There are some in my family that were really into drinking and any kind of smoking from weed to cigarettes. Most of them they seemed like the suave and chadlite types when they were younger and the way they turned within about a decade of drowning themselves in that stuff made me not want myself to look even worse than I did at that time. I wasn't fully blackpilled yet.
By the time I was blackpilled, I saw how they seemed to have deteriorated even worse and gotten dumber and very embarrassing around the rest of the family. I did not want myself to end up like that.
Seeing how unfocused they were and one of my copes are video games where I have to focus, I opt out of wanting that as I'd rather not self harm myself into making my existence not just a mental pain but a physical one.
As for sex-addicted, today is the one day of the week I don't fap. I've made it my duty that I fap 6 out of 7 days and take one day to just not do it. More of a self control type thing than anything.
It's one of the most torturous days for me as everywhere I turn, I see something that makes me just want to get off. Due to I can't get the real thing, it just got me needing it multiple times a day. This is why I can't understand nofap. I don't think nofap is helpful to anyone. Especially if they're incel. That seems like self harm.
Sadly escorts aren't an option here due to they're not legal here, so I don't even put that thought in my mind. I'm not going to take chances with an illegal whore and probably get arrested for something that should be free to everyone and not just those with good looks.
Yes. I want to have sex, but not badly on taking chances of going somewhere someone will rape me in the ass if it ends terribly.
Rn, I have managed to go over two months without fapping. Mainly because I was always angry and miserable when I get off to porn.
I've always had a pretty high sex drive, and I would typically go on fapping marathons every night where I would watch porn for hours and try to coom more than a dozen times per session.
But then at the end it's like, porn makes it seem that getting laid and having an orgasm seem so easy and accessible. When you realize that all you've been releasing to is behind a screen or seeing guys actually enjoy a woman, you start to feel envy as well as a sense of shame that you don't deserve to get off like that and that she wouldn't really want you if you asked if you want the girl to do what she does on camera to you in IRL and for her to live out your fantasy and enjoy her physically.
I want to actually experience having a woman wanting make me cum for her, wanting to take my load from me, but if keep telling no to me, if I am not worthy for her to want to give me pleasure, or entitled to an orgasm, then I'm not going to get pleasure at all. I do not want to be left with beating my meat again. I understand that if I'm a lazy fat slob who barely takes care of myself to make myself appealing to them, then why should they put in the effort to make themselves appealing to me and willing to do things with me.
Decided its not worth all those wasted orgasms I've could've been sharing with someone else, and just go full monkmode. Maybe if I laid of my lust and my pursuit of sex, in the way that I look rn and the way I am living my life rn, I can focus instead on self-improvement first and making myself more appealing. And also, so that I can control my other desires like overeating, since I'm trying to fast and lose weight.
Admittedly, it is sometimes hard when you've gone without fapping for so long that you do start to get urges and think that rubbing one off for the night just once is no big deal, but I told myself that now's not the time to give in to lust.
And yeah, I also agree that even having to pay for sex is still cucked.
nigga what the fuck u even tryin to say I dont understand.
What kind of a lowiqcel do you have to be to pick food over sex?
I can buy food everywhere dafuq do I need it for free for sex is obviously far less accessible.
But you know what I take it back I would take food and since I have unlimited amounts I would just build a warehouse and order unlimited amount of food and sell it all until I become billionaire and then start fucking 10/10 hoes left and right and end up with both benefits at once.
Hypothetically in this scenario, both free food or free sex would just be easy in this case. Like, if you could get sex just as easy to get as getting food, would you still choose sex if its much easier to come by.
But IRL, I wish getting sex was just as easy as getting food.
Eating pussy can't sustain you, tho. You'll be tasting fish all throughout, too.