soon so are trying to make the most of their lives. Which I've largely ruined.

Brootal man.

 

[GoyimLivesMatter]

Don't do it

 

[Nicel]

Anyway, I'm going to buy my kit

Where did you buy your kit from? If you dont mind me asking

 

[itstoolate]

Where did you buy your kit from? If you dont mind me asking

I haven't bought it yet tbh. I only bought a rope. But Amazon. Jeff Bezos will kill me.

 

[Nicel]

I haven't bought it yet tbh. I only bought a rope. But Amazon. Jeff Bezos will kill me.

Oh alright i was also thinking of suicide and i was wondering where you'd go to find a quick and fast way to do it

 

[itstoolate]

Oh alright i was also thinking of suicide and i was wondering where you'd go to find a quick and fast way to do it

I went into detail on my previous thread, but it seems to have been deleted. I'm doing carbon monoxide poisoning, using charcoal gas-- I just need a BBQ and an enclosed space. I'm too cowardly for a violent method.

 

[Nicel]

I went into detail on my previous thread, but it seems to have been deleted. I'm doing carbon monoxide poisoning, using charcoal gas-- I just need a BBQ and an enclosed space. I'm too cowardly for a violent method.

Alright thanks for telling me I hope u dont commit and find something to keep u going in life, I hope that for the both of us

 

[itstoolate]

Alright thanks for telling me I hope u dont commit and find something to keep u going in life, I hope that for the both of us

Thanks, I hope the same for you. If you're young, I wouldn't do it. Unfortunately, I really have no choice. It's a matter of when not if for me, as I'm old.