My parents forced me to go back on my meds. I've been having really bad dreams every other night. Generally involving AR-15ing people. I really wish I didn't hate the world as much as I did. I just want to be normal.
Hopefully the flame will get put out out soon and I’ll become numb aswell.
yep same age as you, when I was 18 I was thinking it’ll happen soon, boy I was dead wrong haha.
I’ve seen your post about the chads attacking you in school after you asked out a foid. honestly I don’t blame the way you feel.
Thanks. You understand better than my therapist who has an 8 years master degree in psychology.
No worries brocel, normfags will never understand us. Therapy is just a money making scheme to bleed the vulnerable dry.
It's almost as if therapists try to make you fucked up on purpose so you keep going to them.
Yeah losing your 20s is probably more painful then losing teen love before it’s a reminder your youth is permanently fading away, time flys faster as you get older and copes are starting to lose effectiveness, as a wise man once said “every cope has an end”
That’s their trick they tell you that you are the bad guy, and they make even more money from the meds they put you on. Absolutely insane, the benefits of therapy is more for them then it’s for you.
I wouldn't mind watching my therapist get hit by a 20,000 pound truck. I'll make a thread on the shit he's said to me. He's an ex-marine and is hardcore as fuck.
I don't make eye contact nor acknowledge they exist either.
Oohh ex marine aka a pawn for Zionist government, I have no respect for those faggots. I look forward to the thread.
yep
Try not to look up former classmates social media I’ve done that and it’s a real brutal feeling. I’ve stopped and it does help because every reminder destroys your being bit by bit.
I understand I’ve been NEET since like may 2023 and it’s not a life. But going outside really hurts. I’ll try to escape NEET someday.
I didn't become blackpilled and totally give up. Hope until my late 20s before that. I had this false idea that I will eventually ascend. I should have realized by age 13 That may be in so short and ugly will result in a life of loneliness and Being an outcast. I also had to deal with a lot of bullying and abuse from everybody back then. I hate the human race beyond anything. And I should have realized that I don't have any interest in participating in it. Had I had the same knowledge. I do now at the age of thirteen I would have at least had a head start in trying to sort out my problems successful. Even that I would still fuck up though. But to realize I would never have a family would be at least in a depressing way, Very liberating, I don't have to end up like my piece of crap Parents or anybody around me dealing with relationships or love. I could just sit at home watch porn and get high. I wish I took care of my body when I was younger. That's my only regret.
I am getting there
