SuicideFuel Truecel trait: You talk to yourself loudly in public to cope with being truly alone

[SwiftQuill]

How does it give you pleasure? When I look down, I almost have tears in my eyes. If you had a big penis, you would be full of joy. The mental state does not matter. You just have to go outside show off your big penis to females and then you start to ejaculate on them.

I mean jerking off gives me pleasure

 

[Kamanbert]

I do this more and more on my mopped i need to get it under control. It's because i always think about some bullshit and it's intense so i need to get it out somehow. Generally i'm asking questions or affirm things as if they were obvious cause i'm outraged at the universe not agreeing with me

 

[LastGerman]

We live in a world where you need all three, good looks, tall height and big penis to be considered a real man

Perhaps you are a handsome dickcel so you do not understand my struggles in the same way that I am an ugly dick mogger who does not understand your struggles

No, I am not an handsome dickcel. I just have a small penis. You have a big penis. That is it. There is no "perhaps I am that". I just want to have a big penis. I just want to have that trait. I do not want to endure this any longer. Having a small penis is a curse. It is a curse solely by itself. Imagine you would have a small penis. Imagine you wake up and your penis is small. Men with big pensies are jsut unable to relate. there is n oudnerstanding. But I do understand, that I want to have a big penis. There are no struggles at all.

 

[LastGerman]

I mean jerking off gives me pleasure

Really? It also makes me suicidal.

 

[InMemoriam]

not my thing i tend to be an innermonologuecel , havent talked vocally to myself in years. i do daydream a lot tho part of the schizoid personality

how about you oldcel @Emba

 

[SickWeakCoward]

The worst is when people hear me. That's when i know i'm insane.


View: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4RU6iox3a3Y

 

[Teru Mikami]

not my thing i tend to be an innermonologuecel , havent talked vocally to myself in years. i do daydream a lot tho part of the schizoid personality

how about you oldcel @Emba

I'm kind of a blend between an innermonologuecel and an externalmonologuecel, I feel like I talk to myself in both ways equally as often as the other

 

[SwiftQuill]

Really? It also makes me suicidal.

Maybe you're doing it wrong. Or you lack decent porn.

 

[VλREN]

I do it all the time in my head

Hell am currently doing it right now

 

[LastGerman]

Maybe you're doing it wrong. Or you lack decent porn.

It is because my penis is small. I do not have any pleasure or joy.

 

[SilverBullet]

I do this too, except i whisper rather than speak out loud. At home alone or when my mother gets me mad is when i talk to myself audibly

 

[Darth Aquarius]

I just do not know why. I am suicidal because I have a small penis. @Darth Aquarius @Yabadadabadoo

Having a big penis and hating your life cannot coexist

 

[Darth Aquarius]

I actually do not understand this. Why are you high in inihibtion? There is no reason for it. @Darth Aquarius @Yabadadabadoo

Big penis and high inhib isn’t possible. I’m high inhib because my dick is small

 

[LastGerman]

Having a big penis and hating your life cannot coexist

Big penis and high inhib isn’t possible. I’m high inhib because my dick is small

Exactly. It really does not make sense. There is no reason to have any inhibition. I have high inhibition and I do not have any pleasure or joy because I have a small penis. I will never be content in life. As yo usaid, I hate myself. I hate my small penis. It looks out of place. It looks disgusting. Having a small penis is a curse.

 

[Emba]

not my thing i tend to be an innermonologuecel , havent talked vocally to myself in years. i do daydream a lot tho part of the schizoid personality

how about you oldcel @Emba

Both, innie&outie talkie.

You know how in movies the self-talker will "self talk" about how much he hates and wants to kill someone, then sees the look on there eyes change and say - to themselves...

"Did I say that out loud?"


Lol! I don't do that!

 

[Emba]

I do this more and more on my mopped i need to get it under control. It's because i always think about some bullshit and it's intense so i need to get it out somehow. Generally i'm asking questions or affirm things as if they were obvious cause i'm outraged at the universe not agreeing with me

Mopped? Or moped?
(Motorized Bicycle, transport?)

I love them things! They are nice! No extortion to use them and cheap to own and use!

 

[Emba]

I'm kind of a blend between an innermonologuecel and an externalmonologuecel, I feel like I talk to myself in both ways equally as often as the other

Sam hear

 

[TooSomething]

I talk to myself at home and in my car a lot to kill the silence.

 

[Emba]

The worst is when people hear me. That's when i know i'm insane.


View: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4RU6iox3a3Y

Around other people I only talk to animals in front of them.

They still think muy esta mucho loco

 

[Kamanbert]

Mopped? Or moped?
(Motorized Bicycle, transport?)

I love them things! They are nice! No extortion to use them and cheap to own and use!

I meant a light motorcycle kinda like

A godsend cause if i still had to work on a bicycle it'd be so over i'd probably quit this job

(But foids will still call me DUSTY)

 

[Emba]

I meant a light motorcycle kinda likeView attachment 1468020
A godsend cause if i still had to work on a bicycle it'd be so over i'd probably quit this job

(But foids will still call me DUSTY)

50cc's me, literally!

 

[Kamanbert]

50cc's me, literally!

Yeah it wont go any faster but i dont give a flying crap ! It's fast enough for me, i cope by thinking that mythical horsemen like the huns or the mongols were not any faster so it's all good

 

[Emba]

Yeah it wont go any faster but i dont give a flying crap ! It's fast enough for me, i cope by thinking that mythical horsemen like the huns or the mongols were not any faster so it's all good

My 50cc goes 50mph!

Its missing the "speed governor, WASHER" on the engine side of the CVT. Lol.

 

[anglocelticcel]

I have done this, it’s a newer thing (mid 2024). Yeah mate

 

[Sewer Koala]

High T

 

[Sewer Koala]

High T

mirin the schizophrenia btw

 

[Teru Mikami]

mirin the schizophrenia btw

What does mirin mean?

 

[Sewer Koala]

What does mirin mean?

Admiring

 

[Teru Mikami]

Admiring

Ah I see, thank you

 

[Sewer Koala]

Ah I see, thank you

Don't worry mate

 

[Sir Silentium]

damn everyone around you must think you’re a legit schizo

 

[Namtriz912]

People may recognise you if you frequent the same places making you famous.

 

[CosmicInjustice]

No, I talk to myself quietly everywhere, even when I’m alone in my house.

 

[Teru Mikami]

No, I talk to myself quietly everywhere, even when I’m alone in my house.

I also talk to myself everywhere, even at home

 

[Todd Thundercock]

My neighbor rolls around on his wheelchair many hours each day on his phone. He's obviously not talking to anyone else as he never shuts up and speaks incoherent babble. A couple times when I've walked past them, he loudly says shit like "yeah, she's an honest woman!" It has to be AI, or he's talking to himself, maybe a retard Discord or something at best.

I'd feel bad for him but he's obnoxiously loud and has had the cops called here 5 times now. He insists on rolling around here at midnight and pissing off the boomers here.

 

[EternalStorm]

Been doing that since I was a kid

 

[Rick prime]

damn everyone around you must think you’re a legit schizo

Schizos are gods of course, (only male ones as they might be the incarnation of erenyeager)

 

[EternalStorm]

My neighbor rolls around on his wheelchair many hours each day on his phone. He's obviously not talking to anyone else as he never shuts up and speaks incoherent babble. A couple times when I've walked past them, he loudly says shit like "yeah, she's an honest woman!" It has to be AI, or he's talking to himself, maybe a retard Discord or something at best.

I'd feel bad for him but he's obnoxiously loud and has had the cops called here 5 times now. He insists on rolling around here at midnight and pissing off the boomers here.

 

[TBlast]

Talking to oneself appears to be common amongst truecels. I do as well, mumbling to myself, think aloud and verbalizing my internal thoughts.

I agree with the verbalizing internal thoughts. Maybe it's also because I always have heaps going on in my head, it helps to confirm to myself what I'm doing or what I'm going to do and focus on that one point.

 

[TheCatMan]

Not loudly but I mumble to myself

 

[RottingMentalIago]

I do this all the time, if I'm in public and around a lot of people (on public transport for example) I try to control my volume a bit more but people can still probably hear me whispering like an autist

While walking down the street I don't really control it at all and I talk to myself like I'm having a conversation with someone, I get strange looks for this pretty often

Just now I was walking past some hermano and I stepped on something that pierced my foot (like a splinter) so I said "son of a fucking nigger" to myself, at like a normal speaking voice, not yelling or screaming or anything cause I wasn't really that phased by the pain but he still gave me a look

Oh and something else just happened as I'm writing this that's relevant, I'm on the bus and there was this manlet mtn negro with a very thin ltb brunette and I started instinctively saying "coalburner, mudshark, niggerwhore" to myself and when the bus started shaking I used the opportunity to touch her ass just out of spite for that nigger and his roastie mayowhore. I'm pretty sure they heard all this and she probably realized I was touching her on purpose but the manlet wasn't going to do anything, he was tattooed but he didn't seem like the stereotypical overly aggressive nigger

I know this might seem like larp but I'm sleep deprived and depressed so I'm more low inhibition than usual, still I didn't attempt to grab her ass, I tried to be more discreet with it and just graze it and rub my hand against it

Been feeling more lonely than usual too so I've caught myself talking to myself a lot more often, and being extra unhinged from sleep deprivation probably isn't helping

I want to have my face split open with a wrench, I just want to die so I don't have to live this pathetic life anymore, this post is just a rant at this point and I don't remember the original purpose at all. I want to break down in tears and cry it all out but I physically can't bring myself to, I wanna cry so badly but I can't even force out a single tear and even if I could what would be the point? What would it change? Who would hear me silently cry and wipe my tears for me? Nobody, that's who. I'm so lonely, I feel so empty and my heart just feels like a bottomless pit at this point. I've been deprived of affection for a lifetime, I've never felt the touch of a woman and I never will. Likewise, I haven't even experienced true camaraderie and brotherhood with another man

When I was young, I was just the plaything of normies, their tool, their jester, their own personal fool. They never cared an ounce for me, no one has

I'm sorry for sperging out and ranting like this, I'm sorry for this water, useless post, I'm sorry for existing. I know you all deal with the same problems so it's egocentric and selfish to put the limelight on myself but I really can't say this to anyone in real life

I fucking hate myself, I don't belong anywhere, there's nowhere in this world for me. Except for a grave. I do enjoy some of the peaceful moments when I'm alone but the respite never lasts long enough before I'm reminded how much of a disgusting unlovable freak I am. I want it all to end, I want it all to end now. I don't have anything to live for

See you all tomorrow either way, or maybe not, we'll see.

Don't cry because it's over but don't smile because it never began either, rope because it DID begin, we were just rigged to lose and gaslit to believe we still had a chance

Fuck I'm too tired and retarded to make sense

Lowinhibmaxxing.